Snowed In Morning by JMichaelPiper
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"Snowed In Morning"
**When I was a young kid, Christmas time at my house was interesting, to say the least. My two step brothers and I would as always, have go to bed early...nine or ten o' clock or so because 'Santa wouldn't deliver our gifts' if we were still awake by midnight...both brothers were thrilled that Santa would be coming and bringing presents....I on the other hand really tried to look as if I was looking forward to it also...but not really. At somewhere close to five o'clock in the morning, my step brothers would wake me up and we would go sneak into the living room by the Christmas tree to see what 'Santa' had brought us...I could never find any with my name on them except maybe one or two if I was lucky, but both of my brothers always found plenty. We tried to be quiet because my step mom and dads bedroom was right next to the living room. All of a sudden a flashlight from my parents bedroom would flash onto us and dad would yell, "Go Back To Bed!" We would scream, grab our stockings and run back to our beds! We would pull the covers over us and with a flashlight, we would see what our stockings had in them. They both even had little toys in their stockings...I remember M n M's and a few pieces of hard candy, my brothers would quickly go from happy to almost feeling like I was. I might as well have just been given a lump of coal...same difference. On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the best, 1 being the worst, how would you rate my parents on the way I was treated by them...Is what they did normal for a step child? Or was I just supposed to deal with it...I dunno...I just know I wasn't happy at this time of year...and it only got worse when we had to go to my step mothers parents house later in the afternoon for the family dinner that night...and the story gets even worse for me...thanks is all I can say now because I'm alone and grown up now and never have to deal with those people at all any more...
...this is a true story by the way...my childhood...sometimes during the holidays I really do wish I'd never been born...you know, the "It's A Wonderful Life" thing...but hopefully I have been able to touch peoples lives, that would otherwise be worse if I hadn't been there to be who I am and do for them, what was never done for me...I just can't understand why I am alone now every year, and I never even get a card from people that I tried to care about at some point in my life...Oh well, that's probably why I dive so deeply into my work in creating the pictures I do for the holidays...it helps me over come my thoughts and memories from the past I guess...
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Comments (7)
ronmolina
Splendid work!
JMichaelPiper
Thank you Ron very much!
Faemike55
Very beautiful image John Heck of a life you had back then. I'm judging by the narrative that you must have been the older child. I really wish I knew what to say to make you feel better about the season; I've had my issues with it in the form of SAD as well as undiagnosed depression (42 years without knowing why I was screwed up, especially around Christmas). I am glad that you are around in that we have your wonderful art to view I wish you the best Mike
JMichaelPiper
Hey Mike, Yes I was the eldest that came to live with them, taking that spot away from the middle brother who actually got spoiled rotten even more so than the youngest brother...the parents and grandparents of our generation were so extremely f*****d up that they had no idea that they were screwing us up as well! Yeah there's not much anyone can do to make me cheery and better, but I truly do appreciate you sharing your thoughts about your life, that makes me at least not feel so alone...and I do know that there are alot of people in this world who have had things a whole lot worse even...emotional abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse and mental abuse are very hard to overcome as a kid, which is the reason we 'hide' things about who we are and what we are because of what was done to us...sometimes feeling like we can't even function when faced with so many things and That's what really sucks! It spills over into our personal life, our sexual life and can really mess up our feelings and emotions where we just don't know what to feel about things when we're supposed to feel a certain way...and that alone can just strip our confidence and throw it right out the door...and that in itself causes bi-polar disorders, anxiety disorders and a host of others as well...that's even where multiple personalities can come from...and all of them can lead into several levels of depression...and that can and has killed people, caused people to kill innocent people and or causes suicidal thoughts and sometimes even makes people go all the way to completion...I know, I've had them so many times, but I have bought books and have taught myself to not let my disability disable me...and that is a lifetime work, meaning will be working on in my whole life...it doesn't just end one day and then we're just normal like everyone else...rationally, that's not the way it works out...so we deal with it in our own way that works, because if we don't, there 1 of 3 places we'll end up...mental institution, jail or the morgue...neither of which I want anytime soon! That's for sure! Anyway thanks for your input Mike! I do appreciate you sir for saying something more than a one word comment! Take care, chat with you again shortly! JM
Shaylea
Beautiful!!
JMichaelPiper
Thank you Shaylea, and thanks for the favorite add too!
Wolfenshire
Yep, it happens and it's sad that people do that to children. It can have life long reaching effects.
JMichaelPiper
Yes it sure can Wolf, I am living proof of that to be sure....it would be nice if history books wouldn't know that if they ever list my history, but some things are inescapably inevitable....and then again, I probably wouldn't be turning out some of the works I produce and I definitely wouldn't have the fun that comes from doing the creations I turn out! So to sum it up, I have had to go through hell, in order to reach the little less bit of hell and more heaven than I normally would have to deal with....I mean I really don't have a bad life, just a lonely one sometimes...and I get to do what I really love doing, and I can come and go whenever I want, eat whatever I want whenever I want, and no one to tell me to stop jumping up n down on the bed! Heheheeeee!!! Happy Holidays to you and everyone! JM
peedy
Gorgeous image, John. You can alsmost feel the quite time of night. I hear you on your childhood. Being the unwanted first born, my childhood wasn't exactly loving either. And the "festive" days were never festive for me. Ah well, I got on with my life, otherwise they would still be ruining things for me. :-) Corrie
JMichaelPiper
Thanks Corrie! Yep, you kinda had to grow up too fast too huh? Never Really got to be a kid kid...well they can't tell us what to do anymore can they?! Only person that tells us what to do...is ourselves...I'm happy with that! Happy Holidays Corrie! JM
Drakkendark
Very cool bro.
JMichaelPiper
Hey Drakk, thanks bro!
GrandmaT
You've channeled a very dark time into some beautiful art. I'm proud of you!