BIO
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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
Comments (8)
Jay7347
This is one incredibly deep, disturbing and totally right on the mark illustration. yo, you know where the nerve is... and how to rip it out... vote be safe! -jay
98Bones
Brutal and yes well done!!
Synapse
Big sigh Yeah. It's predictable generic psychobabble crap, a convenient alternative to real listening, real empathy and real support. I'm sorry you're made to sit through this tiresome stuff and I can only imagine what each session opens up within you. Once again so moving...
cbender
ohhh well - they always try... and sometimes won't see the reality is easier than they thought it is... the pic is awesome...!!! thanks for sharing...! a moving image, dear Yo...!
bevchiron
This is an incredible image Yo, so powerful & deeply moving, so much sadness, anger & frustration...... I'm really at a loss for words. I'm really sorry you are still having to face all this crap & I can understand how hard it is for you, all that futile aggravation is the last thing you need.
Digimon
Brilliant, I can relate, and about 1.4 billion others! Your image is incredible, your graphic style blends perfectly these contrasting elements. This piece spoke volumes before I read the text, it is enhanced by the text, because it put's your face (Soul) over it. Excellent piece!
ACS-001
An excellent work. I also found your notes funny.
SoulSearcherr
no words