I am sorry to have to say this, but for anyone unaware Mike sadly passed away in Decmber of 2009. He will be sorely missed by us all, Martin (Stepson)
It is, I suppose, inevitable that my upbringing has had a profound effect upon what I am, and in turn how my approach to art has developed.
My early years were spent in the Valleys of South Wales - a schizophrenic environment when the landscape of miners' terraced houses clinging to the hillside segues seamlessly into crags and fern-garnished mountainsides, vigorous brooks and secluded woodland. Musicality, lyricism and a love of spoken language are all part of my Welsh heritage and I think they are all discernable in my written works. My father was killed in WW2 and my widowed mother married a man from Manchester in the north-west of England. To say this development was a culture-shock to me is an understatement - I hated my new home, and my new family. Wales was - and remains - the place I call home, though we only visited there each summer holiday every year until my mid-teens.
Apart from those early years and visits, a further two years living semi-rough on the resort coast of North Wales, three years at College in Chester, and a single year working in the Fenlands of East Anglia, I have lived and worked in Manchester. The earthy and grounded tones in my work are directly attributable to my childhood and adolescence in the back streets of this soot-stained, grimy industrial city. My passion - and my life's work - for the education of children with special educational needs arose purely by accident: during the summer of one of those years on the North Wales Coast I worked at a Holiday Camp., and was asked, as a favour, to be 'Uncle' and look after the guests' children, arranging activities etc. The problems of one or two children who simply didn't fit in affected me deeply, and pointed me in the direction of my future career.
If asked what my influences are I could be ridiculously trite and say 'life' and given that I've lived more than sixty reasonably eventful years, there'd be more than a modicum of truth in that. However, in terms of literary influences, here goes: I've always been a voracious and woefully indiscriminate reader, although until I was in my late teens my reading was almost exclusively non-fiction. I was a typical back-street philistine late-fifties teenager interested in birds, booze and Buddy Holly - in that order. It wasn't until I reached my late teens that I began to read anything of interest, but when I did I devoured everything - Satre, Camus, Kerouac, Dostoyevsky, and Nietzsche. Poets included the beat poets Ferlinghetti et al, Blake, Gerard Manley Hopkins, Baudelaire, Rilke, Lorca, Cummings and a selection of contemporary British poets, Dylan Thomas, T S Elliott, Christopher Logue, Ted Hughes and [ironically] Sylvia Plath. Of these, I think only G M Hopkins and Dylan Thomas had any stylistic impact on my work, and then not deliberately.
Until the age of 18 art was of minor importance only - I wrote the odd poem purely as an elaborate 'chat-up line' - but my main academic interest lay in science. It was assumed that I'd go to University and end up in medical research. However, a chance friendship with an art specialist changed all that. After a few visits to pubs I discovered that I was moderately skilled in sketching likenesses: this led to portraits with pastels and then oil-painting. I was hooked. My friend sent a folio of my work to an art college and I was offered a place, much to my mother's dismay and disgust, because I'd also been offered places at Oxford and at Aberystwyth Universities to read sciences.
The upshot was that, after a catastrophic row, I turned down all the offers, left home and for two years drifted aimlessly in North Wales hardly earning enough to feed and house myself let alone afford to buy art materials. The experience with children in the holiday camp seemed like the answer to my problem - I could have a 'proper job' and still have time to make pictures and write. I made my peace with my mother, did a year's unqualified teaching to be sure I'd made the right choice, and as a compromise accepted a Teacher Training Course specialising in Art and in Human & Social Biology. At college, I exhibited and sold my first pictures and also had some poems published in college magazines.
For ten years I combined committed teaching with a moderately successful period of art production. Headship, however, requires a great deal more involvement, and the amount of spare time for painting and writing diminished year by year, until by my mid-forties I was totally wrapped up in my work to the exclusion of every other interest. My son's suicide changed all that. Art provided an essential outlet for the mental devastation of this tragedy, and for the trauma of a distinctly nightmarish final year of teaching leading to premature retirement. I don't exaggerate when I say that Art - pictures and writing - and the opportunity to 'publish' online saved my sanity.
There has been more than one defining moment in my life:
a. my sudden switch to art, leaving home, and the final choice of teaching as a career
b. my marriage and horrific divorce after 15 years
c. my son's tragic suicide [aged 29]Â - my promise to him led to online publishing
d. my premature early retirement after gross mismanagement by my employers
I'm married for the second time and have a stepson and stepdaughter, in addition to my own two daughters - and 8 grandchildren [to date!]
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Comments (21)
RodolfoCiminelli
Fantastic realization my friend, have a great creativity.....!!!!
busi2ness
Well worded Mike, the uncertainty and yet the desire to get closer and the exhilaration... I was young too, once.
helanker
Beautiful Image and lovely poems too. :)
G_Mansco
Splendid poetry, so nice and creative ;O)
kansas
Wonderful verses which bring back memories. Thanks.
leanndra
Mike, Such well written words of the hesitation to take those beginning steps towards closer relationship. For me these three poems are not about the actual age of someone young, but the memories of a more mature person remembering past relationships and the fear of rejection. In "Footsteps" we see that although the ability of the person to do many things is there, at first there is a hesitancy to take those steps that might entangle one in closer emotional contact. However once the choice is made there is no going back. In "Nearly" we see the hesitancy of both people to take those steps towards a closer personal relationship, trying to deny the attraction. Ghosts from past loves hinder the ability to be spontaneous. However once again we see that one puts aside those haunting spectres and makes the choice towards personal intimacy. In "Words" we see the most sad aspect, of a person who is so afraid of emotional commitment that they would choose to remain immature emotionally rather than to take a real chance to find love, accepting a safe affection, rather than stepping out and risking it all for love and happiness. The saying, "No guts, no glory" comes to mind. I love how you write. You make the reader think, and remember being at those places in past relationships. ;) Lea
beachzz
Oh my, you've taken us down this path, shown us the way, beautifully. I understand, feel, live all of it, there are so many lines that leap out at me, so many words that seem to be talking directly to ME. They make me want to quote them at great length, use them, borrow them, maybe even steal them~~~they are that good!!
romanceworks
Yes, imagine what we would miss if we never took the risk. You put it so well. And striking image, too. CC
amirapsp
Wonderful work Mike...Hugs
hipps13
Hi Mike your words brought these thoughts I get clumsy and stutter me words and wonder around in the dark Your poems were a joy to read especially, like the words "the sweet air of love" scrolling back up :-) beautiful image love the colors sweet smile to you warm hug and love, Linda
novelist
Love and new relationships and the risk we humans take are universal topics for adults of all ages and not easily described. You have a gift for words and you conjured up our hopes and insecurities with power and clarity. The first poem struck a chord with me, possibly because I still dance--in more ways than one. All three are fine art and I find myself in each verse. I spent the afternoon with an 80 something woman who has 4 suitors, but she's afraid to move forward in any one direction. She reminded me today that life is not a dress rehearsal. How wonderful to have gifted stagehands standing in the wings to remind us all to live. Lovely graphic. Another favorite. Keep writing!
MarciaGomes
MAGNIFICA OBRA,BELA CRIATIVIDADE.+++++++++5 MARAVILHOSOS POEMAS QUE NOS FALAM DO SER HUMANO E SEUS TEMORES A RESPEITO DO AMOR. AMAR É TÃO SIMPLES É DE DAR SEM QUERER ALGO ENTROCA,NÃO SEI COMO AS PESSOAS COMPLICAM TANTO.
dhanco
So many brilliant and beautiful comments, Mike. I'm once again at a loss for words, but truly agree with all of them. Your words create a world of emotion, truth and beauty. Thank you.
amota99517
Your words paint such beautiful images and your art brings life to your words for they are the seeker of your soul and the care taker of your heart. Splendid work both in pros and art!!!!
Meisiekind
Oh dear friend - I am at lost for words... Unlike yourself who is the master of playing with words. I am deeply touched by all three poems and it definitely stirs the soul. Beautiful image too. Excellent work as always Mike. Hugs, Carin :)
auntietk
Somewhere between too much caution and throwing it to the wind lies the possibility of something new. Beautifully written!
SusiQ
I so love your first poem. It is really relevant to me at the moment! The hesitant dance and two-step shuffle of how far to go... The third one has such a different tone but has some incredible imagery! Hugs!
lil_t
So much truth in your writings, Mike. They take me places I want to remember and some not so much... Your artwork here is truly beautiful and fitting! Thanks for sharing! :)
algra
Nice words and also a beautiful "heart" image!
elisheba
you don't know how much this theme moves me, I mean it really does... because I became like a wild cat, running away or fearing the boys I might be attracted to... I used to be extremely spontaneous but I am now kinda lost and exhausted to be running backwards when I like a man :(... At the same time, this forces me to focus on myself :) I only wish things were simpler for me when it comes to deal with attraction...
avalonfaayre
Beautifully done. I can't imagine going back into that realm. I don't think that my heart would stand it. Shewww.