As It Rained by mamabobbijo
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Trunk full of memories, spread out on the floor,
Pieces of days that I'd loved through before.
The programs from plays, I'd helped stage in high school,
The shifter knob off the car, that made all the boys drool.
I sit weeping among them, with nothing to do
Wrapped up in these thoughts, what'll I do without you?
The joy they once brought to me, the laughter, the bliss,
Pales in comparison, to a lost lovers kiss.
The rain on the roof, seems to echo my mood,
It strums out my pain as I sit here and brood.
The day is so gray as I sit here and weep,
What shall I toss, what do I want to keep?
The rose from our wedding, that once made me sneeze,
The flash of your smile, when you'd tickle and tease.
The hospital bands from the births of our kids,
Memories for auction, but I'll get no bids.
The pictures of places, gone in the earlier years,
When I knew that you loved me, there weren't any fears,
The piles of our kids, in our family sized bed,
A love for the ages we were, so you said.
The days that you loved me and brought me such joy,
Run dripping with raindrops, or teardrops my boy.
I've let your desertion take a whole precious day,
The rain is still drumming as I pack them away.
The rain is still beating a tattoo on the roof,
But here bounding upstairs, screaming Mom is the proof.
That you can't take it all from me in that divorce court,
The things that you couldn't take, I call child support.
They fling themselves down in a frenzy of kisses,
I wonder sometimes, " Does he know what he misses?"
They wipe off my tears, full of the dust of past days,
"Come fix us a snack", my little one says.
They lead me back down to a house full of life,
The attic of memories, of that girl and that wife.
No longer important, as the recount their days,
They grow and fulfill me in so many ways.
I tried once to hate you, to revile your name,
But my life was much fuller after you came.
You left me broken, in a heap on the floor,
But the fix for the hurt, couldn't be bought in a store.
You left me these angels, this balm for my soul,
They have more than replaced the life that you stole.
They fill all of my hours with such unending cheer,
I only suffer that sadness, one time each year.
After crying all morning, in the attic alone,
I marvel at the sounds of joy in my home.
They fill it with laughter, these wonders of mine,
They ease the sadness, they create great new times.
I watch as they tease, and shoot juice out their noses,
I laugh as they, act out their days in fun poses.
The tension of this morning, runs away, as it drains,
We make laughing new memories, in our lives as it rains
Comments (15)
mamabobbijo
The last from the challenges, I think everyone is occupied elsewhere. No one has responded to, "Where Did I Leave It" yet.
rainbows
BJ, a heartfelt wrting from you. A magnificnet read for me. Poignant, sad and so beautiful.. Thank you for sharing these emotions with us all.. A deep insight into your life.. You know, I think you have things pretty well levelled. I do not make light of your loss in any way.. The break up of a relationship is so painful. I know this for myself. You always speak of the children, the little ones too. I would like to say this to you from my heart. They are truly blessed to have such a strong Mother, I know you are blessed to have them too. May they long wipe away your tears.. to swop them with a beaming smile of joy in the life that you adore. My hugs for you. Di.
CarolSassy
Very lovely poem. Yeah, men don't have brains sometimes. Excellent work! (:
romanceworks
What a wrenching poem, both beautiful and sad, but then that is what love is, too. Life seems to give us tears, which makes the laughter that much sweeter. Your words touched me, for I went through a divorce when my daughter was six, and later found my soulmate. Having children to make new memories with is truly a blessing. Very fine and honest writing. CC
Dinhi
A joy to read over and over BJ. I jotted a few things down from the challenge but work and soooo much work has taken over my creativity for a bit. I am now enjoying some time off, a home vacation that ensures rest and lots of creativity! [=
Sekadhar
Happy Easter! Superb poem!
TallPockets
Simply superb piece!! "Those were the days my friend, we thought they'd never end". My best to you and yours, always. T.P.
Hendesse
A wonderful poem. I like the mood which it contains. Superbly done!
NekhbetSun
Stirring and touching to say the least...funny you should post this now...just recently I was doing the same thing cleaning out the garage, going thru old mementos....although I didn't have quite the burden of sadness you're dealing with, but I feel and empathize with your pain, because who among us, after all, hasn't felt that same pain and loss. Your writing is simply superb BJ S ~ Big Hugs ~
npauling
Don't throw any memories out, at this time the memories may be sad but in years to come you regret throwing things out. I know I have. This is such a heart wrenching poem coming from your heart. Beautifully done and I hope you enjoy happier times soon.
Bothellite
The damage control of having been left, this rips my heart out. When I was young and lustful I had thoughts, moments, when stupidity could have taken me away. I didn't. I stayed and now the heavenly bliss of my life-long mate's companionship will last until the end. There is nothing in life that I know of that fulfills like this. Thank you for this read. It grabbed both ears.
Druidstorm
The heart is a vessel of life and in life sadness can make it miss a beat and retain a memory of heartbreak that slow its rhythm and it is here that your tears fill the sea of lost love. But from this loss hope holds up your heart and makes you smile for the child is your true source of love, a love that is bound in stone, a love that will never die, a love that is yours. Forever smile my friend for your children will always fill your heart with joy. Beautiful work as-always.!!!:))
mamabobbijo
I have truly learned the meaning of child support! They are here with me always! They insist we celebrate both Mother's and Father's day! I've not had many moments like that, and it was written from a distant memory. But thanks to all. BJ
mamabobbijo
Mama thank you.I wish I had read this sooner.Ilove you so much!You're not only my mom but my best friend! LOVE JULIE
HannaK
My English is not good enough to express how I felt reading your poem, just let me say wonderful-touchy