Light and Heart, for Lars by anahata.c
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(I've had treatments for my arm, so I've been offline...I hope to return soon, dear friends.)
This is for a very special soul, who's facing a most difficult time. It's for Lars (LBJ2).
Those of you who know Lars know that, on Jan 8 last year, he had major surgery for esophageal cancer. This was after a difficult chemotherapy the previous fall, and more treatments after. As some of you know, his journey left him exhausted and in continued pain, and unable to eat much of the time, as well as unable to rest except in spurts. In that time, he also lost his dog, who'd been by his side through it all.
On Feb 6, this year, his doctors told him the cancer was gone. Yet, because of his pain, they did further evaluations...
A few weeks later, they said the cancer had returned, and it's inoperable. They told him he had between 3 months and 3 years to live. Needless to say, this was a terrible blow after all Lars had been through.
When I offered to do an upload, he said I may convey all this. So, with great heaviness, I do. Right now, Lars is undergoing radiation. It's gone on since last week, and understandably he's exhausted.
I want to tell the world he's been so stunningly honest through this. His uploads and letters have been so direct, so unblinking. And there hasn't been a syllable of self-pity from him, nor any bitterness, even as he's described feeding tubes, pain and exhaustion...And he's never failed to ask how we are, or remember our travails, however small they may have been next to his. I want to send him the world now, and remind him there are many who've overcome this disease, despite the diagnoses. I send you all the strength in the world, Lars, as you deserve it so very much.
But I also know that Lars wants people to know what he's living with. It's a constant battle; and the questions-unknowns are always there. We all face them eventually, but Lars is facing them at 53, and with enormous courage. You've weathered a battle that would've left me half the person you are, Lars, and I acknowledge that with awe and gratitude. You're a gift of caring and love.
So I say---with everyone who knows you---that we're so grateful. You've brought such mystical dance to us, such humor, such hope and lushness-of-spirit. With your rose-filled visions and undulating skies, your eternally-present musicians---like the floating violinists of folklore who appear on treetops to remind us there's a music behind life so sweet, it can't be put into words---and your ever-present design (Lars studied architecture and masonry, and has supreme appreciation for details many of us never see) to your always-magical, caringly chosen music selections, or your symbols and myths, and so on...
But also your presence, from your center; with your always-committed comments (in those delightful "stanzas," like you're writing mini-poems to us), or your concern for us, your love and the way you always point to the beauty in life. Or your core conviction---going all the way through your grandparents, who saved Jews from the Nazis (in Denmark) at great personal risk---that human good is the very purpose of life: You've given all of this with a naturalness that only a big, caring heart could muster.
So Lars, I wish you all the wholeness and healing in the world, as I know your other friends do, too; and remind you that your courage and love have been an inspiration to us all, and made us grateful for all that you are. With all my love, I pray that spring bring you Spring, and say hang in there, dear soul, you are truly--and gratefully--loved, Mark
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Comments (24)
magnus073
Mark, you did a very nice job on this thoughtful dedication for Lars. He was one of my first friends in the gallery and one of the kindest souls I've ever known. I'm very sad and at a loss for words over all he has been through and will keep him in my prayers.
MrsRatbag
A beautiful opus of hope and healing and survivorship of all kinds; I don't know Lars, but I know this battle he fights from the perspective of one of the anciillary people who deals with one of the aspects of the treatments. It's hard, really hard, and not pretty, and painful to see people progress through this horrible journey. I'm continually amazed at the depths of strength people manage to find in themselves to bear this burden. Prayers for even more strength and healing for Lars from me, and bless you, Mark, for your unfailing love and championship for others.
renecyberdoc
Yes indeed bless you mark for keeping all of us updated,and we keep lars in our thoughs and the sitemails are already on the way to greet him. see you
GrandmaT
A very touching and well deserved dedication to a wonderful man. I am so sorry he is going through this. I had hoped when he came back that the worst was over and he would get better with time. If thoughts, prayers and tears can do any good, mine and many others are headed his way. Thank you Mark for letting us know.
Richardphotos
really gives me a sinking feeling to know that he has been given this diagnosis. we have been renderosity friends for many years. thank you for this information and my thoughts are with him. I just lost a brotherinlaw last November from lung cancer
UteBigSmile
Hi Marc, I just got before some days a private mail from our dear Lars (we know eachother since years here at Renderosity), have to answer him this weekend - My heart is crying for his precious soul.....
rbowen
I am very sorry to hear such sad news. Lars has been in my thoughts and I was hoping that he would recover . Now he has to go through another hard treatment. I am very, very sad about it. I wish him strength and to no lose hope. He is a wonderful person and a great artist. Thank you for letting us know, Mark.
photosynthesis
Images filled with your passion & intensity & words to match. I don't know Lars, but I wish him well - the best possible medical outcome & relief from his pain. As a cancer survivor myself & one who still experiences daily pain almost 3 1/2 years after major surgery, I can empathize & relate to his situation...
helanker
Mark, This is such a beautiful dedication to your Danish friend, Lars. I am so sorry he is going through another period, knowing what it can end with, but I will still hope for Lars he will overwite everything they said in the hospital and finally get over this terrible sickness and be well again. We have heard before, it happens, so I wish him alot of strength to come well out of this.
durleybeachbum
I echo Denise. What a story, and what a man!
flavia49
beautiful
bakapo
your beautiful and heartfelt dedication and words are perfect. I have been praying for our dear Lars for a long time and I will continue to pray that he remains strong, I want him to be with us for a long, long time.
LivingPixels
A beautiful Dedi Mark and a fantastic piece of imagery lots of healing greens and wonderful places to get engrossed in spectacular my friend!! I hope you to continue the heal and are well on the mend take care!!
Cyve
Outstandingly done !
eekdog Online Now!
lost for words! lars is a inspiring artist and a wonderful person/friend. i have all my rendo friends in daily prayers, i will say a little more for him. i appreciate your sitemail on this tragic issue with rendo friend/artist. and yousaid it well. god bless you Lars.. BTW love your dedi for our friend..
pchef
Wonderful dedi.
giulband
Terrible news, back to more serious and profound thoughts on the reason of existence. Sometimes doctors are wrong and God does miracles. I hope this is one of those cases. I can not find words in front of these situations but only thoughts of hope
romanceworks
I'm so very sorry to hear of Lars struggle with cancer. This is such a beautiful dedication for him, full of the healing colors of nature, radiating white light and love.
Jay-el-Jay
Thanks for the update on the condition of our friend,Lars.He has been going through so much.My thoughts go out to him at this time.
anaber
You did a very beautiful and touching dedication for Lars, Mark . Your words show us how strong he has been in his fight, along this difficult time. And your image is very intense and energetic with the lush healing colors and the shinning light in the center that seems to be a symbol of love from the heart, that i see there too. In the whole image, i feel much love, much strength and hope. It is a very powerful dedication, Mark, that he deserves so much. I wish to Lars all the inner power and energy for this fight that he has ahead of him, as he has done so far, with so much courage, along his heavy journey. My thoughts and meditation go out to him, deeply !
goodoleboy
Cancer and Alzheimer's, the most devastating wasting diseases that I know of. A most poignant message you offered about your friend, Lars, Mark; life isn't fair….this shouldn't happen to good people. I feel great empathy for Lars, I hope the rest of his days are as care and pain free as humanly possible. I also echo the preceding comments made above.
JaneEden
Oh you conveyed it all so well here, and your art is bright and cheerful and light for Lars, who is in my thoughts. I am so saddened to hear all this sad news about my friend. He was keeping in touch and letting me know how he was doing but we lost touch of late since he began to feel lots more pain. I feel for him so much and to suffer the loss of his dog during all his trials too is utterly devastating for him. He is always in my prayers and I do hope that the medical profession can help keep him from suffering the pain he has had recently. God bless you Lars hugs Jane xx
LBJ2
Thank you for this beautiful image/collage and dedication. And thanks for helping me distributing the info about my situation. Thank you for your kind words about me and my work. I appreciate that too. Also thank you to all the gallery members here, whom express their sympathy and empathy. It does bring me warmth, to read that too. For your images, Mark. The hold the keys.. to me. Light green colors, Light, and Spring, March, April and May.. My favorite time of the year :) Maybe that is all i need to put up, the best fight i can. And yes.. it is a rock hard message to get from the doctors.
emmecielle
I know the battle that our dear Lars is fighting. We are long time friends and we write also with private mails. Lars is strong and courageous... I pray every day for him and I really hope that he can win this cruel battle against cancer or, at least, resist for a long time! Thanks Mark, for your words and for the image very significant that you published for Lars. He will surely appreciate! Greetings from Sicily