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...So my neighbor and friend of over ten years killed himself today...shot himself in the head... He's my mom's best friend. I'm so overwhelmed and grief-stricken. I feel...I feel sick, almost. He's been depressed for a while, but he upped his Lexapro dosage and we thought he was doing good...we just saw him on Tuesday...it was my day off and he wanted to come by and talk... And then today.... My mom is devastated, I was just holding her and she was just wailing and crying and screaming about how she loved him and how could he do this to himself. It still hasn't hit me yet, I don't think...
I remember when my grandfather died. I was thirteen. It didn't hit me till three days later, and then all I could do was cry. I think it's the same sort of thing with David. He's just such a wonderful man, to imagine not driving down the street and seeing him...I can't imagine it. I just really can't fathom it. Poor mom...she's so damn beside herself right now... I'm upset, too, but I have to be strong for her right now...she's closer to him than I am, anyway. I love him and all, but they're best friends. They talk almost every day.
I guess we'll see where it goes from here...we have to figure out things about funerals and wakes and memorials...it's all so foreign to me.
I just want to tell you guys that I love you...and that I value all of you. I may not be on too much these days but you all are in my thoughts, my prayers, my heart.
Comments (6)
callad
That is awful my dear Summer.. I have the chills running up and down my spine reading what has happened.. I am wishing you and your mum all the strenght you need in this difficult time. hugs sweetie, you posted a beautiful flower for him..
RGUS
Yeah.. shit happens eh! just when you think everything is ok, something like this reminds you that life is not a dress rehearsal... you get one chance to make a difference... so Summer.... make a difference! I feel for you, but I'm not sorry for someone that has the arrogance to take their own life, sorry.. been there with razor blades on my wrists, and now I know the difference.
romanceworks
My heart aches for you, your mom, and for David. I understand your neighbor's sadness, when at times there doesn't seem to be a reason to go on, and then it is the unexpected beauty of a flower, or the softness and comfort of an animal, or the caring of a friend, or the love from family, the unexpected moment of joy, and purpose, and meaning that tells me there are many reasons to keep fighting for life. Though you will never forget David, when the pain lessens I hope you and your mom will find a way to forgive him. Hugs - CC
ionfox
Dear Summer, I may not know you other than coming to your gallery to see your art creation once a while. I can understand how your mother and you will feel, losing someone so suddenly and in a manner that is hard to fathom... You probably will feel a bit guilty for not able to stop that... I am not sure if the Great Recession or bad economy in Europe and USA the reason... I feel bad when one of our friend, Valerie from France died suddenly due to heart attack. it also takes me a day or two to get over... And she is still remember in my heart even though I hardly know her, don't know how she look like except her photographic works she share with us and with only one short exchange of message. Please take care and especially for your Mother. It's Mother Day ...
watapki66
Beautiful shot!
ontar1
So sorry to that.