I am sorry to have to say this, but for anyone unaware Mike sadly passed away in Decmber of 2009. He will be sorely missed by us all, Martin (Stepson)
It is, I suppose, inevitable that my upbringing has had a profound effect upon what I am, and in turn how my approach to art has developed.
My early years were spent in the Valleys of South Wales - a schizophrenic environment when the landscape of miners' terraced houses clinging to the hillside segues seamlessly into crags and fern-garnished mountainsides, vigorous brooks and secluded woodland. Musicality, lyricism and a love of spoken language are all part of my Welsh heritage and I think they are all discernable in my written works. My father was killed in WW2 and my widowed mother married a man from Manchester in the north-west of England. To say this development was a culture-shock to me is an understatement - I hated my new home, and my new family. Wales was - and remains - the place I call home, though we only visited there each summer holiday every year until my mid-teens.
Apart from those early years and visits, a further two years living semi-rough on the resort coast of North Wales, three years at College in Chester, and a single year working in the Fenlands of East Anglia, I have lived and worked in Manchester. The earthy and grounded tones in my work are directly attributable to my childhood and adolescence in the back streets of this soot-stained, grimy industrial city. My passion - and my life's work - for the education of children with special educational needs arose purely by accident: during the summer of one of those years on the North Wales Coast I worked at a Holiday Camp., and was asked, as a favour, to be 'Uncle' and look after the guests' children, arranging activities etc. The problems of one or two children who simply didn't fit in affected me deeply, and pointed me in the direction of my future career.
If asked what my influences are I could be ridiculously trite and say 'life' and given that I've lived more than sixty reasonably eventful years, there'd be more than a modicum of truth in that. However, in terms of literary influences, here goes: I've always been a voracious and woefully indiscriminate reader, although until I was in my late teens my reading was almost exclusively non-fiction. I was a typical back-street philistine late-fifties teenager interested in birds, booze and Buddy Holly - in that order. It wasn't until I reached my late teens that I began to read anything of interest, but when I did I devoured everything - Satre, Camus, Kerouac, Dostoyevsky, and Nietzsche. Poets included the beat poets Ferlinghetti et al, Blake, Gerard Manley Hopkins, Baudelaire, Rilke, Lorca, Cummings and a selection of contemporary British poets, Dylan Thomas, T S Elliott, Christopher Logue, Ted Hughes and [ironically] Sylvia Plath. Of these, I think only G M Hopkins and Dylan Thomas had any stylistic impact on my work, and then not deliberately.
Until the age of 18 art was of minor importance only - I wrote the odd poem purely as an elaborate 'chat-up line' - but my main academic interest lay in science. It was assumed that I'd go to University and end up in medical research. However, a chance friendship with an art specialist changed all that. After a few visits to pubs I discovered that I was moderately skilled in sketching likenesses: this led to portraits with pastels and then oil-painting. I was hooked. My friend sent a folio of my work to an art college and I was offered a place, much to my mother's dismay and disgust, because I'd also been offered places at Oxford and at Aberystwyth Universities to read sciences.
The upshot was that, after a catastrophic row, I turned down all the offers, left home and for two years drifted aimlessly in North Wales hardly earning enough to feed and house myself let alone afford to buy art materials. The experience with children in the holiday camp seemed like the answer to my problem - I could have a 'proper job' and still have time to make pictures and write. I made my peace with my mother, did a year's unqualified teaching to be sure I'd made the right choice, and as a compromise accepted a Teacher Training Course specialising in Art and in Human & Social Biology. At college, I exhibited and sold my first pictures and also had some poems published in college magazines.
For ten years I combined committed teaching with a moderately successful period of art production. Headship, however, requires a great deal more involvement, and the amount of spare time for painting and writing diminished year by year, until by my mid-forties I was totally wrapped up in my work to the exclusion of every other interest. My son's suicide changed all that. Art provided an essential outlet for the mental devastation of this tragedy, and for the trauma of a distinctly nightmarish final year of teaching leading to premature retirement. I don't exaggerate when I say that Art - pictures and writing - and the opportunity to 'publish' online saved my sanity.
There has been more than one defining moment in my life:
a. my sudden switch to art, leaving home, and the final choice of teaching as a career
b. my marriage and horrific divorce after 15 years
c. my son's tragic suicide [aged 29]Â - my promise to him led to online publishing
d. my premature early retirement after gross mismanagement by my employers
I'm married for the second time and have a stepson and stepdaughter, in addition to my own two daughters - and 8 grandchildren [to date!]
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Comments (18)
TallPockets
SO good, Mike!! You've SO aptly described MANY a son and father's relationship in similar circumstances. A few years back, when my late father was near his death, I finally realized that although he was my 'father', he was FIRST a HUMAN. With frailities AND good. Your insights and the talents to put them to word always amaze me, my friend. My BEST to you and yours, T.P.
auntietk
I am struck by so many things, reading this, that I don't know which to mention. The nature of oral history, of legends. The filtering process across generations, and now across the world, for me to get a glimpse of a man's life, which ended 65 years ago. How odd and empty it must have felt to realize your task was to love someone you didn't know. Expectations. Influence. Well. You made an impact. I love the way you write, btw!
RodolfoCiminelli
This is a very emotional work and that it arrives to the soul so much for the words as the splendid illustration that you had carried out for their poem....!!! My congratulations my friend Mike....!!!!
beachzz
Oh, what these words bring to mind, that man who is dad, father, papa, the hero figure who we then realize, is after all, human and real. You go so deep with what you write and touch me every single time. The image you created is just as powerful, that little boy left wondering about it all -
romanceworks
It is not an easy thing when a heart is so broken to piece together all the parts that made your father special. But your mother had the courage, and love for you both, to do this. How wonderful. Your poem brought tears. CC
hipps13
Hi Mike she must of loved him very much to keep a memory a live a love most only dream about such beautiful words to fit an image that really stands out sweet smile to you warm hug, Linda
koosievantutte
very touching.
helanker
OH yes ! That was indeed touching, Mike.
Blush
Very touching.. And a very emotional poem at that... Loved it... Please forgive the delays in not aswering e bots... Have been in the hospital for about 2 wks so very sick... Love this and you too Hugs Susan~
Chipka
Brilliantly and tenderly written with an emotional cadence that screams from each of the well-placed lines. So much comes to mind in this piece that I can't even begin to describe any of it, but reading this has been an enriching experience and I'm deeply moved by this. Fantastic work and a perfect tribute!
Minuano
It's hard to add something from what's already been heartfeltly voiced here. Just makes me wonder how much beauty, intensity and connection you have to express something evocatively eloquent as this. I've read it a few times already and each line resonates. Salut Mike! This is lasting. -Julian
BlueLotus7
Words from one's heart always heal in time...both your mom's and yours.
D.C.Monteny
Such a beautiful tribute, i read it and then again and then some more. Thanks Mike,for letting us share into this deeply personal poem.
amirapsp
Beautiful work well done!!!
AusPoet
You were truly blessed to have a mother who could paint such a picture for you. And we are truly blessed to have been allowed a moment to share its beauty. Thank you Mike!
mamabobbijo
She must have loved you very much to have kept him alive for you. Such a touching portrait. Thanks for shring him, and her with us,
leanndra
This poem struck my heart and brought tears to my eyes. I grew up fatherless, even though he was alive. I understand the sense of loss you must have felt. Your mom must have been a great lady!
novelist
You are truly a bard. I hope you will publish your poetry someday if you haven't already.