Silent Scream by HADCANCER
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Description
I am trapped within myself. There is no escape and no rest. I am tired and weary and restless. Darkness enfolds and chills me to the bone. Joy is for others and not for me. Everything I used to enjoy is being taken from me. There is a hole in my heart that can not be filled. My soul is dark and troubled and full of sin. God will not forgive me. He knows I did not repent. Only an eternity of agony do I have to look forward to. I have no future to look forward to. I am alone and falling into the darkness. My body hurts but I am emotionally numb. Soon I will be no more.
I am trapped and there is no escape from myself.
by me
Comments (29)
mikeerson
Rick, the playoffs are on this weekend - look forward to them.... I don't know what emotion is kicking your ass, but you're letting it. I've been coughing so hard my lungs and head hurt, but I don't want to get my wife sick, so at night on my days off I stay up late and let her have the bed.... I can totally get down on this cough - tomorrow, I have an appointment to go to the dentist - I've got two cracked teeth that need caps, hot and cold crap HURT... but, I can't go to the dentist because I could cough with a drill in my mouth - so, I gotta suck up this pain and move on... if I sat here and thought oh this f-ck'n tooth is killing me, I'd want to kill someone - lol... Look, moods are highly contagious, rent yourself a few stand up comedian videos and have a laugh attack - it'll make ya feel better. I don't know what else to tell you - change your attitude, make goals, cheer for the Broncos and watch them knock out the Patriots.... GET FREAK'N HAPPY AND STAY THAT WAY... DON'T MAKE ME KICK YOUR ASS.
UteBigSmile
Amazing looking piece of artwork! I feel with you dear Rick, sometimes I feel exactly the same with my gum's desease (I can tell you it hurt's a lot, especially in the evenings), since more than 7 years - and no light at the end of the big tunnel! Life is sometimes more than cruel!
magnus073
I am sad you are going through this period in your life right now Rick, and please try not to be so hard on yourself as God is more forgiving than you know. You are in my prayers my friend and it is my hope he will give you the strength to believe in yourself and get by this. Your a good man, and never forget there is always hope.
RodolfoCiminelli
A very impressive illustration my friend....!!!
eekdog Online Now!
wow! most impressive my friend, keep em' coming.
Faemike55
Hang in there Rick Great image and display of emotion You are in my thoughts and prayers
mgtcs
Very impressive render and composition, the monochromatic gives a marvelous oppressive atmosphere, congratulations!
NanetteTredoux
Very expressive artwork. Excellent.
debbielove
Great picture! Pretty much sums up your excellnt writing! I got to admit I have felt like this some days.. Good work! Rob
renecyberdoc
i am with mikeerson best will be if you shape up.
Cimaira
Very emotional image and writing. Sounds like you are in a very dark place, I do hope you can look up and see some light, my thoughts and prayers go out to you.
Jean_C
Impressive and emotive image, very beautiful!
Fidelity2
Superb! 5+! Thanks a lot.
zil2008
Some of the greatst artists where in a depressed state when they created their artwork, music etc. Keep working on these artpieces and you never know what may come of it. Depression is a beast to deal with, but deal with you must. You have alot more to accomplish. Thank you for the comments on my images. I appreciate you took the time to have a look and leave a comment. Keep the faith as God only seems like he deserted you but he wants you to put some effort into getting yourself out of this dark place you are living in. We are here for you!
adrie
Very impressive and also emotive image my friend, i am so sorry to hear about your pains. I know we all have our moments of pain and greef my friend. I hope you keep your head op hi and try to come out of this dark hole. Wish you keep faith my friend.....hugs Adrie.
drifterlee
Okay, now I REALLY will have to find out where you live and kick your ass!
J5ive
Awesome work ,Like the point of view!
gunsan
I can relate to your image, well done. Hope your life gets better soon!
Darkwish
Great idea, very well done.
doarte
Wonderful Work Rick, and your text is very moving! I can relate totally with your situation, and hope things turn for the better for you!
GOLDILOCKSUK
After what you have suffered with in the past I bet that came straight from the heart. Having had cancer I can relate to most things in that superb emotional piece of writing :) Cathy xoxoxo
tamburro
Dear Friend; I hope you find an outlet for those feelings that you are doing so bad! I wish you much light and energy to smile again ... Beautiful illustration! A big hug! Orlando
Crudelitas
When I read that, I'm worried about you ... Although it sometimes looks the same in me, just that I'm godless. But when I look at a flower, or seems to be a cat, maybe even the light through the trees, I think to myself ... Well, if I can not suffer, then I have to admit at least that it still beautiful things the world who enjoy myself ... Now you think that: Well, the talk was good ... But with my MS I am often on the warpath. Fantastic work, love this image!
cvrad
I'm sorry to hear you are so down but I have to admit I do like the way you have visualized it. i too have been going through some physical pain myself but I think your image more suits to ho how I feel about it. Hope you feel better soon try to think of the good things you have in life friends and family that care about you that is more than some people have. A house to sleep in a bed to lie in and cloths on your back. some don't even have these. Fire or gas or electricity to cook with and food to cook a table to set it in and plates to eat it off of and water to wash them with afterwards. look at all the goods things you've got and many in the world don't even have these!
lunchlady
This is a beautifully dark and moving image, my friend. And the words are from a place that is so deep and private...I do hope you can feel the love and support of your friends and see some light around you. ♥
flaviok
uma soberba obra de arte meu amigo, aplausos (5)
Lyne
I do see that you gave yourself that little soft bunny...take heart that you can give yourself that bit of comfort... also take heart that while you feel SO alone in life, you are not! Your art is very expressive, do keep it up! it is theraputic!
ShadowsNTime
OH! I absolutely love this work! You expressed yourself so well in word and in image. The really great thing about this is we can all identify with what you said and how we too seem to not be able to escape ourselves so often. Have a super day friend and keep up the great work, this is a fav for me!
Magick_Lady
try thinking of happy times and search some things to laugh with , laughing is uplifting ( at least for me , hope it works a bit for you too )