Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (30)
SunriseGirl
Beautiful fish made by a beautiful woman. Love back to you. :)
jmb007
bonne peche
kepp
lovely colourful image nicework
soffy
So amazingly beautiful this is,my friend,lovely colors and work,take care:))**
Faemike55
Sweet work Mies!
farmerC
Exellent werk met prachtig kleurgebruik.
Lenord
Splendid Apo work....my pain meds(Hydrocodone) mess with my Dreams too, not really Nightmares just very weird Dreams. The kind you wake up from going "what the hell was that all about"
beachsidelegs
Beautiful image :)
g1tip
Very cool fractal! Great design!
durleybeachbum
Thîs is glorious, Mies! I should love to see this wall size!
ArtistKimberly
Outstanding,
claude19
what a superb description !!! splendid use of colors !!!
Freethinker56
Amazing colors in this love it
sandra46
SUPERLATIVE WORK!
Richardphotos
very beautiful and great textures
Juliette.Gribnau
wat een prachtige kleuren zijn dit ! super
VDH
Prachtig ontwerp, mooie kleuren!!
ArtByMel
Just love the colors!
blondeblurr
This fractal has all the symptoms of a colourful dream/nightmares OK ! -- but it also looks complicated, perplexing and fascinating - my guess, it could be the medication ? golly - can I have some too ??? LOL
As a matter of fact, I have got it now - it reminds me of a movie, called : "V for VENDETTA", and the guy who wears the mask - which I can visualise in your image here ...
, yes, that's it !
take care and get better soon, please... BB
magichild2
When I view these beauties...I visualize sting rays and other neon fish deep within our oceans. This is gorgeous ...the colors make it pop and give it wow factor...nicely done.
X-PaX
Wonderful fractal work Jacomina. I like the colors very much. Take care.
chrisann
Very beautiful! Great work!
helanker
What a lovely fractal you have created. I hope you will have succes at last about decreasement of medication. Feel MUCH better soon, my friend.
MrsRatbag
Your pain and torment gives us a vision of almost excruciating beauty; I hate that you're so physically bothered, but I am astounded by the depths of your artistic interpretation. This is magnificent!
ia-du-lin
excellent abstract fractal composition, great colors
mininessie
take care sweetie!
auntietk
Oh! So beautiful! I am sorry to hear your medication-free experiment was not a success, but my dearest, we all love you no matter your condition. You may come and go as you please, medicated or not, happy or sad, and I will always be glad of your presence, even if I ache for your pain.
I wish you could have been with our group the other day. I went to a quilt show with my sewing friends (there were ten of us) and one of the quilts we saw was called "Fractal Blooms" (You can see a picture of the quilt on line ... here ... I found a link):
http://www.bartonccc.edu/news/national-quilt-museum-exhibit-15
Anyway, the woman at the exhibit that was giving a talk said, "Does anyone here know what a fractal is?"
And of course I raised my hand, but I was the ONLY one in the room of about 30 people who had their hand up!!
So she said to me, "Is it okay if I just explain it the way the artist has it on her sheet here?" Well of course I said yes, because why should I care how she runs her presentation? LOL! Just because I know what a fractal is doesn't mean she needs my permission, right? :P
So she talked about the repeating pattern, a nicely simple explanation. Then she asked me, "How would you define a fractal?"
I said, "It's an infinitely receding pattern based on a mathematical projection." (Something like that, I can't remember my exact words.) A GASP went up from the crowd, and all my friends were astonished.
The next evening Bill was playing cards with some of my friends, and they were STILL talking about the fact that I knew what a fractal was! !!! Can you imagine? They would have thought YOU walked on water and performed other miracles if they saw your fractals. :) It reminded me that we live in a different world from most people, even though we all think we're all relatively normal.
:D
jif3d
I can see so many different things in this layered fractal, very cool and the colour pallet works nicely with flow.
Hopefully your dreams will lighten up on you...otherwise you have to change channels...LOL :o)
~Cheers~
flavia49
fabulous
anahata.c
well first of all, when you stop taking medications, I know that strange things can happen. The body reacts in all kinds of ways. So I can understand you're having nightmares. I hope it's not because you're in more pain. And btw, I haven't said anything about your flu yet, today, so let me say it here: I'm really sorry it lasted so long, and I hope it's getting better. Your immune system must be taxed and fatigued. I do wish you recovery, soon. And I hope your body adjusts to the lack of pain medication soon, too. You deserve peace and contentment.
As Denise said, you make beautiful art, even when you are in struggle and pain. This is like a collection of stunning sheets of fabric, mixed with jewels and colored glass. It's also like deep sea fish, esp the kind with translucent fins and bodies. ("doorschijnend," corrigeren? ja?) Your deep, saturated hues are beautiful, incl deep reds and blues; and also restful dark greens. And you have these "radiation" rays shooting through the water. And a lot of swirling energy lines. It's beautiful. It's as if you turned-on a light, inside the deep sea, and this is what you found. More beautiful fractal work from you, Jacomina.
I read Tara's comment, and yes, many people don't know what fractals are. I studied fractals in mathematics, years ago. (Long before fractal art software was invented.) I didn't understand it well, but yes, it's about infinitely receding patterns. What's amazing is that artists like you make such stunning art out of those mathematical principles. I've done 5 or 6 fractals, and I'll never know how you make such complex and deeply expressive art with fractals. This is a beautiful image, as are all your fractals. They're deep, beautiful and magical...