Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (27)
lisalisette
WOW very nice work... it's almost that you can see that one person is laying on the ground and the other one is leaning over him, to wake him up . Manby I see that wrong and is my mind working overtime :)))
auntietk
Oh boy, do I know how THAT feels! LOL! Usually my brain feels like that when I have a lot to do ... many things to remember. So I calm my brain by making a list. That way, I can carry that part of my brain around with me on a piece of paper (or in my phone) and give my head a rest. :) If it's other sorts of things, I also write it down. I used to do a LOT of journaling. Now, not so much. These days it's more about lists. I love your picture! It's SO perfect for describing that feeling!
magnus073
Mies, this one is beyond cool my friend. I like the concept and the way you brought it to life.
Lenord
Remember the old antidrug TV commercial, an Egg in a Pan and an Egg in a Pan being cooked, this is your Brain - this is your Brain on Drugs...........this is your Brain on Fractals Peace
SunriseGirl
When my brain is working overtime I often find a cup of Camomille tea and looking at some of the beautiful works of art on Renderousity along with a bit of controlled deep breathing can help me unwind.
jmb007
superbe image jacomina!
Celart
Very cool
alanwilliams
superb, full of colour and so vibrant
peedy
Beautiful, Mies. Ik zie een ribbekast met een hart. He, het is geweldig weer! Ga een lekkere wandeling maken. Of ga lekker in het zonnetje liggen! Corrie
Juliette.Gribnau
mooie verbeelding van je situatie
algra
In de eerste plaats, Mies, schitterend uitgevoerd. Vooral die min of meer complementaire kleurcombinatie is opvallend goed geslaagd. Uit de comments die je hebt ontvangen (afgezien dan die van Leonord en Peedy) krijg ik de indruk dat niet iedereen de gezondheidsproblemen waar je meer worstelt door heeft. De grapjes in de antwoorden tonen dat. Misschien heb je aan het advies van Corrie nog het meest. Zoiets schoot mij ook onmiddellijk in gedachten alhoewel ik me realiseer dat als het echt spookt in je hoofd ook goedbedoelde adviezen van weinig nut zijn. Rust en wandelen kunnen misschien helpen, computerwerk roept toch altijd enige stress op. Zou yoga iets voor je zijn? Helaas spreek ik voor een deel uit eigen ervaring, veel hulp heb ik gehad aan een goed begrijpende huisarts, maar ik bleek het niet geheel zonder vervelende medicatie te kunnen stellen. Het was het jaar dat er geen fractals van mijn hand op RR of waar dan ook verschenen. Helemaal de oude worden is echter een illusie.
jayfar
Just lie back Jacomina and think of all your RR friends coming to see you and taking you away from all your pain and discomforts! Lovely fractal.
durleybeachbum
Gosh! I can almost hear it fizzing! Spectacular work, Mies!
helanker
WOW! It looks fantastic, Jacomina. But it is sad that you feel like that in your head. I think I understand a little what you mean. I would maybe try to learn meditation with soft slow music to make the brain calm down. It is possible to get music for such things. I know it can help people to feel better and get stabilized in the mind. There must be places where one can learn meditation. Good luck my friend. I hope you will find a way to feel alot better.
Faemike55
the tingle of your power is cool Great work
claude19
Dear Mies, the only cure I know to bring down high blood pressure in the brain, is to listen to romantic piano music ... I know quelqaue chopse because I play pianio daily until that a sigh relax my muscles! Nice work and beautifully electric colors!
farmerC
Mies je werk geeft een indruk van je "voelen". het is een Prachtige creatie. maar probeer te genieten......
kepp
super image Mies
voske
Knap gedaan ,de rode kleur straalt energie uit . Veel liefs aan jullie beiden.
alida
simple advice:take it easy
sandra46
WONDERFUL WORK
flavia49
amazing
X-PaX
Beautiful work Jacomina. Maybe listening to some soft classic music could help to relax. I would also suggest to use more blue colors than red colors. IMHO Blue is a relaxing color. Red is an aggresive color.
VDH
Een originele en creatieve fractal!Van harte beterschap, zelf heb ik al twee depressies gehad, maar veel raad kan ik je niet geven, uiteindelijk heb ik medicatie moeten nemen en het helpt, maar verwacht geen mirakels.
ia-du-lin
beautiful composition, very nice work
Mark-David-Rogers
Indeed I can grasp the idea behind this piece, really effective. Ik hou van dit werk, goed gedaan Mies.
danapommet
A beautiful APO creation and it looks like you have many things on your mind!