I have again been out of commission. It seems when I think life is going to calm down and behave, it shows me otherwise. Today, life had to go on hold, though only for a little while. I have managed to peek at image uploads in the few minutes I get and I must say WONDERFUL work everyone!!! Today, Skynet and I saw 1 year at each others side. It's been a year of triumphs, of laughter, love, but a year riddled with uncertainty and sadness as well. We have had to fight our own demons, our own insecurity. Myself moreso than him. He's always been there for me when I needed him most. The last 2 months things haven't been easy for him. I have, in turn, tried to be there for him. Yet, in doing what I felt was best, I did many things that in reflecting I see were not the best. I will live with that knowledge for the rest of my life. Saying I'm sorry doesn't change it, but I will do what I must to right the wrongs. Sky, I Love You. You gave me the only true security I have ever known. I promise to give you a lifetime of gratitude for that. Trust your heart, you know where it leads and you know I am waiting. You know I am protecting those I Love with every ounce of strength I possess. Isa watches over you as do the others. I only hope it is enough. Inspiration for this is Hevioso* by The 69 Eyes I'll be waiting for you baby I'll be waiting for the new dawn begun I'll be waiting for the new world to come I hear the angels calling And the rain starts falling Thunder and storming Hevioso Brings justice by the morning I'll be waiting for you baby I'll be waiting for you now baby I'll be waiting for the new moon begun I'll be waiting for the new blood to run *Hevioso is a God of Thunder