I am sorry to have to say this, but for anyone unaware Mike sadly passed away in Decmber of 2009. He will be sorely missed by us all, Martin (Stepson)
It is, I suppose, inevitable that my upbringing has had a profound effect upon what I am, and in turn how my approach to art has developed.
My early years were spent in the Valleys of South Wales - a schizophrenic environment when the landscape of miners' terraced houses clinging to the hillside segues seamlessly into crags and fern-garnished mountainsides, vigorous brooks and secluded woodland. Musicality, lyricism and a love of spoken language are all part of my Welsh heritage and I think they are all discernable in my written works. My father was killed in WW2 and my widowed mother married a man from Manchester in the north-west of England. To say this development was a culture-shock to me is an understatement - I hated my new home, and my new family. Wales was - and remains - the place I call home, though we only visited there each summer holiday every year until my mid-teens.
Apart from those early years and visits, a further two years living semi-rough on the resort coast of North Wales, three years at College in Chester, and a single year working in the Fenlands of East Anglia, I have lived and worked in Manchester. The earthy and grounded tones in my work are directly attributable to my childhood and adolescence in the back streets of this soot-stained, grimy industrial city. My passion - and my life's work - for the education of children with special educational needs arose purely by accident: during the summer of one of those years on the North Wales Coast I worked at a Holiday Camp., and was asked, as a favour, to be 'Uncle' and look after the guests' children, arranging activities etc. The problems of one or two children who simply didn't fit in affected me deeply, and pointed me in the direction of my future career.
If asked what my influences are I could be ridiculously trite and say 'life' and given that I've lived more than sixty reasonably eventful years, there'd be more than a modicum of truth in that. However, in terms of literary influences, here goes: I've always been a voracious and woefully indiscriminate reader, although until I was in my late teens my reading was almost exclusively non-fiction. I was a typical back-street philistine late-fifties teenager interested in birds, booze and Buddy Holly - in that order. It wasn't until I reached my late teens that I began to read anything of interest, but when I did I devoured everything - Satre, Camus, Kerouac, Dostoyevsky, and Nietzsche. Poets included the beat poets Ferlinghetti et al, Blake, Gerard Manley Hopkins, Baudelaire, Rilke, Lorca, Cummings and a selection of contemporary British poets, Dylan Thomas, T S Elliott, Christopher Logue, Ted Hughes and [ironically] Sylvia Plath. Of these, I think only G M Hopkins and Dylan Thomas had any stylistic impact on my work, and then not deliberately.
Until the age of 18 art was of minor importance only - I wrote the odd poem purely as an elaborate 'chat-up line' - but my main academic interest lay in science. It was assumed that I'd go to University and end up in medical research. However, a chance friendship with an art specialist changed all that. After a few visits to pubs I discovered that I was moderately skilled in sketching likenesses: this led to portraits with pastels and then oil-painting. I was hooked. My friend sent a folio of my work to an art college and I was offered a place, much to my mother's dismay and disgust, because I'd also been offered places at Oxford and at Aberystwyth Universities to read sciences.
The upshot was that, after a catastrophic row, I turned down all the offers, left home and for two years drifted aimlessly in North Wales hardly earning enough to feed and house myself let alone afford to buy art materials. The experience with children in the holiday camp seemed like the answer to my problem - I could have a 'proper job' and still have time to make pictures and write. I made my peace with my mother, did a year's unqualified teaching to be sure I'd made the right choice, and as a compromise accepted a Teacher Training Course specialising in Art and in Human & Social Biology. At college, I exhibited and sold my first pictures and also had some poems published in college magazines.
For ten years I combined committed teaching with a moderately successful period of art production. Headship, however, requires a great deal more involvement, and the amount of spare time for painting and writing diminished year by year, until by my mid-forties I was totally wrapped up in my work to the exclusion of every other interest. My son's suicide changed all that. Art provided an essential outlet for the mental devastation of this tragedy, and for the trauma of a distinctly nightmarish final year of teaching leading to premature retirement. I don't exaggerate when I say that Art - pictures and writing - and the opportunity to 'publish' online saved my sanity.
There has been more than one defining moment in my life:
a. my sudden switch to art, leaving home, and the final choice of teaching as a career
b. my marriage and horrific divorce after 15 years
c. my son's tragic suicide [aged 29]Â - my promise to him led to online publishing
d. my premature early retirement after gross mismanagement by my employers
I'm married for the second time and have a stepson and stepdaughter, in addition to my own two daughters - and 8 grandchildren [to date!]
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Comments (21)
STEVIEUKWONDER
Lovely words Mike. I admire your command of Her Majesty's English, without equivocation of any kind. Steve :o)
tallpindo
Raspberries for that! She hopes you'll miss the signal change and the flash of recogniton will be karma's own. Anger is a prop not made in Hollywood and not kept in Simi Valley to be dug out by some Charles Manson host. Hate is being toyed with. It is just a bartender. Have another.
G_Mansco
Splendid work in all ways ;O)
RodolfoCiminelli
Fantastic realization my friend......!!!!
dhanco
Beautiful and provocative words that so perfectly describe the pain and hurt, Mike. Have done the same (long drives) a few times myself. Thank you for sharing you.
helanker
Oh and I do the opposite. I never take the car if I am in anger. I would drive too fast, then. :)
avalonfaayre
Funny isn't it, how you can cease to love the person, but the pain from their actions remains. How can you not care about the person yet still feel the pain of the betrayal? Interesting. I can't figure it out. Why does the fact that it happened hurt so badly when I don't have any feelings for him other than relief that I am free of the constant torment? I don't understand why they feel the need to put the burden of their infidelities upon the innocent one. Sorry for the rant. This touched some sore places.
AusPoet
So quietly compelling, so much feeling so beautifully contained. Well done Mike, truly great work.
beachzz
You describe the whole scene with such clarity, such poignancy; slamming doors, revved engines, the red glow in front of your eyes, and finally a bit of calm as the road demands your attention. Oh yeah, been there, done that, though for not quite the same reasons~~masterful!!!
novelist
Wow. Your love of words shows in each poem you write. I appreciate how carefully you choose your details. Your phrasing is lovely. I especially love the ending lines to this poem. They provide an impact and are just right for this mood. I rarely comment on writing out here. Your poetry is worth reading again and again.
auntietk
Wonderful metaphor, masterfully done. So often I sit, jaw on floor, amazed anew by your talent.
romanceworks
Your words carry the impact of your feelings so beautifully. Many a tear has been shed inside cars and hurts scattered on the endless road behind and ahead. CC
lil_t
I too, can relate to this Mike, thanks for putting the words out there for me! Beautifully written! Such talent... you have!
leanndra
"a warp in the weft of the night's grubby weave of concrete and seamless, sullen sky, we see the scurry of the seeker of selective amnesia rattled but rolling exit-bound". Mike, these lines really touched my heart more than the rest of your prose. The seeker of selective amnesia may play those little head games, but in the quiet of the night, when dawn is long in coming, I believe that seeker faces the truth of the situation. They can't escape what they have done and they can't placate their conscience with 'selective amnesia'. Your words are always so poignant. You have a true gift of evoking a deep emotional response in your readers. Many if not all of us have been betrayed in like manner and we feel with you and experience the loss that you have experienced and the losses that we ourselves remember. Beautifully written words. Lea
algra
Driving on such a highway must be a pleasure, in our country traffic is a madhouse. Wonderful mood in this picture, but sorry, the prose is too difficult for me.
Meisiekind
I think we all can relate to this somehow. Thank you dear Mike for sharing this lovely poem of sadness and pain. Hugs, Carin xx
busi2ness
The rhythm of seemingly endless driving is well captured in the text.
hipps13
Hi Mike I love to drive and think sometimes what fun it would have been to become a race car driver or even a top-fuel driver wonderful work warm hug, Linda
LovelyPoetess
I have many a time used the road as a balm to soothe an emotional pain. You've caught the essence of the process with your words here. thank you for sharing such a succinctly captured 40 minutes. : )
amirapsp
I just love what you did here...Hugs
sassydog
Wow, lot of pain there. (in your words & your image I mean) I'm glad to see that you are putting it to good use. I hope you don't mind me saying that your poem sounds more like a AC/DC rock song and the image would make an excellent CD cover. Good work! I wish you well.