Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
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Comments (24)
jmb007
belle image !
beachsidelegs
Wonderful image my friend :)
Mulltipass
Amazing Words and Image!!!!
kgb224
Outstanding work Mies. God bless.
kepp
superb image excellent work
durleybeachbum
That sounds really horrible, Mies! Luckily any voice in head usually says.."Maybe you need a bit of chocolate!" Great image!
Faemike55
actually, I think I have five of them all saying different things, none of which I agree with. I think this is very appropriate as the voices clamor loudest during the holidays!
Freethinker56
Very clever and creative AND IM STILL SMILING !
Cyve
Marvelous fractal art my friend... Fantastically well done !!!
miwi
Klasse fractal,like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Richardphotos
that voice in the back of your mind can really be difficult to stomach. very moody fractal
flavia49
fantastic work
MrsRatbag
Ah, so this is what they look like...marvelous render!
npauling
A lovely fractal to go with this writing Mies, it sounds really difficult which voice to go with. I hope you have a happy Christmas.
g1tip
Amazing work!
claude19
But dear, again you expose a beautiful abstraction, with shapes discernible, but what speaks your text looks like the definition of what is called tinnitus and it is a suffering with vertigo; poison my wife for years ... sometimes the sound of trumpets turns into whistles, sometimes by crisis, sounds become those issued by a bassoon !!!
helanker
This is a fantastic fractal, Jacomina, but the story behind is really sad.
QuietRiot
Very profound visual of your words. Bravo!
farmerC
Exellente creation.
Bampster
Most unique image, Mies. The colors and the shapes look like they originated from the Ungrund, that mysterious source of virtually everything. Jacob Boehme identified it and now it seems he was really centuries ahead. Today it is part of the new Physics. The narrative really works well with your image. Thanks for your kind words, I am feeling much better and still seeking the cause of this infection. There are so many toxins in our world that it could be almost anything. Very unsettling, but so too is our current world. Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a productive New year!!!!!
VDH
Wonderful creation! Great design!!
anahata.c
I assume that your narrative is how you feel when your pain is intense; and maybe at other times as well. In any case, anyone who's been plagued by constant stresses can understand your narrative well enough to appreciate it. But---I've said this before---you still turn the noise and struggle into beauty. But we can definitely feel the antiphonal "argument" going on. It's a mythic 'emblem', a mythic painting...it's almost a mythic creature, with its head in the center. Or maybe the whole image is its head---It's like the heads of Ancient Hindu and Buddhist art. And the "wings" of this piece flow outwards with real intensity. And your pale pink is quite expressive, as is the blue and green in the bottom. Very powerful, Jacomina, and I hope you're feeling some peace...this image is definitely immersed in struggle and activity; but, like Bach, you turned that activity into beauty. I hope you have beauty for the holidays, you deserve it...
emmecielle
Excellent fractal work! :)
Glendaw
What a beautiful image to compliment your touching and heart wrenching words Mies.
Wishing you and Karel a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.