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Writers People posted on Mar 16, 2008
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I have written before of the time I learned of my ex-wife’s affairs [COCKTAILS AND CONFESSIONS]. I should have realised what was going on long before then – there were certainly enough clues if I’d had the wit to put them together. Cliché it may be – but I was the last to know. I’d originally intended to write a different kind of poem entirely: somewhat erotic and leavened with a little humour or whimsy. It didn’t [as you see] turn out quite that way. The humiliation and self-disgust still lingers and there’s still something of an edge. A pity, I would have enjoyed writing about the varying mood indications of underwear. I do so enjoy pretty gift-wrapping, though I much prefer the gift itself. As to this piece, the crucial clues were in the panties. Lesson: never ignore the washing line, and take your turn with the lingerie laundry. ----------------------------- AFTER ALL After all these years the plain platonic panties in subtle pastel shades are gone: usurped along the linen line by fine-spun lace and slithery silk in shameless shades of flame and darkest night. After all rejections of my requests for sexy stockings and suspender belts, “so comfortless and cold,” she shrugged and said: they are suddenly re-instated – on hygiene grounds, she says. After all the meals of dietary neglect to pile on pounds this heedless greed is jettisoned, to leave long legs lithe and lean and muscles toned, as brave and bare-faced off she jogs – her trainer [lover] shares her jaunts. How kind. After all the sudden sodden superfluity of showers, and unfamiliar perfumes hitchhiking aromatically on the steam, her tied-up hair is loose again agleam with henna and highlights, and nails in nacre and lashes curled. After all the dozy days of slow reluctant slouching off work I applaud her novel zest and zeal for ‘getting on.’ and laud the [many] extra hours at work each evening, even conferences. [residential ones, of course] After all the parties where her sometime skittish social skills have hit a new-found high; she dimples, now, and dances much, she sweetly smiles and circulates, and sometimes disappears. I don’t think to wonder why. After all those less-than-peerless nights I delight, as most men would, in a recent rise of passion and sensual play where a twice-nightly need is not nearly enough and the cute and cosy morning cuddle continues through the day. I observe, reluctantly, this drift of subtle signs of no known significance until connected each to each. Though friends imply much, I resist: I lack the needed wisdom, wit or will. And finally, as truth insists, The freeze-framed penny, trapped in trust, Floats, frees itself and downward drops - I catch the blatant meaning after all. What friends and neighbours always knew I now know after all. ----------------------------------

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RodolfoCiminelli

8:03AM | Sun, 16 March 2008

Excellent poem and fantastic illustration my friend.....!!! Great and creative postwork......!!!!!

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BlueLotus7

8:15AM | Sun, 16 March 2008

Join the long list of men this happens to Mike...it's nasty but true. I make no excuses for her cold behavior in the matter, and certainly not the lying and cheating, but a woman's heart needs the rush, her ego needs the high, and her sexuality needs to bloom to make her feel like a feminine desired female. Most husbands don't think of these things. Only in the bedroom. We tire of that because we know it's only to get off on the man's fantasy. We need to feel delicious to our man ALL the time, even while doing the laundry or the dishes. Hope this gives a bit of insight into a woman's needs, but in no way do I condone her behavior toward you. Communication between you should never have broken down...so sorry for your heartbreak. Writing is a perfect way to work it out. Love you, my friend.

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hipps13

9:30AM | Sun, 16 March 2008

Hi Mike trust makes us blind so each way can hurt when the light is turned on everyone loses wonderful work makes me think so a smile for you and a warm hug, Linda

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Fidelity2

11:38AM | Sun, 16 March 2008

Let it all out. 5+.

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beachzz

11:40AM | Sun, 16 March 2008

Very hard to write, I'm sure, acknowledging such a hurt and pain, but you've done it well and you again strike chords. I'm intrigued by BlueLotus's insight as well, not condoning, but knowing, understanding; hard truths there as well. I can't imagine how that actual moment of truth must have felt. Beautifully done, Mike!!

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auntietk

7:13PM | Sun, 16 March 2008

I imagine The penny dropped In synch with stomach, And heart as well. Wonderfully written.

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romanceworks

11:17PM | Sun, 16 March 2008

When trust gets broken, so does the heart.You eloquently put into words what many have felt. CC

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Meisiekind

9:10AM | Mon, 17 March 2008

I am so sorry for this terrible hurt Mike. xx

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helanker

2:23PM | Tue, 18 March 2008

OH, this is índeed so sad, that the one you trust the most is not to trust after all. It is indeed heartbreaking. I am so sorry you should have go through that experience.

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amirapsp

11:31AM | Mon, 24 March 2008

A beautiful Render!!!

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D.C.Monteny

12:20PM | Sun, 30 March 2008

Having never been in that place, it is a most revealing bitter sweet piece of poetry. Thanks for sharing this part of your life in such an open and honest way.

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leanndra

4:55PM | Tue, 08 April 2008

A very insightful piece of prose. However I will make this observation. Pretty wrapping is nothing if the box is empty. However if you have a plain cardboard box that is full of gold, then gold is what you get...

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mamabobbijo

8:04AM | Mon, 14 April 2008

It is always hard to forgive these things. I took ages, then one day I realized I had to forgive myself for his transgressions. Somewhere deep in there I had convinced myself if I was what he needed he wouldn't have strayed. I too was the last to know. When people asked how I could have missed it I couldn't fathom being with someone I didn't trust completely. How do you suspect someone you trust of that level of betrayal. I think I will never know. Thank you for your bravery in sharing this. It is beautifully written. The image so suits, "the last to know"


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