Daz Studio 4.22 and postwork in Photoshop 2024. NO AI. Second image is an older photo and the reason for this image and why I've been away. The dog there is the love of my life. Even my husband had reconciled himself to this. Her given name was Binky, but shortly after we got her in 2012 and we saw her lying on her side, she looked to us like a barn piglet and so we started calling her that. Piglet. Piggy. My Pig. :) On Aug 6, at 10am, she died in my arms. It was peaceful, I made sure of this, but I have been despondent since. I look for her in every space, especially the one on the couch next to me where she always used to lay. I still look at the clock and think "this many days ago at this time, she was still here." She was more than a dog. She was my soulmate. I have never felt a connection like this, and I don't know that I ever will again. She came to me at a time following the loss of a very dear friend to cancer and emotionally, she saved my life. More than a few times. She was my constant companion, 24/7, for 12.5 years. And no one knows more than I how lucky I was to have her. I will mourn her for the rest of my life. I was convinced I would quit art, nothing had any colour to it anymore, and I still am not sure on how present or not I will be or for how long. My heart is irretrievably broken. But I watched in life how this little dog, so old for her breed, pushed her little aching body around like she was still a puppy, even though she suffered with every step... and how, whenever her Dad came home from work, she turned into the version of Yoda that fought Duku, running full tilt to greet him at the door. She was magical. She was my world. I hope she took all my love with her, because it was bigger than me, and I wanted her to know how much she meant. How much she will always mean. Please understand if I am not reciprocal in the galleries. I am trying to put one foot in front of the other still. If this causes you to refrain from responding to mine, no hard feelings, I would rather you spend your time being happy. I'm trying to find that again. My Pig Jan 12, 2012 - Aug 6, 2024. Credits: From Renderosity: MDD Pearl, DMs Dark Emotions. From Daz: GYN-01, LIFE Android, Iray MetalWorX, Abandoned Factory, SY dforce Confetti, SY dforce Ropes, VDB Clouds, iRadiance Country Pasture, Promo Studio HDRI.