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My mother called me today. Now, let me tell you why this is important. I haven't spoken to my mother on a regular basis for almost 9 years because of an incredibly messed up thing that she did to me at that time. It doesn't even really deserve going into here. Anyway, she calls me to tell me something.
My father died in a motorcycle accident last Friday, April 16th. William Gorman Smith was 52 years old. Honestly, I didn't have too much of a relationship with him. I didn't actually meet him until I was 15. He had remarried and had a son who at that time was about a year old. I talked to him off and on for about 8 years or so, and he helped me out with many things and we had a lot of good talks, then kind of drifted apart, and I had no way to contact him. I thought of him often, but it was one of those things..."Oh, well, one day I will really look hard for him, I have plenty of time."
Well...I ran out of time. I will never have the chance to tell him anything ever again.
I think I am going to take a break from things for a while. If I miss your pictures, I apologize. I am just going through so much. This latest is really just the icing on the cake, and I feel I need to take some time out and just...I don't know....evaluate what is going on with me and my life. My mother all of the sudden wants to make a fresh start with a relationship with her, she says this made her realize how short time was, but I have a lot of mixed feelings about it. *sigh* I just don't know.
I apologize for the poor quality of this image. See you all sometime soon.
*(*hugs*)*
Tricia
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Comments (31)
GreyPixel
Wow! What a beautifully illustrated image!! Emotionally inspired I'd say ;)
SeaCrystal
Don't lose hope! It's there, it's just hidden and waiting for you to let the time be right for you and your mother now! My deepest sympathy for the loss of your Father! There are really no words that will sort things out until you are ready to deal with it and move forward! Sometimes it seems like our world will fall apart, but He doesn't give us more than we can bear! You must be really a strong person!! This is really an emotional artwork! Thanks for sharing it with us! God Bless and hurry back, you will be missed!! hugs -SeaC-
BonBonish
I second SeaC -- I am so sorry to hear about your loss :)... and of course I wish you a lot of energy to able to overcome all those hard things that you are facing with... And thank you for sharing with us both your personal story and your wonderful work! --- B.B.
divishow
Beautiful and touching.
RnRWoman
I'm so sorry to hear about your father! And I'm so sorry to hear about the difficult times you're going through right now. I hope that God will bring you healing and take care of your father in Heaven. Hang in there, there's always room for hope. I hope God can bring you healing as well as your family, and that you are able to figure out something that will help bring you a lil peace. I hope you are at least able to talk to your mother and work things out. (((((HUGS))))))) My prayers and condolences goes out to you. Hope you had a Blessed Resurrection Day / Easter and God Bless you.
lunaris
Tricia, my heart goes out to you. I don't know how terrible the feeling is, and I'm not trying to make you feel any better since I'm not qualified for it. But from the bottom of my heart, I feel the deepest sympathy for you. My prayer goes out for you. Take care...
Predatron
So sorry to hear of your bad news. I know exactly how you must feel, having gone through a similar experience of losing my father a number of years ago. I wish you all the very best and hope you can get through it all OK. Don't stay away too long. Thank you for sharing and take good care. Steve
vlaaitje
very sad story, I know how you feel inside. And that you have mixed feelings. Because there must first something happens before people realize how short life is.....That's why I always said enjoy all little things around you, because life is to sort. I lost my brother 3 and a half years ago, so I know it was a hard time. That makes me stronger, and now I know that you must try to catch the day......I like the kid in this images, it tells about you......well done..my condolences goes out to you
meico
You take your time, whatever you need. Art can wait, life can't. Despite your mixed feelings try not to leave something undone which could cause regret in times to come. I'm one who did. My very sincere condolences for all you are going through. Think of others by all means - but above all make time for you. Take care. Meic
alsafysh
My condolences go to you, and wish you the strength you need to carry on in this hour.
pjaj
So sorry to hear about your father and your life. I do pray that God will bring restoration to your relationship with your mother and will bring healing to your life concerning your father and the things that you're going through. Life brings ups and downs many of time, but if you have the Jesus on your side, you can do anything, but fail;o) Big Hugs to you and I'll keep you in my prayers;o) PJ
svdl
Sorry to hear of your loss. I don't claim to know how you feel, but I can tell you this: when I lost my father ten years ago, there was no "unfinished business" between us, and that helped me very much to find peace. So try to straighten things out between you and your mother, before it's too late. I totally agree with meico on this.
The image bears a very strong message. The face and pose of the little girl almost make me cry.
Hang in there, and never forget you've got friends.
Tebok
I am sorry about your father. What you said is all true, never put off making amends with an old friend or family member because you never know what could happen the next day. Wonderfull Image.
msebonyluv
Tricia, I am deeply sorry for your loss, but don't worry, whatever you want to say to your father, you can still say, he can hear you and he will always be with you in your heart. Remember the good times you had and cherish them. As for your mother, she may have done things that were wrong in your eyes, but everyone needs forgiveness and when the day comes when she should pass, you don't want to be back in this same position again. You can only have one mother and no matter how she may have treated you, she is making the move back. It may not happen overnight, but don't let anger get in your way of your relationship with her, you'll regret it, believe me!! much love and hugz to you and your family and always stay blessed!!! Patricia
xxxander
My condolences...just stay strong...when people die..that don't ever truly LEAVE you..they are always around..don't forget that..and PRAY...He will hear you!
webmaster421
This is such a sweet and sad image Tricia. I wish the best for you and hope that with whatever choice you make, that it brings you peace and happiness. Take care...
magbag
So sorry to hear for your loss. Your artwork is very expressive - beautiful image!
Avalonne
My heart goes out to you. The image evokes a lot of emotions, and I know that I went through something similar with my mother when I was just a young girl. My mother died before we ever really had a chance to mend our fences. I know it's tough hon, but take her hand...she is extending it in love. Life is way too short to live it with regrets...believe me, I know this first hand. I hope you are able to find some peace in this trying time, and I know the words sound trite, but they are oh so true: "If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it". {{{Hugs}}}
SophiaDeer
I am sorry for the loss of your Dad..I lost my dad to cancer when I was only 14 years old. I lost my Mom a few years back when I was 41. I hope you and your Mom get close again...once they are gone..they are gone..I still dream about my Mom and Dad. Hugs to you...
prog
I wish I could say something to make things better-I'm so sorry for your pain. You have been such a positive presence here-I'll miss you while you are gone, but take all the time you need to sort things out. I wish you the best, and I hope you and your mother find comfort in each other. Take care, and I hope to see an image soon!!
jherrith
My condolences to you during this trying time. Having lost my Mother to the cancer thing 5 yrs ago next Tues. I can say that it hurts and hurts hard but we all have a still point within us to gain the strength needed to face the trials of today. Know that along with everyone else here and at DSA we are here for you and wish you the very best and look forward to seeing you back again in due time.
chrislenn
It has all been said Tricia I feel for you and your boys hug them tight it will help. When my kids were little I told them that every star up in the night sky contained the love of someone who had died find the brightest star you can for that contains the love of your father and tell him all you wanted to say :o) or talk to him when ever you need. there is a star that I can see from my backyard most nights thats my grandfathers who passed away while I was in England 13 years ago I still talk to him that way big hugs Chris :O)
Cyve
Great Picture and very good idea ... I love this one mi friend !
calum5
Tricia my friend I would say to you give the chance of a fresh start to your mother.Mine never wanted me or to this day bothers wih her abandoned children.If givin the chance I would still let her start a fresh.I never knew my father either and Im really sorry for your loss.My deepest symapathy I send to you and my offer for a chat at any time.Your a friend and Im here waiting if you would like to talk.Take care and I hope you can get things sorted out soon.Love calum..
Witchy
Hey Beautiful Lady, I'm just putting in my 2 cents of HUGS and letting you know that I'm here also. You do what you think is best, and remember, if there's anything I can do for you, just give me a holler. HUG!
romanceworks
Tricia - sorry I came late to this and even sorrier to hear about your sudden loss. God, I'm sure you are just stunned. I learned very early how precious life is when my mom died when I was seventeen. It's been many years since then, and a daughter of my own, but oh how I would love to have more time with her. I hope you are able to forgive and work things out with your mom. This is a wonderful render and really says so much about how you felt about your dad. :o) CC
Armorbeast
My poor little one...I know you've mentioned your relationship with your father to me before and even told me you would get things going with him again someday possibly.I am so sorry for your loss...your image is truly inspiring as the little girl seems to be letting her angel go knowing she will one day meet him again when she crosses over to find him waiting.He'll be there waiting m'lady...you just wait and see as we all hope there's something more than this life-he just went before you to ensure you knew the way:)
Jalen
wow i decided to go from back of gallery...now i know why...i understand when u run out of time and one dies b 4 u can right the wrongs..i can tell by the comments u have alot here who care 4 u..and yes take the time u need to sort things out..i wish u the very best...anad know ull have big welcome backs..God speed to u on ir self exploration journey...Jalen
Ranai
I feel your pain in so many ways. My father passed away the day before my birthday last year. I never knew who he was until a few months ago. I never got to meet him or talk to him.
dukun
wow what a beutiful image..she is so sad..i can feel your pain..You did a good job..to give your emotie on this image...Excellent!!!