This post isn't my best - not my worst, but not my best by far - but it's extremely fitting for how things are going lately. The unknown. My health has been a problem for me lately. There's been talk of circulatory problems, blood clots, embolisms, and a few other things I'd rather not get into. I've been sitting back and looking at how things are going, questioning whether or not this is seriously happening. We still don't quite know what's wrong with me, whether there is actually a blood clot, or whatnot. I'm hoping it's just circulation problems; those can be fixed without surgery. Whether or not I admit it to my higher-ups (my parents), I'm deathly afraid of hospitals, needles, doctors, surgery, scalpels, IV's, and anything else that comes with medical treatment. Unless it's on TV, that's fine. Sure, go ahead, feel free to do surgery on TV, that's fine. But if you bring that damn...whatever it is you're holding toward me, oh, oh you'll be in for a treat. A treat like four-inch heels to the groin, that type of treat. Summer doesn't fly that way, there will be no surgery for me, oh no, no no no, so get away, get away from me now =.=;;;;;;;;;;;;;; ... See? ...Anyway... Like I said, we really don't know what the deal is... I'm getting my diet in check, eating healthier, trying to get myself balanced and see if it helps with the numbness in my legs and things like that. I'm not overweight or diabetic or anything. So it's a mystery as to what's making this happen so quickly, when I'm not unhealthy. Mom says it could be hypoglycemia. *sigh* So we'll try the diet. See if that works. If it doesn't, I really don't know what will happen next. Tests, and then what? I'm really scared, even though I don't let on to it much. The reason I made this picture today was...well, I wish there was an oracle somewhere that would tell me what was wrong, and what'll happen. If there's one thing I hate most of all, it's not knowing what the hell is wrong with me. It might not be serious. So I'll just try to stay positive. Always helps, right? *hopeful* If anyone could just maybe offer some good thoughts my way, work some funky artist mojo on me, it would be majorly awesome. I'm just in one of those in-between places that I need the support. My family, my boyfriend, my friends have all been wonderful...but it's still on the edge of "this" or "that". Anyway, I'll stop my rambling now...just...any thoughts or prayers would be most kind. I'm really nervous right now, you know? *sigh* Please go to my homepage for a link to my CafePress Shoppe. New merch up soon. Promise, promise, promise. =) Thanks for viewing, comments welcome as always.