It's within the last week that I've realized how totally afraid I've become to dream. It is such an unnatural thing to live in a place where there are no dreams left to dream, and I don't think I could do it even with great effort. I'm bound to dream even for the hopeless because there must be something tangible to strive for in this life. But I am tired of always hearing "no" from God and everybody. I am tired of always being corrected by God and everybody. I am tired of having nothing to show for my hours and days. I am just tired. So it gets burdensome to dream. I fear dreaming because of those dreams killers..