Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
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Comments (45)
durleybeachbum
This is fabulous, Mies! I hopemaking these intimate works is starting to heal you, my friend.
mgtcs
WOW....What a wonderful vision here, loved your choice of colors and poem Mies, loved it very much!
Juliette.Gribnau
boeiende en vloeiende vormgeving !
greyone
Gorgeous image Mies!!!! This is fantastic, and your prose is very touching and well done.
rocserum
I like the depht in it! tought it was a MB 3d. Heel mooie diepte werking! RS
Jennyfnf
Helping you move on Mies, this is a wonderful thing, a superb representation; and so good seeing all the friends here who do care about and support you in your quest for peace of mind:-)
kbrog
Fantastic expression and image Mies! :)
kepp
super fr/ex image
claude19
Of reminiscences, memories of the past, a painful episode in our childhood ... buried deep in our soul ... replaying no reason ... like a brutal obsession ... no injuries and the most distant physical moral make resurface with age! Beautiful prose ... but what new anguish!
mininessie
another amazing image...great work!
myrrhluz
"I meet and recognize." That is so important. Like Andrea, I hope your personal writings are bringing healing to you. It is a brave and generous act which helps others too. Excellent writing and beautiful image! An image of life's passage, with many turns and dark corners, but light ahead. May the light of knowledge, understanding, and love illuminate the darkness and bring you peace and healing. Beautiful work, my friend, and very well done!
gaius
Very touching words and fabulous creation...more, it's amasterpiece.
magnus073
Very beautiful image Mies, with such a surreal look and feel
efron_241
another painting like image that would be fantastic in the Escher museum
jayfar
Well done Mies, light at the end of the tunnel!
flora-crassella
this is sooooooo fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!! Gorgeous work!!!!!
farmerC
Prachtig werk, waar veel is te zien.
Lenord
Your worst enemy will always be your hidden self. Splendid fractal Peace
Faemike55
Very cool work, Mies and wonderful and thought-provoking poem
carlx
Superb perspective, details and depth!!!
emmecielle
A fabulous composition and splendid words! Hugs! :)
psyoshida
I love the title of this beautiful picture. It's so hopeful and your words encourage my thoughts in that direction. It's going to be a great NEW year and I wish you all the very best Mies.
sandra46
VERY NEAT! FANTASTIC IMAGE!
Glendaw
Gorgeous image. You carry much strength,Mies. Thank-you for sharing how you can cope with your demons. Always wishing you the very best.
jocko500
this is a wonderful inage with depth in it
flavia49
magnificent work
npauling
There definately is light at the end of the tunnel here. A super fractal and I can see that you are starting to cope with those demons by talking about them more freely. Keep strong.
luvjoyjoy
Excellent
lior
Superb fractal!
DreamersWish
Even in that darkness, I see beauty and light. Your words speak deeply and I wish for you that strength and beauty I know is there. Wonderful work!