The End Is Out There by D.C.Monteny
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I’ve lost a game of chess
Against some silicone chips
A lukewarm, ersatz example
Of what was to follow later on
His body language warned me
It was not going to be good news
Retreated into the back of his chair
He gave me a sobering update
While the cancer in the lung was gone
It had spread out to my adrenal gland
My slight chance of total victory
Had vanished, I was left with a struggle
To the end
Well, I gave myself one day of sorrow
Extending that period for family and friends
After that I picked up my well worn sword
Of reality, optimism and stubbornness
I’ve been cutting some new paths out
An urgency to create being one of them
The luxury of lounging about has gone
So many projects I really want to finish
Before the end
There’s no need for exaggeration though
I might have quite some years ahead of me
But the final outcome is now crystal clear
So I better use my time in an optimal way
The end
Won’t wait
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Thank you so much for reading and any comments you might have.
Have a GREAT sunday
Dirk
Comments (20)
bpclarke
I have no words... I'm speechless. You have said them all. Bless you. Bunny
gateman45
exceptional attitude my friend...do it all, do it all the time....
fractalinda
My love and prayers for you, brave warrior. You will never know how much you've touched my life and heart, Dirk.
Chipka
This is undeniably powerful and drives many points home! There is always so much to ponder in life, so much to achieve, and always an finite amount of time to do it in; there are those who don't have to face obstacles such like this, and others who do, and what makes this so utterly captivating and empowering is the fact that it addresses the idea that sorrow often precedes the drive to accomplish things. There may be years ahead, decades perhaps, and I certainly hope so.
kansas
I got such a horrible sinking feeling reading this. But then my faith in God reminded me that often human diagnosis can be wrong. Miracles can and often happen. Your openness,honesty, and creativeness will carry you through whatever God has in store for you. You are in my prayers.
Cosine
I was afraid the news would be something like this. But your attitude is what amazes me. Go for it, Dirk; get out there and make all the beauty you have time for. Do not go gently into that good night.
amota99517
Your words are passionate and filled with an unending light. I will hold you well being in my thoughts.
auntietk
Damn. I selfishly hope that your creative projects will include posting your writing on Renderosity. I always look forward to reading your work. It's consistently thought provoking and brilliantly done, and your words make a difference.
beachzz
Yeah, damn. But you portray such strength and amazing power when you write and share your feelings with us. I'll be looking forward to every word.
Juliette.Gribnau
Ik hoopte en bad zo oprecht voor een andere uitkomst ! Zoals je zegt : lééf, zo lang je kan.. de moed blijk je ervoor te hebben. Liefs en sterkte Dirk, ik bid nu dat het je lukt er je mooiste tijd van te maken
RodolfoCiminelli
Impressive words and fantastic illustration......!!!! My prayers for you my dear friend......!!!
Dinhi
The glass is half full for you Dirk, that is a wonderful way to move forward. My heart aches and yet I am content that you have a direction now. May your new path bring you years beyond in comfort and creativity.
meico
Honest, brave and ultimately so moving that words seem superfluous. For what it's worth I won't cry for you - I'll cheer for your strength. Mike
leanndra
You are not alone! God holds you in the palm of His hand!
Gaiadriel
After my grace period of indulgent upset with this latest news, I found this. So, I guess I have to confess, it just happens sometimes (as when reading these words),and likely always will, that emotion knocks at the door at the most random times, with the possibility of a scenario that I just cannot bear to even think of; and innocently, each time, I open it unsuspectingly, with creaking hinges, and the entity on the other side instantly grabs my heart in a very powerful chokehold. Then, strength and balance come again. Strange cyclical stuff, my friend. Strange cyclical stuff. As if you need that pointed out, I know. I read this and it suddenly struck me that a heart really can break in two, and yet, at the same time, be filled literally to its brim, bursting with profound love, joy, gratitude, appreciation, acceptance, understanding, and all of the finest things in all of existence. But, I suppose that's how it is, isn't it? The latter are the very things that cause us to hurt in the first place..whenever potential loss of them, and one who has brought them to us (and you have, to me), whisper themselves into some existence on the horizon. They're inherent, and inseparable, even if they are batteringly intolerable to our frail human psyches. Yes, certain thoughts make me quake and tremble...but, along with you, Linda, and all of your family and friends, I am deliberately taking a firm grasp on NOW, on normalcy to whatever degree it can exist, and on HOPE..the hope that you've still got tons of tomorrows...and that I (selfishly, yes, but completely unashamedly, I say it) have tons of tomorrows with you in my life. No, my precious friend, as Cosine's said, do NOT go gently into that good night. Defy the poetic platitude. Life's journey is not to arrive, eventually, at the grave safely, and in a well preserved body. But, rather, to launch, airborne, landing hard, kicking up the dirt, sliding in sideways, totally worn out, winded, and thrashing...screaming, "Holy F---!!! What a wild ride!!!" (Yeah, go ahead, smile...I did). So, win, lose, or draw, grab that sword. And do so, knowing that we're all here, ready and willing, to sharpen that edge for you along the way. As for spiritual references, they're such beautiful sentiments and heart-rendered offerings, yet you know I can't bring you the same. Many times I wish I could, but Skyhooks and all yanno...As for the glass being half full or half empty, it's a lifelong habit that I've plainly never been able to see it as either; I just drink the damned water. That said, drink on, my cherished mirror soul-friend, greedily, savoring every droplet, until you're utterly saturated. Yes, that's my wish for you. Bob's right. Do it all, Dirk..all that you're able..and all of the time. And do it with love. (((Dirk))) Painful words, but brilliantly, honestly, rawly insightful and, as always, beautifully penned. And the image, a disturbingly lovely equivalent. :)
stefan_vitanov
What can I say ... we all must decide what to do with the rest of our days. But maybe there is still hope
CavalierLady
There is always hope, Dirk!! My niece was diagnosed with a very rare form of cancer that rarely lasts more than a year, and she lived for 15 years! Her will, strength, desire to continue, and sheer determination and fortitude is what drove her to prove all the doctors wrong!! That is your secret, Dirk... pick up that sword of optimism and stubbornness that you spoke of and don't let go! And know that you have many friends and well wishers on your side!! God Bless You and Linda, and here's to the life that is yet to be lived! Live it well. :)
idiot_sphinx
It is good to tie up loose ends , but remember always to look forward . We are with you and there is always hope , as CavalierLady says. In the words of Monty Python " Always look on the bright side of life " :) . You are in my prayers !!
three_grrr
Grab that well worn sword, lift it high in the air, and live. Live and love each day, and damn the dragon.
avalonfaayre
I have to look though it is so hard for me to see what you post. I find myself speechless and in tears on most occasions, shaking my head in wonderment at your courage and strength. Having at times caught a minute glimpse of your heart makes me know that the world would be a much crueler place without you. My words seem selfish and trite.