Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (11)
ladylake
Great poem and even better image. Love your creativity.
dochtersions
Thank you very much, my friend.
g1tip
Excellent work, Jacomina !!!! I wish you good luck in the challenge !!!!
dochtersions
Thank you so much!
blankfrancine
Wow! Very original Halloween composition.
dochtersions
Thank you very much!
shadelix
Very creative horror picture. But I'm still taken by the bats eating up the red moon.
dochtersions
Poor you, :). Thank you so much!
chrysaor
Vote!!! ;)
dochtersions
Lol, thank you very much, Chris.
water
Very cool !
dochtersions
Thank you so much!
VDH
Mies opnieuw een bijzonder creatief werk! Is dit je nieuwe stijl ?
APlusDesign
Very powerful words and images!
dochtersions
Thank you so much! :)
voske
Cool is deze prent en het gedicht past er perfect bij.
bugsnouveau
Wonderful
anahata.c
I love what you did with your oil painting. The oil painting looks like it has several creatures flying in the night, or several creatures swimming under the sea. The creatures have such vivid colors, while the area around them has deep dark blues and blacks. Great contrasts. And each "creature" makes waves around it. Wonderful.
(Actually, your oil painting looks a little like fabric! It has a very fabric-like surface. That probably comes from the canvas showing through the paint...)
The Halloween version is deep and macabre. I love how you turned the "creatures" in your oil painting into halloween images. Ie: 3 pumpkins---with fierce faces---and one red creature in the sky. The faces are filled with menace and halloween terror. In the pumpkin on the lower left, it looks like you have a human in its mouth! And the pumpkin in the lower right is on fire. I hope viewers look at the lower portions of your image: It has faces and other living creatures---lots of bats in this image too. It reminds me of Michelangelo's "Hell" (in the Sistine Chapel). This has an apocalyptic feeling...
The mansions are wonderfully creepy, with lots of turrets and towers and crosses and weathervanes (windvaans?). And, you know what? The swirls in the sky remind me of your countryman, Vincent Van Gogh. It's a perfect image for late Halloween night. It's really vital and powerful. And the oranges and blues make great contrasts.
Your poem captures the feeling of being in the middle of a dark hell...a dark and sinister place, with smog, cold, deep dark holes, etc. With "alone feeling frost/ cold all bones," we are walking through a freezing landscape, and we shiver in our bones. Or maybe you mean that bones are all around you...a kind of "valley of dry bones," of the remains of passed souls...either way, it's a finely written late fall image.
Also, you use a lot of sound rhyme. For example:
sinister/whisper win/skin smell/hell
the "p"s of "penetrant" and "pervasive"
lost/frost bones/sounds (that's close rhyme, not exact, but it's a common form of rhyme nevertheless)
the "c"s in "col" and "creepy"...
and so on...
This is a "packed" upload (there is a lot in it). And, having seen it, I'm glad Halloween is over, lol...I wouldn't want to be out in a Halloween like this!
great work, Jacomina: a very rich upload! (And you said you were lit by the Halloween virus. I hope you didn't mean an actual medical virus---I hope you didn't get ill. I thought you meant it metaphorically...if you did have a physical virus, I hope you're a lot better now!)
PS---thank you again for your beautiful comment, I appreciated it greatly, as I did your poem. Hartelijk dank!