Sometimes I wonder what I am supposed to do in my future and then wonder how screwed up my life is. Yeah sure, you know I'm a loner... But you know, I never started out this way. Sure I have lost everything. My friends, family, maybe my life. And sure you know, I've lost trust in people. I wonder sometimes what happened and what changed, but for some reason it is always the ones I treasure and love that turn their back to me. I wonder alot what I did wrong to make me like this. Yeah, I've been emotionly hurt more than physicaly and sure I have been called plenty of names before, like loser, fat, stupid. I could go on, but what is the use when they don't bother me. Yeah sure my heart may be worthless and I know I can be ruthless, but if you wonder off a little and look at me instead through me, you'll see that I don't care about any of those. I used to wonder what it is like to be loved and be in love. Because of me being a loner, I don't know what love is. Until, that is, I saw you. Let's just say I used to go to my private little garden hideout for peace. And who evr came in would be my best friend or lover. But no one ever came in to view me and the wonders I have done. It became hopeless. I became hopeless. Until, in this garden, I see you stroll right on in instead of strolling on by. I knew then we were meant to be. My life doesn't bother me now. Now that I'm with you. Oh I wonder..... I did this poem because it was about me and then the ending was to my boyfriend who I love very much. I hope you like my new poem. I am sorry I haven't been here in a while it's just that my friend has opened up a cyber coffee cafe and I have been working there for a while. So I hope you like my poem Well bye!! ^_________^ Nicholette