As many who have followed my art over the last couple of year's are aware for some time in the early day's of my art I rendered with a character I don't utilize anymore in it's complete form as it reminded me of someone I had a crush on.. Of course as is often the case, seemingly insignificant decision's in our life can have unseen monumental effects down the road.. This was one of those occasions!! I spent a great deal of time looking for another character to render with as a replacement.. Had character's gifted to me by other's and alway's discarded the idea of utilizing them due to the concern that they might resemble woman I deal with in the real world.. This character, Eliana was one such character that I purchased from Illusion designs!! Liked the character but rendering with it alway's seemed to be followed by attitude's from people I worked with.. Never really understood the reason's and may never really understand some of the chaos I deal with in the real world!! But after year's of chaos, nightmare's(literaly) and worrying insesantly about what other's think about such thing's I have started to take slow step's away from those fear's.. This reworking of the previous image is one such step. In dream's I have dealt with some of the worst assault's upon my person and character that any person should ever have to deal with.. And in about 90% of the nightmares, the assaults come from people I work with!! Many of whom I am 90% certain have decieved me about a great many things.. Although the why remain's by and large a mystery I seem doomed to never figure out!! Perhap's I'm crazy, or perhap's I have a view on the reality of my world that none should ever be gifted with.. An understanding of the hidden thought's and feeling's of those I deal with in the real world!! Whatever the reality it has been a constant drain on my emotional and mental state.. Fighting lonliness, yet unable to overcome the constant assaults in dream's, nightmare's and many time's attitude's in the real world after an uploaded image!! I am reminded of the old saying, never throw stones if you live in a glass house.. As many know I have thrown a few stone's in my time on Rosity, for better or worse!! But I have alway's known that I resided in a glass house and have alway's attempted to live my life accordingly.. Living a life of honesty and integrity, feeling that if ever I made a statement that could be construed a lie, it must be reconciled with the person or person's in question!! And thus requiring the same treatment of those around me.. The last two day's have been night's of nightmare's and further assaults that I can't explain.. Questioning my integrity, and battering my psyche!! And after waking for the last time this morning and contemplating how to deal with it this biblical story came to mind.. It's a story concerning a woman caught in the act of adultery in ancient time's which as all know was an act punishable by death in those day's.. The pharisee's, the legal system of the ancient Jewish world brought her before Jesus, that he might pronounce judgement on her!! In reality it was meant as a trap for him.. But his reply was profound and one that I would lay out for many to contemplate.. It is said that upon hearing what the pharisee's said, Jesus made this statement "He who has no sin may cast the first stone." After which he proceeded to kneel there in the dirt and write!! We'll never know what he wrote that day, but the end result was clear, not a single person who stood in judgement of the woman remained to throw a stone.. I feel many of the nightmare's I have are from people who feel that they have the right to stand in judgement of me, my mistake's and the many short coming's I have had in this short life!! I would ask that they consider how people might view them, if everyone knew of their every mistake if they were to be truly honest about themselve's to the world as I have been.. Eliana for V3.