BIO
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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
Comments (6)
cbender
it's worth looking at, yO - no doubt! i like it a lot... it's worth looking at - i like the way you put a movement in there... a kind of story... it's something like "questioning - thinking - starting to do"... three strong pics combined in a perfect way - your choice of greyscale is great here...! and well - all three are what you "mentioned" windows to the soul - that's stark...! :) thanks for creating and sharing!
Kalliandra
All of your stuff is worth looking at!! :D I agree completely with cbender... its an amazing piece of art... I know where you have been... where you still are... I'm still recovering... trying to be ok... and it gets hard sometimes... just know you aren't alone... ~K P.S. Thank you for your art... some people are afraid to post how they feel... but this makes me feel like someone finally understands how I feel inside... so thank you... V
maggiemai
A wonderful collage! Excellent work. :-)
bevchiron
Your work is always well worth looking at Yo & not just once, it's always worth coming back to for more than one look too! I think Christian just about said it all already, not a lot to add to that, love the intensity & depth of feeling you convey here.
A_
wow, very expressive. excellent. how beautiful. this is such a great artwork, one that cuts right through me.
Synapse
Hi Yo. It's very worth looking at indeed in my opinion. Very moody and nicely presented. I love the graininess that features in so much of your work. And whoever advised you to limit your anger if you plan on getting better is right. I know this is a quote, but whatever you focus on becomes your reality. Everything you need to overcome all this and live a life of contentment is already within you; you just need to believe it. I guess that will feel the hardest thing to believe from your perspective but it's true.