Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (24)
prutzworks
ik zie pauwenveren
xlt Apo!
claude19
a wonderful forest composition, a kind of flower your Mies pass !!!
Richardphotos
exciting fractal art and superb gradients
jmb007
belle image jacomina
Cyve
WOW my friend... It's absolutely FABULOUS !!!
blondeblurr
A puzzling view through to the distance of a time frame, even with the black hole, with your amazing fractal. It reminds me a bit of Einstein's theory - he was correct with his thoughts/prediction [about a hundred years ago] with the existence of gravitational waves, same as you are here now and the present conclusion, that they do exist.
Of course, yours is a beautiful fantasy, with those gorgeous and my favourite colours: blue & purple - Miesje is alive...
and be rest assured you are loved here by everybody, as much as you love us all ! 
Sei hundert mal umarmt deine Gitti
sandra46
SUPERLATIVE!
Faemike55
Fabulous work Miesje! Love how this flows inward, like the drain of the universe, leading us to who knows where!
beautiful prose as well.
flavia49
very beautiful
npauling
Very well done and your prose goes so well with it. I do hope you are having a happy weekend.
MrsRatbag
A complex spiral of warring emotions, in colours that wander between the lines ... mesmerizing and memorable!
ArtistKimberly
Excellent Work,
Juliette.Gribnau
heel mooi
farmerC
Prachtige creatie,Mies.
helanker
SO very lovely it is, dear Jacomina! It reminds me if a beautiful Peacock. The colors and the whirls. Super artwork. Only, I am so sorry you have all these terrible happenings. I wish they would ease down for you, my friend. I will write to you tomorrow. :-)
VDH
Creatief werk, complex design en aangename kleuren!!
SunriseGirl
Beautiful art, Mies. Your poem touched me very much. I tried to make a digital art thing in photoshop to respond and express my hope for your sweet heart to heal. It is a crude creation because I have no experience, but it is well-intentioned and I hope you will feel the love that surrounds you when you see it.
matstan2610
Wonderful texture and coloring , beautiful work.
durleybeachbum
Your poem is a frightening insight into your torture, Mies!
The image for me is less so, it reminds me very much of a peacock.
g1tip
Cool image !!!
QuietRiot
Your art is so beautiful, but your life seems so sad...you are hurting so much. My hope is that you find a bit of peace and beauty in your life.
X-PaX
Beautiful work Jacomina.
anahata.c
I've been away for all kinds of reasons, but I've seen all your uploads; and I wanted to comment on this, as I know you suffer each day with lots of pain and struggles. I know your art will often reflect that. I'm very sorry it's so hard, each day; and that you have to cope, each day. And you have to find renewed energy, each day...I know it doesn't stop. And I wish you not only great strength, but as much rest as you can get, so you can replenish, replenish, replenish. I wish you that, above all...You must know that your art also shows deep beauty and dance. And joy. And music. You create cantatas with your art, with beautiful arias, big beautiful inter-weaving choruses (with fugues or chorale preludes), beautiful chorales, and so on. This image is a perfect example: Yes, we can see the swirling struggles and pain: Those qualities are very visible in your image. But we can also see the great beauty in you, and radiance, and dance. Those qualities never go away, inside you. Your purples and deep blues are gorgeous; and your agitated repeating angles radiate outwards, offering us gifts. I think your art is all an offering; and I hope that that gives you courage and strength, each time you're beset by all this pain.
Everyone who knows you, here, feels your offering and love; and I---along with everyone else---give it back to you; and I hope you get stronger with each day. Also, I've seen all your uploads since this one, and they showed more light, more joy, more celebration. I was very glad to see that. But I know your condition is "up and down," and you have to deal with health problems each day. I just hope it gets easier. And btw, I haven't seen the new video (by R. Groves), but I will: I didn't know he did a new one for you. All my best to you, Jacomina, and I wish you peace and light to get through each day's struggles. All your fans here love you; and I send you my love as well. Blessings to you in abundance! A beautiful fractal, as always.
Glendaw
Amazing view Mies.
Like how this twists and twirls in a speedy circular motion as does the torment of pains you endure every day.
Many of us will NEVER know what you experience each day.
But all of us here know how much you strive daily to carry on.
We know from your lovely words/poems etc. and your amazing art how much you like to share with us and how much you love each and everyone of us.
Please know you are loved by everyone that follows you here.
Me--- Mies I have been blessed to know you a little more personel. which is a pleasure and honor .
I Love you very much and wish you the Best Always.
Take Care XXOO