Saddness by shadowhawk2zero
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Hi all, I have been away for a long time and have been doing a lot of soul searching and I applogise to all of those who PM'ed me to ask if I was alright and received no response or comments on their images. I have determined that no matter how you look at life, it is a situation that ultimately leads to death. Either you choose to embrace life and live it to the fullest or you run and hide from it for as long as possible. Me, I chose the first option, that is why I am now in the position I am, wondering what life really means to me at this static point in my existance. I am not saying that I would change anything that I have done, because ultimately like it or not, everything that you do makes you...well you. If you go back and change it, you are no longer you but now someone else, without the experiances that you had. Think about that one and you will understand what I am saying.
Am I a little depressed? Yes I would say that I am.
Am I thinking of doing something stupid and unplanned? No, I am not.
Sometimes the best way to work through what is botheing you is to get it off your chest, well I am getting it off my chest. It is hard to talk to others about things that have been seen or done if they have not been there, and likewise it is hard to listen to someone without being judgemental without having walked the same path.
I would like to say that I have gotten past this roadblock, but I wouldn't be honest with you or myself if I said I was, so I do not know when I will post again, I just happen to turn on Poser yesterday on a whim and made this, so I figured that I would let everyone know I was still alive.
Before I go, I would liek to thank Diana, Roxy, Tyler, Winterhawk and Charlie for checking up on me to make sure that I was still alive. You all are friends that went above and beyond the call to check on someone you have never physically met, and I appreciate that more than I could ever express.
"Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle." unknown
Comments (11)
Shirahime
Beautiful render!
svendsen
Love this blue makeup on the white:o) Super...Carsten
callad
True words.. Good to hear from you! As you have made the first choice, mine tends to be more the second one, but that also defines 'me' I think :) Someone once said that 'saying goodbye' starts the minute you are born and I think that is true in some way. Also the 'return ticket' has been unremoveably attached to all of us and in a few decades nobody will know who we are anymore. Thats fine with me. The purpose of life is something we all have to define for ourselves and when the road we walk takes us in a different direction, so be it :) As for depressions: I know them well, they are like guests that visit on a regular basis and mostly overstaying their welcome. Good thing is, there IS a moment they see no further joy in pestering me so they leave. Whatever direction you are going, I wish you well my friend. Godspeed :) Charl(i)e(y)
thecytron
Fantastic render!
Faemike55
Nice to see you post and let us know! great image! There are times in life when you've had enough of the hard blows and just want to quit. I'm glad you chose to go the route you have. All said, this is a great render! Simple and direct! hits the soul! You've friends here
Fidelity2
Very well done. Thank you. 5+.
Thetis
very intriguing
Smokin_Ganja
very beautiful. the eyes blow my mind!
Diana-143
Eyes, are the window to the soul. It's a very beautiful piece, yet her eyes seem sad. ~As are your words, though I do understand. Times are tough, and I agree with solitude to heal. I do hope we'll hear from you again and be able to enjoy your art. You're a wonderful friend. FADE AWAY My song wrestles with your limbs, forcing you to bend. Sad notes dancing on reflective memories, removed by a shadow…I fade away. Can you hear me? I whisper your name. Surrounding and crashing into every movement, an echo off in the distance. Relentless lows take me to the depth where you cannot see. Thoughts hidden away from light, detached from your impression. I grow louder as the wind carries me, but you do not know. My song, silent to your heart…I fade away. Diana-143
brewgirlca
I know where you are coming from my dear friend because I hit rock bottom myself this week and was literally within reach of losing it all. A few good friends and a bit of time in therapy and I am pulling myself up, at least that is where I am now. Funny how one step away from the bottom rung can feel pretty good. I haven't reached the point of creativity yet but I am at least beyond just lurking now. Take care. Roxy
wliebtposer
very good work great idea