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Life in Shades of Gray

Writers Atmosphere/Mood posted on Sep 25, 2009
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Life in Shades of Gray These days everything is sort of Gray Nothing Blah I still function Not sad Not angry Just ... nothing No joy in accomplishment Doing things just to be doing things Pick up a pen, a brush, put it back down Mind sort of floaty and blank Making art is a distant memory I have no idea how I ever created anything Friends call But there's nothing to say Nothing is going on I have no answer for the question "What's new" So I just avoid the question I'm pretty sure there's something Bothering me But I couldn't tell you Exactly What it is They tell me I'm not alone Lots of people are depressed Okay Thanks That isn't the least bit helpful They tell me I should make an effort Stay connected to my friends They want me to talk (Endless talk) But why? What difference could it possibly make? I'm just here every day Life in shades of gray .......... I hope there are those of you who are worried about me after reading this, because if you are, that means I've done a good job of portraying depression and what it's like. Actually, I'm fine. (Writers don't always write autobiographical pieces ... we can write anything we please!) It was my goal with this poem to speak for those who are depressed and can't speak for themselves. Anyone who has suffered from depression will know ... if I were depressed right now, I wouldn't have written the poem! Being creative and expressing emotions when you're in the midst of depression is a mutually exclusive proposition. The topic is up for me right now because I have more than one person in my life who is depressed. I don't know if there are always a lot of depressed people around and I'm just more sensitive to it right now, or if there's something in the water that's seriously bumming people out, but it seems like everywhere I turn, I'm seeing the blank face of depression. Here's a good resource if you need one: Dealing With Depression .......... Cover art done in ArtRage and Photoshop Font is "Kilroy Was Here"

Comments (21)


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Meisiekind

9:28AM | Fri, 25 September 2009

Oh Tara - this poem is speaking to my heart! I have been there, done that! I still have times (lately fairly frequently but with good reason) that the black blanket of depression can enfold me for short periods of time and without prior warning. Very, very well written my friend! You hit the nail spot on! (I know you're not depressed or else we wouldn't have giggled so much on the phone last night!!! huge smile)

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Faemike55

9:41AM | Fri, 25 September 2009

I suffer from depression and this poem is very true. (I've got mine under control, thank you) Excellent portrayal!

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helanker

10:37AM | Fri, 25 September 2009

It is a beautiful and true poem and I have been there, done that, as Carin also said. But I am glad you are ok, my friend :-)) I am ok too, but no creativity is with me these weeks. I get nothing done. Thirth week actually. I have stacks of empty canvases, just waiting. Lots of Watercolor paper, Lots of drawing boards, but no creativity.

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Rainastorm

11:42AM | Fri, 25 September 2009

Your poem is so very true...hits home...you have done amazing on it.

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emmecielle

12:51PM | Fri, 25 September 2009

Nice words that touch the heart, Tara! Luckily I'm not depressed, but I know people who are... and they suffer a lot!

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durleybeachbum

1:15PM | Fri, 25 September 2009

Stupendous! Like you, I know quite a few who suffer.

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cfulton

2:18PM | Fri, 25 September 2009

Hmm, I say thanks to photography and RR that I am doing better than the chords struck in my being by your words. Thanks for sharing, Tara. Have a great weekend! Clive

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bmac62

2:52PM | Fri, 25 September 2009

Very well written. I used to have no personal experience with the subject...until 2005. Great stress (workwise) for 7-8 months straight during that year got to me. I experienced absolutely everything you've written above! The work mess straightened out and poof...life has been fine since...even through the death of my spouse, the death of my father, and major surgery. I guess different things trigger depression in different people. If you've never been here yourself...your powers of observation are right on!

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romanceworks

3:00PM | Fri, 25 September 2009

It is a very sad poem. In a single heartbeat I lost my soulmate, husband, lover, best friend, business and creative partner of 30 years. I am in the 4th stage of grief - depression and despair, though I continue to be creative and embrace certain aspects of life. Someday, if a miracle happens, I will reach the 5th stage of grief ... which is acceptance. CC

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npauling

9:00PM | Fri, 25 September 2009

You have written this so well and it has such a familiar ring to it. There does seem to be a lot of depressed people around or is it that they have just forgotten how to have fun and smile.

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cmolsen2002

12:05AM | Sat, 26 September 2009

How eloquently this ineffable pain is expressed, Tara. I can empathise, and I thank you so much for the beacon of hope you added with the link. I do hope that those who need it will find the energy to click the link and to benefit from it!

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beachzz

12:54AM | Sat, 26 September 2009

I don't even know what to say about this--it's so huge. I know people who live this way, who don't even know why. You paint the very gray world they live it. Powerful, poignant and terribly sad.

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hipps13

1:22PM | Sat, 26 September 2009

WOW is all I can say wonderful work, Tara May warm hug and love, Linda Kaye

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elfin14doaks

5:15PM | Sat, 26 September 2009

I think you might be on to something with the water thing, seriously. I don't think it's necessarily what's in the water, but maybe what's been taken out. Great work I think you hit it on the head.

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orig_buggy

6:57PM | Sat, 26 September 2009

Excellent write! I'm glad your ok! My husband suffers from that and it is terribly hard to have to deal with...I will say he has been doing much better this last week with new inspiration and meds.

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dakotabluemoon

10:42AM | Sun, 27 September 2009

This is very beautiful and true i have a sister that is going through this after the loss of her husband and some days she just exist as a zombie she will not seek help i can't seem to help her she wants no one around her and i am really scared of what she is going to do next so scared that if she does not answer the phone i am running over there constantly and it is catching up with me also.We both lost our parents last year a month apart so this has added to it i am just beyond trying anymore but i guess i am just more strong headed and i never give up on anything till i get it right so i pray i can help her somehow and thanks for this it is very very heartfelt.

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Merrylee

11:15AM | Mon, 28 September 2009

Oh Tara this is a great piece of work and it so happens today I'm going to meet with a Women's Depression group.

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wysiwig

1:26AM | Wed, 30 September 2009

Times are hard for many and there seems to be no clear way forward. Your poem really speaks to me. I've had loses in my life and most recently worked at a job under horrible conditions. Then the worst thing that could happen happened and I was laid off. Once I stopped working, the burdens were lifted and I'm better than ever. As I told someone on this site, you have to take that monster you've got in your drawer, look it straight in the face and tell it to piss off. I hope your friends are feeling better soon.

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anahata.c

11:59PM | Mon, 05 October 2009

I'm only commenting on a piece here & there right now, so it could look strange to pick this one out of all your recent posts, lol, but it makes sense. Because your writing has such subtle breath & nuance, flowing the way thought & feeling does, that it's natural for me to pick it. I just wanted to come here and say what a pleasure it is to read your writing. You caught depression so well. It's a "relatable" form of depression, one which we may all know, but the state you portray isn't far from the deep plunge that some eventually take; so you caught the slippery slope well too. And (again) your lineation is just right, your use of single-word lines, your easeful manner, all of it; and you have this way of posing a problem near the end & then ending with a characteristic surprise—sometimes uplifting, sometimes light, sometimes painful, sometimes resigned or ironic: It's present here again, with total ease & truthfulness. I keep thinking I'm gonna respond to your writing with writing, but I never do, do I? Well, it's a really well-written piece, and you caught the sigh & disconnection of it so well, I'll let your writing speak for itself. Another fine piece of writing from you; they're all so nuanced & insightful and yet they feel as if you wrote them in a moment and just flew them in the air...amazing how you do that! Whoosh...

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tizjezzme

7:58PM | Fri, 16 October 2009

Yes ... and it's a blessing when the one suffering has that one special friend he can confide in and open up to wholeheartedly .. every single day, and every single night, (hours on end ) ... no matter the time difference; and knowing he has someone he can trust with his life and who loves him unconditionally in return. This is powerful medicine. :)

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ontar1

9:59AM | Fri, 13 November 2009

Beautiful poem, awesome work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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