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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
Comments (7)
JnM92
This is lovely, realy. Beautifull
mmirnii
hahahaaaa... whatever who cares.. ull get new audience!! cool blue :) max
jagarcia_nm
Every one feels blue once in a while. It will get better. Great work though.
tat2u
yomah, you've been in my favorites category for some time; I get you delivered to my mailbox. Yet, I've never commented on your s#it before.. I comment now because I wonder how you thought this pic would offend the other gender (assuming you meant female). This is yet another example of you amazing work; it's excellent.
cbender
a really strong one again... well done - deepy and twisted... i love that blue... which seems to be less blue for me - it's more "life" here... especially with the touch of green... anyway - strong work, dear yo...!
Kalliandra
I love looking at your art... I'm sorry that I rarely comment... recently its because I have been going through a family crisis and have not had time to check any pictures from my fav artists... even if you weren't on my fav list, I always checked your gallery for new pictures... anywayz... I was not offended by this picture... I am female... I think it is amazing just like the rest of your stuff... I hope the best for you... I know how it is when your life is drenched in sadness... God Bless... K
maggiemai
Wow... Strong emotions and a fantastic work of art!! Your background texture is awesome and the color combination perfect to get your message across. Really like this a lot!