Great capture, even if he is dead. I can well understand how you feel today. There are days when I have the same thoughts.

When I was twenty I felt it was over for me. I went to the roof of the building I worked in and stepped to the edge. I looked down. So easy, one more step and it would all be over. And then I stepped back, turned and walked away. In October I will be sixty-five. To live is to eventually lose something or someone dear to you but you cannot be defeated unless you give up. Tomorrow the sun will shine and I hope it will find you feeling better my friend. Cuando tenía veinte años me sentí que todo había terminado para mí. Fui a la azotea del edificio yo en el que trabajaba y se acercó a el borde. Miré hacia abajo. Así de fácil, un paso más y todo habría terminado. Y luego dio un paso atrás, se volvió y se alejó. En octubre voy a ser de sesenta y cinco años. Vivir es eventualmente hacer perder a de algo o alguien querido para usted, pero usted no puede ser derrotado a menos que te rindes. Mañana el sol brillará y espero que encuentra usted a sentirse mejor a mi amigo.

Yes I have had those same thoughts often recently. I hear you my friend............

Yes I think I understand why you show this sad picture, dear Neto. For me I see a creature that looks over the edge of what once was 'normal life'. Where once he was happy, and could be himself, and was respected. Now, he sees the truth, when saying goodbye to where he thought it was a safe place. Sometimes we have to look at everything from top to bottom. And see the relativity of us and our accomplishment of things, our limitations and our dependence. But as long as we can take care of someone, or do something which gives good feelings to another one, it gives satisfaction. In this way we also have to think and take care of the child in ourselves, that we should learn dare to see the difference between 'good and evil'. Not always easy, but sometimes we are lifted, and we feel again, peace flows. And this thankfully feeling, it will come back, my friend. Once always ;-).

This is a superb capture! Weevils are such intriguing insects; their faces always make me think of a moose. I think it's the bent "nose." The colors and textures are beautiful in that way natural colors and textures are. As for the sentiments: I understand that completely. I've felt the most profound sense of loss since my return from the Czech Republic. In my heart, and in my soul, I belong there, I think...which is why I will eventually return there. It's not a perfect place, but there's something there...a form of honesty that isn't always pretty, but it's honest. I also think there's a lot of beauty there. I can't say that where I live now is an ugly place, but ugly people have been given a voice. More specifically, they've stolen it. It seems as if all of the cockroaches have found each other and now they're brave enough to come out. I have hope, however, because of the people I know and care about...and I'm not dead. Yet. And I think that's all that matters. The things I value are the things all humans value, and as long as I can see someone, somewhere holding on to that, I'm content...not happy, but content and when I lived in the Czech Republic, I learned that contentment is, sometimes, all we need. Happiness is exactly like sadness: it is temporary. It comes and it goes, but contentment last longer. It doesn't burn itself out as quickly. For me, a dead weevil actually looks like contentment; it's not what we might want it to be, but you saw something in it, and I see the same thing, and I think everyone else who sees this image sees the same thing. Something beautiful. I see colors...patterns...textures...things I don't see in my every day life (not in this way, at least) and so seeing this image (and others on Renderosity) becomes something special. There's a kind of beauty in certain types of death and that's because death itself is not an ugly thing. But sadness is ugly. Grief is ugly. Anything born from greed, indifference, and disrespect is ugly, but the most anyone can do (and it's a good thing!) is to make something better for someone. Even if it simply means saying hello, or giving a hug, or shaking someone's hand. That way, life takes on more beauty, Life remembers its own beauty, and death when it comes naturally (from old age) is not as ugly as the murder and cruelty that bring it prematurely. That's how I look at life, and that's what keeps me going every day...we don't live in a perfect world, but it's the only world we have, and staying alive and continuing to care is a part of what makes it better. Thank you for posting this: it takes bravery, honesty, and personal beauty in order to see beauty in a dead weevil; I also think this is an important symbol, because you have to be Alive in order to see it. With good people remaining alive, the world IS a better place.

I feel you, have had those days myself!

This is a most awesome capture and something i have never seen but let me say life is what u make of it and if u have to fight to live as i am and dealing with my sickness it is just a great day to get up and say i made it through another one and yes sometimes life is unbearable but we must look for the good things in life and sometimes we do need help with it so i do hope u get to feeling better soon u have friends here to help u through.

Very beautiful capture I've been there as well and I too, have stepped back from the edge. We are here my friend. you are in my thoughts and prayers

Life is change. There has always been good & bad in the world & we each have a choice of whether we want to contribute to making the world a better place or a worse place. You sound like someone who has a positive contribution to make & I hope you will work through whatever sadness you are currently experiencing & come out stronger...

This is an splendid performance by you. I thank for it. 5+!

do not give up. a friend of mine kept telling me that if death was to come for him, it would be okay. he let his mind slip away and now he is stuck in a nursing home for the remainder of his life.

I love your title and your text, very suitable to your capture ! The POV is excellent !

Neto – the boll weevil is an ugly and destructive beetle – you my friend are a warm and wonderful young man. We have “talked” before and I respect you as a man and a photographer. This is a wonderful photo of the dead weevil but you are not like this bug. You have not posted for 19 days and although I noticed and wondered – I did not send you a RR site mail to see how you were doing. I am embarrassed that I did not take the time to send you a message and check on you. The photos, of Lakamtuns plaza, that you posted, are still in my mind. As with the people above – I stepped into the darkness. I stood on the deck of a Navy aircraft carrier. If I had stepped off, they would have never found me. If you want to “talk” send me a site mail. I will be there. I will send you my E-mail address. You are in my heart, thoughts and prayers.

Oh my friend I have alot of those days in the long winter months. :( My friend I am so very sorry that I wasn't here for you when you needed a friend. :( My friend you matter to me and if you need to talk please feel free to write me. :))) If you want nothing but for me to just listen that is what I will do. :))))))))))) You are very much alive and I am very greatful for that. :))))))) I haven't been here all that much here lately due to life getting busy since cody has started school. :( My friend hold in your heart that you are a most sweetest, kindest, caring friend that any of us could have ever hoped for. Thank you for your friendship. :))))))))) This is a most excellent capture. :))))))) Thank you for sharing how you feel deep within. :))))) You were there when I needed a friend and I thank you ever so much. :)))))))) I am here for you. :)))))))) Take care of yourself my friend. :))))) Carry A Smile In Your Heart :))))))

Life is just so precious, Neto - please, never give up on it! After reading every-body's comment, I have come to the conclusion, that there are a lot of people here @ Renderosity, who care a lot for your well-being, including myself - we are all giving you, our support and are right behind you, just look around my friend ... can you see and feel the love? A VERY BIG HUG across the Oceans to you! You can write to me, if you feel like it, I will always be your friend with a shoulder to lean on. BB

This is really a fantastic shot Neto, loved all details! I'm very delay with my comments but I want to say that you never give up your ideals!

this is sad and the thoughts is sad but life goes on as your are yet alive