Down But Reasoning by gallimel
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*You think I am down...
well maybe I am, but only
cos my body needs its time
to raise up again...
I might seem calm,
while obeyin you...
I might seem nice,
while smiling at you...
But I feel rage towards you all,
I feel you're stealing my forces full.
It's gonna end,
cos my mind thinks:
no longer more
I'll fill your dreams.
You gotta do what helps yourself:
my choice is freedom,
a brand new set
of duties and rights
you never cared of
too taken in makin me do
your jobs and plots.
I might look down,
but I do reason well:
after this month,
you'll think of me.
With regret.
*
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Picture taken with Zeiss Ikon Netter (an old vertical camera property of my father) lights artificial from three lamps, old film (from there the dusting). Scanned with Epson Stylus CX 3200, normal settings.
No postwork. The picture is of that dimension due to a scissor's cut :).
Model of course is me.
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I took a long series of pictures with me posing and with that old camera for a request Black_ST did to me months ago to pose for him.
I gave him 9 shots, and some more I will, but I kept for myself of course the majority of the session (two days.. it was long.)
This one was perfect to explain you all the way I feel lately. I am never around due to insane working.. but it's gonna end. As New year starts, I will take 6 months off from my work as University Researcher. Basically cos I don't stand the Milan's crew there around me.Which makes me do things I was never hired for doing.
In the 6 months off i'll start a new career as administrative responsible of an important society round me.. and maybe I will finally get my second Master degree (in Psychology) and finish to write my book of tales for children, and searchin an editor for it ;)
So don't worry for me in case you were. And read the poem.. it explains much.
Hope you enjoy :)
PS: Out from this session in grey-blue will be taken the picture I am gonna use for the gift of Xmas to some of you dears :) expect it in parcel at your houses :) Hugs again :)
Comments (161)
Sekadhar
All is perfect, my dear! Very good news you told us...I wish you really free time to do all that wonderful things! Take care! Excellent shot:))!!!
Tedz
No regrets....just please Yourself....and gelato always sooths the way :]
mabel45
be at ease you have it planned swell gallimel very pretty lady your are :))
TOXE
Mi piace la posizione delle braccia un pcontorte, forse la vedrei meglio in bianco e nero la foto... Meli, ti alzi cospresto per uploadare le tue immagini? Ahhuuug, che sonno, vado al bar a farmi un caff.. Un abbraccio, Davide
gunsan
Good to hear you'r gonna change the pressing work situation. I love your pose here, and that dress looks fabulous. I feel like cutting you out of that pic and place you in the nature together with the other fairies (only in my fantasy) The grainy photo has a special charm. Want to see more of them :-)
ivorytalons
i just wated to say youlook beautiful.
Akinom
"Besser ein Ende mit Schrecken als ein Schrecken ohne Ende"... "Better an end with frights than a fright without end" (Sorry don't know if the translation works well) Well done my friend to free yourself from this pressing work situation. Best of luck to all your plans and future! BTW a wonderful image! hugz
gwfa
sometimes a cut is best for all - beautifully reasoned and presented to friends - hugs
logiloglu
oh my, you are a beautiful model. would like to take some pictures of you.i like the grain and mood. a wonderful image. !!!!!!!!!! #:O) !!!!!!!!!
cynlee
a strong poem... take your control back, the world is your oyster & you a rare & precious jewel... beautiful pose with a proud look, i like the grain too, i have no doubt you'll succeed in all you set out for yourself :] xoxo
Snow_Angel
WOW! What a Fantastic picture of you Meli! You are so pretty and classy! I am hoping for you to get the rest you need :) These are signs to you, telling you to change course! Love your poetry and how you explain your feelings! Excellent work! :) V
NODROG69
Wow! Such a dramatic self-portrait. The grain effect works so well too, and love the light sparkling off your shoes. I'm sure you will benefit from the release of the pressure from a heavy work situation ~ it worked for me.
leda_moon
Sometimes I think you read my mind!, the words hit home and my heart!,Excellent work !!
ShadowWind
Very powerful pose, expression...
BobaDuffs
Okay I won't worry because yes I was and now I have your permission to relax I feel better!! And wow what a portrait of you!! Drool...... ha ha!! You're a workaholic I love it you are a good influence on me Bravo!! The Zest for life you capture it so well!! Congrats on the book, degree, new job and all your work projects and progress!! YEs!! Yes!! Yes!! :P
tvernuccio
Wow!!!! You are incredibly beautiful on the inside and out!!!!! grain is perfect and love your pose!!! Your poem...wonderful message. I can relate. Take care of yourself. Go after your dreams. You only live once!!! Vote!
Spooky-Wan
Lovely photo. Like the pose and the grain.
SophiaDeer
Gorgeous Meli!! You are prettier than any Hollywood actress!
titta
Emotional and beautiful photo! With your words it's like a page of life - a page that all of us have lived... or almost all of us :-) Thanks, Meli, for sharing this moment! :-D
danob
La signora bella si merita di fare che cosa rende il suo felice il mio amore sempre
mauriziomalangone
Idea originale e foto di difficile realizzazione, a giudicare dall'equipaggiamento utilizzato. Complimenti quindi ala "Modella" e alla fotografa...Grande collaborazione...dire grande affiatamento.
jstsittinghere
very emotional words Meli! beautiful model. always my best wishes ..
Synapse
"I really HATE to be subject of photographs" ... ahahahahahahahahaaaa, yeah right... I don't think hate is quite the right word is it? ;-) And don't consume yourself with hatred for these people angel, it does nothing to them and everything to you. Just concentrate on leaving it behind and finding something better ;-) I like that pose anyway, it reflects your brooding mood... but don't brood too long HUGS ;-) xxxxx
NataLibera70
Wonderful portrait !!!
cbender
all my best for you dear meli... and i like this emotive portrait... it's well done...!
coolj001
I know the feeling. Good choice. Cool photo. -Peace :-)
vlaaitje
just wonderful and very touching shot...and the words says more than enough to me....I understand all.....you are so good looking, with a heart from gold.....I hope all your wishes comes true, because you deserve it.... Ilona
Ensomniac
Best line from your poem, "You gotta Do what helps yourself," You're Beautiful as always. Don't let the bastards get you down.
Sylvaine
The poem describe you except your beauty...the attitude in front of the camera is breaking my ego...you are a master in self...cause your are still looking at you trying to find you...Dont hurry...you are young, skill, sensitive, intelligent and SOOO artistic....Love you so much.
SirJohn
I am happy to hear that you are taking steps to insure your happyness dear Meli. Working with people who take advantage of you is enough to make you furious. This is a beautiful picture Meli... and that only makes sense since you are a beautiful woman both inside and out.