BIO
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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
Comments (7)
DOGFROST
What ever the Mistake it realy is not worth the Pain .Enjoy Life we only have one to live, so enjoy its beauty in all aspects even when nothing seems right. Great ART Work.
devineydesignsllc
let it out!excellent!thankyou.
Marit
Glad we only have one life, wouldn't like to live another one.. Great work!!
cbender
everyone has bad days... everyone makes mistakes... important is the next day... and to learn outta mistakes... well.. apart from this - again a brilliant and strong pic... even scary... but anyway brilliant... moving... thanks for sharing!
A_
your work is always so intense! never mind what people like the ones you overheard in the opening say. they wouldn't know a good and heartfelt artwork even if it came and-- well, you know the rest. ;)
Synapse
Not since the works of kracker have I seen blind rage captured so devastatingly at Renderosity. It's sad to see but I can only wish you well and hope for a brighter phase of your life.
trickdesign
Really a GREAT image ..along with "A rag doll for him" and.. most of your gallery !