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We all tend to do that sometimes don't we???
I wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and caring thoughts while we carried ourselves through this difficult time of losing Mom....You are angels and I love each and everyone one of you!!!
I wrote this for another site and I think it will fill you in .....
Been awhile since I have entered anything here , it has been such a hard time for me and I am finding it difficult to cope .
I lost my Mother on June 5th, she passed away quietly with all of her family and friends that loved her dearly by her side. We found out that she had cancer on Good Friday...she had breast cancer and didn't want to let anyone know( the older folk would rather think I guess if they ignored it, it just might go away) . And as they did a scan looking for other signs of cancer they fould a large mass ( 17cm) on her ovary.( The Doctors said it was not related to the cancer in her breast)...SO they thought they should take the larger of the 2 out here in Halifax, cause was a high risk patient (her age and diabeties) they were more equipped to handle a case like that here more than in Cape Breton...Yeah right! It took 2 hours and she came out of surgery with flying colors....everything was wonderful, she was well on her way to recovery when all of a sudden she started reatining fluid and her heart was racing.....this went on for several days and nothing was really done for her other than giving her pain killers and trying to " make her comfortable". Meanwhile this angel of a nurse was watching this happen to her and went over her boundries to tell the doctor that she needs some fluid medication and something to slow her heart down........She recieved the meds and started looking well again......... But the STOPPED the meds once more and it happened again.....this was hard on her heart..She wanted to return home to Glace Bay and be there with the rest of the family and just be "home ", I think she knew really!
On the way to Glace Bay from here where I live now-Distance 454 kilometres (282 miles) and she took another attack where - nothing done again - Just drugs ( which her kidneys weren't filtering it out ( hence the fluid retention)- when my sister and brothers got to the hospital there with the ambulance and her- there was one file (no chart with anything about her or what was going on ) and the note was....Do not reccessitate!!!!
Can you Imagine!!!!! She had a few bad days after that her heart couldn't take anymore......we took the 6 hour trip to be by her side and just made it.....I said goodbye to a friend and the best Mother anyone would ever have on Friday, June 5th....she waited for me, my husband and daughter to get there and we just made it.....she took her last breath just about a half hour later...and left us...
I can't believe that she won't be here anymore to laugh and carry on- just to call her and say hi Mom how are you and such......
I beleive that the Doctor's here did a lousy job at takeing care of our Mom- if it wasn't for the doctors here and the lack of knowledge ....I am sure she still would be here with us today!!!
They destroyed her heart ( which was normal and working fine prior to the surgery) and they also tore mine appart!!!!!
I love you Mom and will always miss you...
You're with Dad now
Rest in Peace
Anne
PS Found out the results of the report on the tumor on her ovary..IT WASN"T CANCER!!! So if that was left there for years...she would have had her breast off there and wouldn't be dead now....what can you do???....nothing really - just be thankful that Mom never suffered....
Comments (32)
Blazerwiccan
I was just going to post what a lovely render but then read your story and I am so sorry to read this my heart goes out to you and your family. ((hugs))
crender
so awesome and well done job!!!
eekdog
a moving story anne, again my deepest sympathy my friend. your image is as beautiful a life, and i'm sure your mom was also. lol steve
Faemike55
Very sad to see what was done and NOT done for your mother! As you point out, she didn't suffer and she is at peace. I pray that you find peace and comfort. Beautiful image (almost forgot the image I was so wrapped up in the information)
shadownet
Beautiful
mikeerson
I've been thinking of you.... wondering how you've been doing. dealing with this is hard, but you have to do it. I read what you wrote... god, it sounds real close to what I went through with my Mom in 1999-2001.... It was sad to see her go, but like yours, she waited for us all to get there. ...Well, I'm happy to see you posted, there for the longest time it was day after day and then once in a while.... but this render looks like you were never far from it... this has an alice in wonderland feel to it... YOU HAVE BEEN FAVORITIZED!!! ...It's so great to see a post from you.
angelafair
Very beautiful render! Such a sad, but touching story! My heart goes out to you and your family! My prayers are with you, God speed to you and your broken heart! (((hugs)))
LivingPixels
They say time is a healer in a way, but truth is you never really get completely over it but it soothes you as life goes on it takes time withe each idividual, so just handg on in ther Ann LOL!!!! Your image, it must be about the best you,ve done in a long time Ann!! Nice to see you back, Been thinking of you your trials!!!!Keep on in there!!!!
bebert
very lovely scene
Petra-S
wunderschöne Szene mit fantastischen details!
Shirahime
Lovely!
B_PEACOCK
That is really sad. Sometimes doctors do not know their heads from their ass. I know it is really rough Anne. My love and prayers have been with you and your family the whole time Beautiful image and tribute to your mom. I am sure she is looking down and smiling on you Again I am so sorry for your loss. I know what you are going though. Just as you were here for me at the losing of my mom know I am always here for you Love and Blessings
dakotabluemoon
So sorry to hear of this and such a beautiful dedication my friend and may God Bless You sweets.
erlandpil
Wonderfult erland
vaggabondd
I am glad you are back my friend. so, so sorry for your loss
adrie
Very beautiful and magical work my friend, I am so sorry for your loss.
anitalee
Lovely image, so sorry for your loss
nikkis
Anne, this is really beautiful, nice work my friend!
brycek
Lovely scene..sorry for your loss!!
altec101
Anne my hart goes out to you, when my mother passed away I was 150 miles away and could not get there quick enough :( This image is very beautful. loving hug from David.
MarciaGomes
PRECIOSA CENA MÁGICA MINHA AMIGA ADORÁVEIS FADA DELICADAS POSE,MAGNIFICO BACKGROUND . É MUITO TRISTE A HISTÓRIA DA DOENÇA DA SUA MÃE,ESPERO QUE ELA NÃO SOFREU. TODOS ESTÃO EM MINHAS ORAÇÕES.
ANGELFIRE999
beautiful work. I am so sorry to hear about your mom. My heart goes out to you. God bless!
drifterlee
Gorgeous scene!!!!!!
ramhernan
My friend, i'm so sorry to know about your loss, this is a real gorgeous image and a wonderful tribute to your Mom, my prayers are with you and your family, hugs.
JLyons
A wonderful work.I just wish the circumstances were different.
e-brink
A beautiful image! Wonderful composition and style - very lovely indeed!
missgrin
Great scenery...
beatoangelico
LOVE THE SCENE AND FANTASTIC WORK...BRAVISSIMA..!!!
JeffersonAF
Very beautiful.
SkyeKat
A lovely image - I'm so sorry for your loss and for the mistakes made by the so called 'professionals'.