BIO
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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
Comments (10)
titta
The guy there in the pictures look really nice in my eyes :-) The whole picture is so cool! Very intense, graphical, and beautiful too! The black&white is fresh. So many feelings - with only some little changes. I like this a lot!
SoulSearcherr
kewl idea
unstrung65
..this fragmented self portrait conveys a lot -- and your artwork is exceptional.
Synapse
Did you ever see the work of doruksal here? He hasn't posted for over 2 years but his gallery's still up... he would do a lot of graphic divisions along similar lines to this. Just as I liked his work, I feel very drawn to this too... keep it up Yo :-)
cbender
this is great yo - i really like it... cool!!! i really like the way you put "a story" in here... and the way you composed the pics together... strong...!
bevchiron
Very effective techniique Yo, it's both intimate & distant, inviting the viewer close as it draws the eye in but always keeping something hidden! Strong, simple & full of intensity, great idea for a self portrait.
Turin_Returns
I would love to be able to produce a self portrait as stylish and impactful as this one. It has shades of THX-1138, giving the impression of a statement of relucant conformity, or an individual unheard in a bleak world.
Digimon
Bev sums it up pretty well.
A_
it really is interesting. this is like glimpses of what you let us see... and we have to build up the entire picture. like in reality, i suppose. powerful image!
SSoffia
HERMOSO !!!!!!