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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
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Comments (7)
A_
what a heart-breaking image and words. this is so intense.
Kalliandra
Omg... this is... amazing... I don't know how to explain the feeling it evokes... especially since my mother was a victim of similar things... and one of my best friends was as well... God Bless..
dragonfly2000
First the image: extremely well done, and even without the text ~which you've incorporated really well~ powerful and disturbing. As to the real horror here....sigh, so very sad. I have a very good friend who went through this with a step-'father'.... I just feel like I have to do something, but cannot; thanks for this. Peace.
claridad
Excellent art work, punctuated with the tragic text. You remind all of us that not much is done to prevent behavier of in home predators. Everyone needs to look in their own home first, if not, there's more denial when action should be taken to protect the children. Yes, it can happen in our own homes!
Eccentric
A powerful work of art indeed. Gives a rise of mixed emotions. Your words only intensify the message in your work.
fractalinda
A powerful portrayal of a dispicable happening and the tragic result; a broken heart and spirit..and mixed emotions that will play themselves out in often destructive patterns..for years and years. You've used color and light/shadow..and particularly texture most effectively to create this brutal assualt on your subject and my senses. Excellent and compelling work.
gunsan
Chills run down my spine...your image and your words hit deep inside, so powerful!! You sure can touch us Yo, excellent work in all its tragedy.