Fighter (~For My Mother~) by PandyGirl
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She fought, she lost.. she fought again and lost again... but she kept on fighting, but she is on the ropes of giving up.
I am not sure what to say.. lol.. it seems everyone is having problems with the family members being ill... and I have been here silently wishing everyone's mother or father or family member to be better as I watch the increasing amount of family dedications.
I am not the one to go to everyone and tell all my problems to all.. some know some things about the problems I have been dealing with the last year and a half and others more then some.
Not many know,because it hurts to talk about that mother will probably die before I ever get married and give her grandkids. 9 years ago, she had to have some bypass surgery at the young age of 44. Not my mom.. kept going through my head.. this strong women, who managed 20 adults who acted like kids.. who travelled all of the time for work, who went out and had fun, who was vibrant and energetic and full of life.. was lying on a hospital bed with tubes in every place they could put them and even made places for more.. she died.. she flat lined 2 times in a 24 hour period, and they didn't think she would make it.. she did.. but ever since she has had small surgeries for something.. now her left kidney is completely and 100% dead and her right one following along and shrinking in size. She was always there for me, and I am lost at what to do .. I am unemployed right now...beyond broke. and HOPING to go back to school so in a couple yrs I will be making enough to support her.. she is supposed to be staying away from stress, yet that is all she has.. she bought a trailer few yrs back when the doctors told her no more work.. she was gonna travel.. then social security messed her up and she didn't get approved.. so she had no money after awhile.. I talked with her last night..and there seems to be a problem with her chest again.. and her trailer is leaking now and flooding everything...and she was about at her wits end last night.. for me.. hearing her break down on me.. ME.. her child.. the one she threatened to kill if i ever fainted on her again.. crying.. my mom has always been my constent in life... always there to give me some advice.. be it good or bad.. and there is NOTHING that I can do to help her.. and I just want to scream at the world for doing this to someone who has always helped people and has given her heart to everyone. And I have no clue why I have told everyone who looks at this picture this... lol... maybe i needed to get it out instead of yelling at the world..I normally don't like telling total strangers stuff like this.. but oh hell I have no clue why I have.. lol..maybe you all can put her in your prayers for me.. that things will start to look better.. that I can get some money coming in.. move her back down here with me..so she doesn't have to worry about things any more.. anyways.. now that I am crying my eyes out.. i end this wish.
Comments (27)
Elfenone
OMG.. HUGE HUGS I love this image as you know.. but I feel ever closer to you now.. won't say why..and I feel like very close to your mom..for sure HUGE HUGS Honey..
leda_moon
Never give up!!, the days will get better!!I wish the best for you and your mother!!, Your image is very beautiful and shows you very strong!!
striving
Very nice image that has come out of a lot of emotion. Fine work.
sunfirexed
Great image. Looks dangerous. Love the pose!
BlueLotus7
You are your mother's daughter. You are strong. You choose to break down to strangers rather than to her for you have the wisdom to know she needs your strength. Whatever you want to change--do it! Use that strong mind and think positively. Make phone calls, demand rights for you and your mom. I guarantee that help is out there! Your art is a wonderful outlet for your pain and I respect that. Take a deep breath and show the world your mom's fighting spirit!
kathymoon
I wish the best for your mother,you and your family!!!!!!!Huuuuuuuuuuugs!
Armorbeast
To know that one's mother is ill and to feel so helpless to do anything,to know she might perish and you'll lose someone so important in your life...even if you're somewhat removed from her you're going to feel pain.Some people will tell you all is well and if the worst happens its gods will...to me thats not the right thing to say but some people can only say such things because they don't know what else to say-but the feelings they have are genuine.The key thing Adria is not dealing with the pain on your own,reach out and get support from people who feel your pain and who can comfort you...combined,my entire family has the compassion of a dung beetle but it is important if you can to find family who can lend you strength then reach out.Some people just lack compassion or feign it so as to not look bad in the eyes of others,but the truth always comes out because those who lack compassion cannot long keep up the act.I offer to you my shoulder and give to you what strength I have to offer...I've only just gone through this myself,but I more than most may understand the full scope of your grief-I feel your suffering and understand your fears,I more than most give you my sympathys and hopes that your mother recovers from her ordeals!Just never forget-if only I your pain will be felt and understood!
SK2Design
I think my heart just shattered into about a billion pieces. Oh sweetie, how I wish I could offer words of wisdom, but I have none to offer. Armorbeast has extended his strength and hope so eloquently, and for as much as I can, I gladly do the same. I will keep you and your mother in my thoughts and prayers, asking that everything work out for the very best and to do so quickly. You've shown such an amazing strength, so much like you've described your mother has, and what a true compliment that is to you both. May all prayers be answered so your mother heals and you both can live together again very soon. (((HUGS)))
prog
I'm so sorry! You and your Mother will be in my thoughts, and I will be hoping for the very best for the both of you!! Hang in there and be strong, even when it is so hard!!
RNKarenER
Beautiful image... and my best to you too
SophiaDeer
A stunning image...and beautiful dedication to your Mom. She will be in my prayers. I lost my Mom back in 1997. She had me late in life, when she was 45,{{I am the youngest of 5 children}} and died a few months shy of her 87th birthday. She was always a beautiful and vibrant woman, alert up until the day she died. I still miss her so much. Hugs to you and your Mom...
HauSiyoka
This image holds a very special essences of your fighting spirit! I wish you loads of love...add me to the many ears and shoulders here, you can call anytime...Hugs...Tee
Shakti27
awesome image hun and many well wishes to your mom - hope she recovers and all the strength in the world to you both S HUGZ!!
B_PEACOCK
You know that I can say many things to try to make it better .But nothing will .But what I can say is that my love and blessings are with you . I know This is the hardest thing you will every go thru in life or at least it was for me . Love and the biggest Hug !!!! .XOXOXOX :(
Merlin2000
Never give up!! I wish the best for your mother,you and your family!!!!!!! Verry verry beautiful image !!! Excellent !!! Vote
webmasterfossy
Exellent composition and colors. Fossy
terryla
wow, don't know what to say...The render is beautiful, and your story so very touching. Your Mother did not give up! You must not either! Your art shows there is so much beauty inside your heart. My very best to you and your Mother, and Thank You so very much for sharing...Terry L. Avery.
brat526
Sorry, don't really know what else to say.
papachile
A very big hug for you...I will keep you and your mother in my daily prayers. God bless you and keep you always in the arms of angels to protect you and you mother. I love the image, and I love your total dedication in this. I can see how much love and work went into this...take care.
Primal
beautiful image,with vibrance and strength,i will pray also.i only hope the very best for you and your mom.
shamanka
Wow! The image is very fitting. Don't give up hon! Hugs.
drugdoc
Our hopes and prayers are with you! In this community, although we don't see each other's faces...remember that not all of us are strangers. Hang in there. vote
jherrith
My God I knew that there was trouble in your life and that you are going through a rough and turbulent time. I did not know how much turmoil was your daily lot. My heart and sympathies go out to you and your Mom. Like AB and so many others that have lost a family member it hurts and hurts bad (its been 5 years since my Mom passed away) and it is only by reaching out to your friends whether they be online here or live close by. Remember that there are many of us that are here for you and will keep you and your Mom in our prayers and heart. Now if I could only be as eloquent as AB in saying this know too that my shoulder is here for you. A very beautiful and moving picture full of the strength and determination that you and your Mom possess. Vote.
ann0314
Oh sweetie...I am so sorry to hear about your mother...I can't imagine had that musy feel or what you are going through :O) Sometimes life really throws you more than what anyone should have to bare in one sense or another. I truely believe that with you by her side one way or another you will both make it through. If character denotes a person's strength than I would say you and your mom both must be tremendously strong...and the love you have for each other will only strengthen her in her hours of need. You can say that you can't do anything...but trust me you have and are...reguardless of the outcome...she has had you to confide in...cry to...and laugh with...and those are all the things that make the heart stronger and will bind you together forever. My heart goes out to you and your mother...and my prayers...HUGS!!!!! and PRAYERS!!!! :O)
Goddess
I am sad to hear this news, you have told me a small bit about this, but I want you to know that if you ever need someone to talk to i am here, you have my phone number and can call anytime, I cant imagine how this must feel, as i love my mother so much and dont know what i would do without her, I cant sit here and feel good about telling you how things will be ok, and all the little sayings, but you are truly in my heart, as is your mother, she must be a wonderful woman to have a daughter like you, stay strong, and hold tight all the wonderful things that makes you the beautiful person you are, i hold you high, and your friendship is held deep in my heart, hugs
DirtyFairy
shes in my prayers excellent picture and dedication.
PCP_Paladin
Love the hair. Great work. Prayers for your mom.