Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (38)
durleybeachbum
Yes, Mies, you WILL prevail! A clever illustration of part of your problems.
DananJaya_Chef
emmecielle
You definitely come out victorious from this battle, dear Mies. I don't doubt! You are a strong and courageous woman... I admire you for this! A warm hug!
mininessie
fantastic!
clbsmiley
Looks like a triumph for Mies!! Hang in there sweetie. :) Thanks for all your kind words my dear Sunrise. Smiley
greyone
Magnificent image Mies. You are doing so wonderful at dealing with your past difficulties. It takes courage and work to search out theses past demons that torment us. It is by bringing them forward and into the light of day that they lose power over us. You are lucky you have good support to help you through this. Take care my strong little friend, your strength is an inspiration to many of us here. Prachtige afbeelding Mies. Je bent zo geweldig aan te doen met je verleden problemen. Het vergt moed en werk om te zoeken uit theses verleden demonen die ons kwellen. Het is deze te brengen voorwaarts en in het licht van de dag dat ze macht over ons verliezen. Bent u gelukkig hebt u goede ondersteuning om u te helpen door middel van deze. Take care mijn sterke kleine vriend, uw kracht is een inspiratie voor velen van ons hier.
Richardphotos
very imaginative use for the fractal
0rest4wicked Online Now!
The mysteries of the mind as an expressional piece, well done!
magnus073
Mies, you did a good job on this amazing and powerful image my friend. Not sure what all your facing, but you'll always be in my prayers.
wannes
fascinating piece... well done!
claude19
Willpower, fighting spirit, are effective in addressing life against his own misfortunes ... but what are all these efforts, if there is no confidants, friends, husband to support you. .. we can not fight alone Mies! Wilskracht, vechtlust, zijn effectief in het aanpakken van het leven tegen zijn eigen ongeluk ... maar wat zijn al deze inspanningen, indien er geen vertrouwelingen, vrienden, echtgenoot om u te ondersteunen. .. we kunnen niet vechten alleen Mies! wonderful creation !
peedy
Fantastic image, Mies. En natuurlijk zal jij overwinnen! Ofcourse you will prevail! Corrie
cannonn
very artisticwork!!excellent
flavia49
wonderful
mariogiannecchini
Fantastic work , Mies !I'm with you, I am convinced you will win your battle!!!!!
jayfar
Lovely image Mies and one as strong as you will always come out on top. Keep fighting, we all love you.
stonelight
Fantastic colors and design. Very beautiful work!
jarmila
cool winter collage
Faemike55
Very powerful image and title! That you are confronting the issues makes you the winner. You have the support of your Rendo friends
kbrog
Beautiful work on this Mies! :) Just got to look at the past as life learning exsperiences. We can't change the past, but we can be prepared for the future.
kepp
lovely piece super composition
farmerC
Prachtig werk.
mermaid
you will, Mies, and like those skiers are walking out of the circle, those burden will fall off from you...smile
jmb007
superbe image,courage mies!!
sandra46
SUPER TERRIFIC IMAGE!
flora-crassella
FANTASTIC work! Everyone carries something with itself around. Consciously or in the subconscious......
LindaMcC
Hang in there, Mies. I know you will get through this. Interesting composition!
Glendaw
Super image of a past trigger. The joke is on those demons. Your coping skills will always make you the winner. Nice to hear your support team is always near by. Stay strong.
lior
So gorgeous!!!!!!!!!!!
npauling
I am sure you will prevail as you have great courage. This is a great looking fractal and I can see how it has deeper feelings for you. Excellent work.