The Little Me by BonBonish
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I would like to add this image as # 49 of my 'family album' series
First, I would like to say thank you... and it is a big thank you :)... for all the help you guys extended to me during the recent months :)...
As a little appreciation I would like to post a little story... that somewhat summerise my current situation :(...
Title of the story:The Little Me
This story is about isolation. Have you ever felt that sooner or later you'll disappear completely? Have you ever felt that given events leave you intensely diminished financially and emotionally?
I am in a box. To the right of me, behind a faded rose-patterned curtain, I see a small toilet. On the other side, there is a sink next to a small shelf. On the shelf is a miniature microwave. In the center sit two small and ugly iron beds.
It started on the night my husband insisted I leave our home.
"You must leave," my husband said, unreasonably.
Leave? What did he mean? I loved it here. I wanted to stay. With him, with my daughter, Noa and with my son, Eden.
"No, I won't," I said.
"Yes, yes you will."
I took my shoulder bag and told Noa, "I must go." She said: "I want you to stay. Please, be my mother." I started to cry. "I will continue to be your mother, just not here," I said, and slowly closed the door.
The new apartment looked a cruel place. And it was. It made me weep. I was still crying when Noa arrived. I prepared a light dinner. We started to eat and cry at the same time. Then we went to sleep. Morning come and she left to school.
When Noa returned, I opened the door. She stood there for a moment - peered into the room and said: "Mom, the room has shrunk."
The next day, hearing Noa's knock, I opened the door. I could see only her legs. At this moment, I understood that the room had shrunk, together with me.
I am so ashamed of my tiny size, that I have never left this room again. Noa continues to visit me, but she never gets inside the room. She sits outside and talks to me through her cell phone.
DAZ Viki 3 -- and Viki DAZ dresses
MappleJuiceV3's textures --- by Neomea
MappleJuiceV3 --- by BonBonish
Once again I would like to thank to all of you for your wonderful encouragement and helps :)...
I also would like to say thanks for looking and your comments always welcome!
Have a great weekend!
Comments (41)
yarddog
Welcome back your world is getting bigger and it sounds like you are too. you still are in my prayers and on my prayer chain. Glad to see you smile thru my tears:)
BonBonish
Tim, thank you so much for your kind words :)... Oh, yes... your and your prayer chain's prayer helps me also a lot :)... Among my big misery I am happy also that I find you... guys :)... and of course I wish you guys just the best!
DennisReed
Wonderful render Koty, please just keep that smile on your face, and everything else will begin to shine with it! Bravo, and maybe if we all give you a Great Big Squeeze, You'll bust out of that little room & me feeling! HUGS, and continued prayers for better things to come!
BonBonish
Dennis :)... thanks for the prayers and the virtual hugs :)... you know, I am so happy that you are still not tiered of standing by me :)...
bramhambabe
AWW big hugs to you sweetie!! I hope for the best for you :) Hugs Trish xxx
rjghise
Koty I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles, I do hope things are starting to get better for you and the room starts to look bigger soon {hugs} Rose
BonBonish
Oh, Rose, thank you so much for taking the time and visiting my gallery :)... and of course thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words... I also hope that very soon that room will start to get bigger and bigger :)... I am happy to see you too... :)
capelito
Oh Koty, I am sooo sorry about that what has happened. I wondered a long time whats the matter with you. I hope and pray for you, that now everything gets better. Your image is fantastic as always. All my wishes are with you. hugs Maike
msebonyluv
Sorry to hear about what is going on with you Koty. I know in this world things can close in on you and you feel you don't have to strength to stop it, but there is always hope through prayer and I will say one for you each day. Continue to have strength and stay talented as you always are!! Glad to see you posting again.
Mondwin
Superb image very well realisade!!I hope you will be better and pray for you!!!bravo!V:DDD hugz Whylma.
BonBonish
Hi Maike, Thanks for the kind words :)... no... I didn't dissapeared... but you know it took me quite a time till I learned how to talk about all that terrible things that I have to handle now...
1010
Hi Koty, so good to see you posting again. That means the room is getting bigger. Big hugzzzzz
BonBonish
Patricia, thank you also for your kind words :)... you know I am a strong woman... and I learned already that the world can be cruel... and I also heared in the past one or two very unpleasant stories... and my heart went to all those people who had to be strong just in order to able to maintain their humble everyday life... but to tell you the trueth... I couldn't make even this far without my friends' pray and help and hugs... and warm words... so once again thank you so much for taking the time and pray for me :)...
BonBonish
Hi Whylma :)... thanks for the kind words and for the hugs :)...
BonBonish
Dawn.. such a pleasure to see you again :)... I wish that room will get bigger :)... and I am sure that with the help from you and my other friends... it will get bigger :)...
RodolfoCiminelli
Welcome back Koty...!!! I want you the best thing, I will have it present in my prayers...!!! As always excellent and very creative scene.....!!!!
Artzy
Wonderfully Done To Be Sure!
visualgirl
Koty! I tell you I can smile and cry at the same time with your story. I know you are a strong woman and you will definately get through this... I am so happy to see you posting again. Big hugs!
Kinouk
What a great story!! Wonderful image!! Glad to see you posting again!! tonz of hugz
Kspada
I've missed your work Koty! I didn't know you were having any troubles and I'm sorry for that. I really hope things will brighten up for you in the future!! Keep your chin up and be strong... keep moving forward and build your life back. Hugs :)
brycek
Koty..I wondered so many times where you had gone. Welcome back friend and I will keep you in my prayers..((Hugs))
SophiaDeer
Great to see you posting again Koty! This is adorable.
BonBonish
Rodolfo thank you so much :)... I really appreciate your prayers :)...
BonBonish
Artzy, so great to see you visiting my gallery :)... thank you so much for your kind words :)...
BonBonish
Meli, thank you for your IMs and visual hugs :).. they sure helped me also... you know I realised it isn't enough to be a strong woman... I need all the help I can get... and thank God I found RO community, and all those so many great great people here... I really do not know who would I get through all the terrible things that I had to handle... without your great help and visual hugs :)...
BonBonish
Joan, first I would like to ask you for forgive me that during the recent months I haven't commented on your beautiful works in your wonderful gallery :)... All those terrible things I have to handle during the recent months take a lot of time... and you know I am already a mature woman... and I do not have too much energy... so in every given day after handling that day's specific things... I just don't left too much energy... I am visiting the galleries... but commenting I just do not have the energy... I saw that you commented with very nice words on the posts where people were praying for me... and I really would like to know how much I appreciate it :)... Hugs....
BonBonish
Kate, first as I wrote to Joan I am visiting your gallery also :)... but no energy left for commenting... definetely like your style and composition... each of your image a pure joy to look at :)... thank you for the encouragement for building my life back to normal... I try... and try... and once again I am so thankful for all the help I got... and with the help it is easier... but still I need a long way to go... :(...
BonBonish
brycek... thanks... :)... I hope with my little story I could explain a little my current situation :)... Hugs...
BonBonish
Nancy, you know how much I appreciate you not just as an artist, but as a very kind person also :)... I also like to help people... and one of the things that is so painful for me... is that during the recent months... because it takes so much time to handle the terrible things I have to handle I do not have much time left to help other people as I did in the past... I really hope that slowly I can build my life back... and once again I can put my talent to help other people as I did in the past... Hugs...
romanceworks
Koty, I know you are going through a terrible time right now but it is very interesting as well as uplifting to see that in your art you have still managed to make the tiny room somehow beautiful with the lovely patterns and colors and especially the slight smile on your character's sweet face. In a way she seems to be saying I know I will survive this and emerge with a bigger, stronger spirit. So be strong, dear friend, keep going, never give up on yourself. Hugs - CC