Genesis Operating Descendant. Okey, let me be completely honest with you all: Life now sucks, it`s like the day when all the bills are coming, like, flying trough your bedroom window. It`s kinda hard, the people you thought you knew, showed up to be @$$h0l3s, and the people that really was your friends, where almost ignored. The people i thought i knew gave me joy, i thought it was joy, because they where smiling. They where always smiling, espescially when they talked shit about people who seemed to be happy. They looked down upon most others, when i talked about my interests, they where like: "Shut the h*ll up, you squely f***tard.". I laughed, and shut up. They looked at me as i was some kind of monkey, like i was from another planet. "You play your guitar so well, how did you learn all that in just five years?" I asked one of them, "By not hanging out with things like you." He would answear. They ment that all my other friends where retards, that they where, inferior in skills with anything. Then i saw what they really where, they where all part of what they ment was the root of all evil: Discrimination. They hated religious people, so talking shit about my beloved, was not an untouched subject... :@. Now i have an apology to my friends, those of you, that i call friends, those of you who call me friend back, those of you, that i let down. Im sorry for being an @$$hole, i know that we are friends, but sometimes, i do`nt feel like i can tell them how much they actually matter to me, that they are people i look up to, that they make me smile. Even now, in my darkest hour :). Let hearts be shed And the dreams fall dead Lifting hope to unknown heights By exploring new, forbidden delights Exorcising everything¨ No choice but to believe Close your eyes Turn to him And let the genesis be fulfilled This is not blasphemy This is not something probably This is all reality A result of your ability For my beloved: Do you know? How many times i stared at clouds Thinking that i saw you there Your soul is the purity That fulfills my wish Every day Every night Every livng, breathing second I only wish, that we could be together... I guess we all need a God sometimes, i do`nt know, he has actually not helped me with the things i stribe most with.. It is your choice to believe or not I leave it to you... Vizronze.