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Tear Stained Heart

Writers Atmosphere/Mood posted on May 14, 2007
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Sometimes when I think back On the days and years gone by I sit here and relive all the sadness All The pain and tears I've cried I have Lived day to day just for a sign That love wouldn't pass me by And time after time I realized I had to act like I was ok just to survive Spent so many years pretending and Hiding the pain inside But the truth that I am facing now Is something I just can't hide I surround myself with faces But I'm still alone inside thinkin of what was, what is, and what could have been in time I look in the mirror and don't recognize who I see and in the ultimate irony of aLL Is that even my reflection seems to laugh at me So I spend some nights looking for a cure In whatever the bartender has to sell I daydream of heaven But live in a private hell If you asked me what I am all about I would not know what to say I awaken every morning with a heart that's filled with doubt And at night I live in nightmares And my soul dies a little more every day I've lived through bruises and unbearable pain Buried babies along the way Gave everything that I had to give Just to watch it get thrown away I spend Every single moment Trying to protect my tear-stained heart Wondering how to smile again But I don't know where to even start Day after day I feel myself falling A little lower than before And I sit here and wonder What in the world I've been fighting for I spend most of my time pretending Acting like I'm alright And if they were handin out Oscars I bet you I'd win one tonight For fifteen long years I have struggled To hang on to a dream that has died I've fought through the fire And been burned by the flames Silently watching my soul as it dies So I will take down that whiskey bottle And pour it tall and strong Cuz' Tonight I am gonna drown out the heartache And Dull the pain I've felt for so long Don't bother trying to call tonight Because right now, This is where I belong I'm spending the night with Jim Beam And I don't really give a damn if it's wrong ******************* just something I wrote recently.

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FallenAngelLPN

12:23PM | Mon, 14 May 2007

and you wrote it VERY well My Dear......understood every bit..even the unwritten....{{{{Hugs of understanding}}}} being sent your way...my best and prayers are with you...Gin

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ShadowsNTime

2:45PM | Tue, 15 May 2007

Perfect! Ditto what Gin said!

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dvsurvivoradvocate

11:53AM | Mon, 23 February 2009

Wow! that one word holds all of the emotion i am feeling right now. I cried as i read this poem because it brings up so much from my past, I too have buried three daughters that my ex esentially killed through beatings he gave me and they never recieved any justice from the law. I would like to welcome you to read my story of DV and being a shooting victim and survivor, please know that you are never alone. I may not understand your individual situation but, I understand it overall perhaps in a way most cannot. You have all of my love and prayers and friendship always. Holly Newhouse http://www.newhousedvpoetry.com


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