Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (8)
A_Sunbeam
Love the colour and textures
g1tip
Beautiful work . . . such an explosion of color !!!! And, to answer your question, I just love life, itself. One has to find ways to deflect all of those unwanted detractions and then find a way to carry on.
dochtersions
Thank you my friend, also for sharing your idea about life. ;-)
kepp
lovely image super colours too
dochtersions
Thank you very much, Mike.
JohnnyM
This is such a beautiful art creation you are sharing with us...the colors in it look fantastic and so full of life!
At times I feel at peace in this world we live in, even though the world around us can be hostile and full of turmoil at the same time. We must all do our best to try to visualize and do the things that are within our grasp...the things we can control. Each of us in our own way tends to find happiness with the things that matter most. You have some very thought provoking questions for which there may not be no easy answers, but nevertheless very important questions we must all ask ourselves.
I always enjoy the pictures you share of your garden and all the wonderful small insect creatures that inhabit your garden. I look forward to viewing what ever photographs you may share in the coming spring. The snow scene image you shared recently looked amazing! I hope you find yourself well and staying warm near a fireplace...take care my friend! :-)
dochtersions
Thank you for all your words, Johnny, I find it special to be able to read them and I agree with you. We grow every day of our lives, at least that's what I assume, and nothing happens 'just like that', at least not in my opinion. I try to see the good in everything. Spring has cautiously begun here, in the media they talk about nature being at least 1 month earlier in terms of the blossoming of flowers and bushes. I have a lot of photos on my PC, also because I had to take a long break from posting images here
KarmaSong
Here again, this fractal flame is of magnificent beauty and totally enthralling . I also share most of your view full of wisdom on our own existence among other lives and Life as it is and how we see it , depending on our own current state of mind. It 's amazing how a single fractal flame can turn us into would-be philosophers :-)
dochtersions
So nice, the way you describe it, about our awakening as philosophers, and also interesting to read your reaction, my friend. Thank you very much.
VDH
Abstract maar heel kleurijk !!
APlusDesign
Beautiful colour scheme in this. Thanks for distracting me from the chaotic world for a bit.
dochtersions
Dear friend, thank you very much!
X-PaX
Very nice work Jacomina. I really like the different colors and the fractal itself is not too colorful. I have resolved to visit the fractal gallery again more often. Greetings Christian
dochtersions
Thanks, Christian! And I've decided to place something on my gallery once in a while. ;-)