Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (16)
durleybeachbum
A shame to see this dying vehicle.
giulband
Very very interesting capture !!
A_Sunbeam
Not much left ... but makes a good photo, and statement!
makennedy
I'm with durleybeachbum on this one...
Faemike55
The crew at GasMonkey would love this car!!! great find
SunriseGirl
This is a great shot! I feel a bit rusty sometimes too. :)
beachsidelegs
Wonderful picture love these old motors :)
kgb224
Superb capture Mies. God bless.
helanker
Awesome rustic rust :-D Excellent shot, my friend :)
X-PaX
Very nice finding Jacomina.
Maybe someone can use this as a flower box to lend the whole thing a bit more dignity.
farmerC
Prachtige opname,maar opknappen kost toch wel een paar uur
Succes ermee.
rachris480907
There's so much rust, I think it might crumble if someone touched it!
Great shot!
flavia49
beautiful
auntietk
I love rust! This is terrific.
Things WILL get worse before they get better. We say it's always darkest before the dawn. It's part of the healing, to look trauma in the eye and say, "Yes, I see you. Yes, it was bad." And begin to move on. Don't give up, Dear One! It's hard work, yes, but SO worth it in the end!
sharky_
A little paint job and this car will sell at top price. Nice capture. Aloha
Glendaw
Not much left but is still very eye catching !
Aw don't give up Mies.. Hopefully you have a lot of trust and faith that Mieke knows what she is doing.
Like this old rusty car you are getting older but still very eye catching with all your attributes and sense of humor. Plus giving to the needy, praying for all others and never ask for anything in return.
Perhaps you are your own worst enemy... Please believe you are one in a million and one-- Living with pain from head to toe for many years has to take its toll -- even if you take that ride on your bike for awhile just to soak in the sun/ fresh air and whatever Mother Nature has to offer.
I am not a councillor and don't want to override what you are going through with Mieke.
Just know you are in my prayers and thoughts even though I haven't kept in touch as often as I should. I missed you very much.
God Bless You Mies
Take Care
With Love N Hugs
Glenda.