What do you do when the world seems to get to much for you to cope with when you feel over whelmed by all that is happening around you I tend to push people away and run and hide by pushing people away first i think they won't miss me won't notice I am gone I am fighting that urge right now as I know it is because I don't feel well that is causing it People wonder why I have disabled comments - it is all part of what I do to push people away they will stay this way until I am better I think. I opened my email the other day and was totally overwhelmed by the 200 ebots waiting for me so deleted the lot and all my fav artists I just can't cope with commenting right now and receiving comments makes me feel more guilty - it's as if they can find the time why can't you I am not trying to upset anyone here just trying to explain the way my brain works at times I am hoping to start my list again when I feel better Please forgive me Chris