I wanna apologize to you guys for being on such a tear the last few days. Please don't laugh okay? Last week I met this boy down by the park. He was shooting basketball on the court with some other boys. He was really... pretty. He noticed me watching and came over,, and started to talk to me. Long story short. I felt mesmerized or something. I stammered and giggled like a frickin moron. Then he stepped really close, and all I could see were his big brown eyes. Then his hand was on the small of my back. I knew what was gonna happen. He was gonna kiss me. I wanted him too. At the last second, it was like I woke up, and pulled away. He got mad. I tried to explain it was my problem. He said he didn't really want to kiss me anyway. That I was ugly. That I had a big mouth and bug eyes and looked like a frog. I wanted to hurt him, but I just walked away. I went back to my little one room apartment. I started stalking around the room cussing and ranting. I dropped forward and started doing push ups. I kept going till my arms stopped working. I flipped onto my back and started doing crunches. I don't know for how long. I finally stopped and had to scramble to the toilet to barf. I took a shower. I grabbed a whole box of Klondike bars outta the freezer, plopped down on the bed and started wolfing them down. I started bawling, as I munched, wiping tears, snot and ice cream with the backs of my arms. I know I'm not pretty, but,,, a frog? I got sick again, crawled into bed and slept. When I woke up, I wasn't upset anymore. I was pissed at the world. It's getting better. it was my fault anyway. I gave him the chance to hurt me. Jeeze, I'm so stupid. Anyway, I'm sorry if I said mean stuff to you guys. I'll try to be more considerate. Love Ya.