Excellent work - very intriguing!

Thank you so ver much PthaloBlue! I so appreciate it!

My Dear and Precious young Lady. You are more human than some I know. You are concerned about our feelings and how you may come across. I was once, a long time ago, military. Not trying to make you even more hesitant. Simply saying that I have seen things and done things and well, they can only be told by the person who experienced them in THEIR OWN WORDS. Not too long ago, I wrote a note to the clcobun person to see if you would share with us (me) more parts of your heart and mind. I know you have had it extreme. I hurt that you were treated like that. I have kinda adopted you in my heart and i genuinely would like to know more. Past is past. Can't be changed. However the more I know the better I understand you. I have access to the DAZ place, this place (rendo), and I have access to that DA place. You speak your heart. You tell your story. You can laugh and cry and get mad and maybe....maybe....If you can trust just one more time, you will find more than friends. Family. You cannot change how I feel about you, but you can help me understand. I hope the name Ms. Fit has not offended you. I think it fits you well (yes, pun intended). If you want to trust us with your real name... I would count myself very honored. I give you my solemn oath that it will remain TS Eyes. Remember not everyone wants you gone. There and many (me included) want you around for a very long time. Safe House offer stands. Love Ya back. <3

Umm... Mister Hill Sir? I just wanna say.. thanks, ya know? I know I'm being a frickin coward about this stuff. I mean like. you're totally right about the past, but sometimes... when people find out stuff about your past, or what you are, they judge. I get it. It's natural. But... I don't know, I'm just kinda... scared, There. I said it. But, anyway, I put it up over at the DA place. I hope it doesn't offend you, ya know? I also so appreciate your kind words, and support. A weirdo like me finding friends.. it's a big deal. honestly. And I know where to go if I ever need to go dark. I'm sure you're a great like, cook, but regular people food doesn't work so great in my body, In fact, It rejects me like a bad transplant. I live on liquid nutrition mostly... except for chocolate Klondike a bars. OMG they are like the greatest creation of the human species! I can eat a whole box in a sitting, and they don't make me hurl! So, thanks for everything Mister Hill, and be honest with me about the story, okay? I cant afford to lose friends over it. Best Regards The Misfit

Dear Lady.... Wayne. My friends call me Wayne and I would be honored to add you to my short list of friends. I promise that what you have said to me will remain between us. You have my word that I will give you my honest opinion of what you have been brave enough to post on DA. Friends are always honest with each other. That is what friends are for. If we cannot hear the hard stuff from our friends and know that they are only being honest because they deeply care for us, then we cannot hear the truth from anyone. Now one "small" issue. If you were my daughter, you would have a hard time sitting down right now. W H Y ?? What did I do???? I protect and defend my friends from people who say negative stuff about them. That means I also defend your honor....even from you! No more "weirdo", "freak". You are my friend and I think more of you than that. I just want you to know that you are an Excellent Young Lady, Fit, Beautiful, Feisty, Independent. And on the inside vulnerable, afraid, loving, compassionate, fierce, and in my eyes innocent. It would take something catastrophic for me to change my mind on this. It is really quite beyond your control at this point. I have determined to be your friend no matter what. I will accept your surrender at any time.

Okay Ms. Fit. Here is what I promised you. An honest, heartfelt review of your last Journal entry on DA. You might want to sit down for this. Okay now that you are seated and I know you have taken a deep breath, here is what I promised you:

By my promise! I found your treasure that was hidden in the grass. Ms. Fit, how could you ever think that this, any of this would cause me to turn from you? You were trapped by your position, you rebelled and made decisions on the fly. That rarely works. You were distracted and emotional. Despite your DNA, you are human, and emotion can get you and others killed. You were then forced into a position that had no real or quick way out of. Not your first rodeo? And? Your position and the emotionless handlers put you in the position of being helpless to whatever they wanted to do. I am sure that they tried humiliation and I am sure from other ops you were in that that became a tool to an end. I hurt for you, and I pray you will be able to get past all of this and actually know that as something good and not just a means to an end. Your alter ego? Dear one, we all have "voices". People tell me I am crazy. I talk to myself, and I actually argue with myself. The good news is I win 50% of my arguments. Your voice was selfish and self-centered. YOU CHOSE to do things to correct the mistakes. You stayed with the young man and did your best to give him a fighting chance to live. You could have run and left him to die. You did NOT. My Dearest one, as I have said before, you show more humanity than many humans. What I see is a beautiful young Lady that has been put through the wringer so many times you should be dead. After all you have been through, that makes you a walking miracle. Maybe you ARE an angel. What I see is a beautiful young Lady that has been put through the wringer so many times you should be dead. Young people make mistakes. You made mistakes. Unlike other young people, you took ownership of them, and faced the results with courage and honor. You then found that even when facing the "music", that there are even people, who you did not expect, that did care for you. You laid down your life for that young man and for TAG. BTW - I am busy looking for a good supplier for Chocolate Klondike Bars. Never can tell when I might have guests. 😊 Final thoughts: I said this before, and I will repeat it again here and for the record: "I just want you to know that you are an Excellent Young Lady, Fit, Beautiful, Feisty, Independent." "On the inside vulnerable, afraid, loving, compassionate, fierce, and in my eyes innocent." "It would take something catastrophic for me to change my mind on this."

"It is really quite beyond your control at this point. I have determined to be your friend no matter what. I will accept your surrender at any time."

Thank you Mister... Wayne. But you don't play fair. I've been bawling, and giggling all frickin day from your message. I mean, how's a leathal biological weapon supposed to keep her frickin rep, when she's all frickin warm and toasty inside? Just kidding, ya Know? I'm not good with emotions... but I'm grateful Sir. It's hard for me to see myself, or what I've done the way you described it. maybe I never will, but I'm grateful for your kind effort. It helps the pain. The thing is, I always had a choice. I could have let my targets kill me, so Tag would have been safe. But I didn't. I did my job. I survived. I guess I'll always wonder if I deserved to... but I'm trying Sir. I promise, I'm trying. Your kindness helps with that. I put up another piece from my journal. I call it no Place Like Home. Thank you again Sir... Wayne. The Misfit P.S. Love the Ms. Fit nickname! And you know the way to a girls heart... chocolate and ice cream! Umm... Yum!

You are quite welcome and I officially accept your surrender. 😊 “But you don't play fair.” I did not know that there were rules??!!?? I am just doing what you know deep inside that you do as well. Calling black - black and white - white. Of course, truth is always interpreted by the person who is hearing it and as it applies to their life. “I've been bawling and giggling all frickin day from your message. I mean, how's a lethal biological weapon supposed to keep her frickin rep, when she's all frickin warm and toasty inside?” Dear one, this simply proves what I have already said. There is a heart inside that petite frame and that it is hurting for someone to understand and care “lethal biological weapon” notwithstanding. You are still more human than some I know, and they are supposed to be the examples…..sigh. I understand not being good with emotions so here is the “rule”, you do your best to keep the promises you have made to me, and I will stock up on tissues (Note to self: add tissues to stock up supplies with Klondike bars. Order by case lot). “The thing is, I always had a choice. I could have let my targets kill me, so Tag would have been safe.” So very wrong and you know it. Your instincts, training coupled the built-in DNA to preserve your own life would never have allowed it. I am proud of you for being willing to lay down your life for Tag’s. He does not know, nor do I ever think he will know what a Jewel he has. I have gotta tell you that I am a bit nervous about your next journal entry. Ex-Mil myself, remember. No Place Like home…. Headed to check it out. Wayne PS - Love the Ms. Fit nickname!’ Most Excellent! : And you know the way to a girl’s heart... chocolate and ice cream!” It is almost all I had left to me. Diamonds, Chocolate, Roses…. But since you are a precious Jewel already, I had to go with the other options. 😊

I would love to give you my honest opinion... if i knew where to find you on DA!

Hi Joe! ccob55 over there. misfit search term, or by the titles here.