A life in the bottle by experimental
Close
Hover over top left image to zoom.
Click anywhere to exit.
Members remain the original copyright holder in all their materials here at Renderosity. Use of any of their material inconsistent with the terms and conditions set forth is prohibited and is considered an infringement of the copyrights of the respective holders unless specially stated otherwise.
Description
I am afraid. So very afraid. I am writing from the heart at the age of twenty-two on my very own deathbed. The doctors have said that my constant drinking has killed my liver and that I have a short time to live. They say that my kidneys will be the next to go and shortly thereafter my brain will fade away into nonsense. But that is okay, because I know that I have made my peace with those around me, and now I shall make my peace with my cyberfriends here on Renderosity. I have loved everything I have read here, and wish that I could write at least a tenth as well as all of you. The fact of the matter is that I write the way I write and never let it get to me. Some of you may have connected with the words I've said, and some of you may have let it fly way over your head. And I regret it that some have let it fly over their head, but that's the way life goes. I wish to have had the time to make a bigger impact on the worlds, but my words may be beyond this time, or perhaps I just speak gibberish. My only wish before I die is to hear from those who took my words to heart, and from those who let my words go way over their heads.
Comments (6)
TallPockets
" and shortly thereafter my brain will fade away into nonsense. " -- HELLO, experimental. At least YOU have an excuse for 'brain fade'. Listen, kind soul. We are ALL screwed up. No exceptions. Each in our own, unique way. Some of us just ADMIT it. Btw - one man's 'gibberish' is another man's Pulitzer. WINK. My best, PEACE. TallPockets/brian.
eternalwytch1
Oh goddess....if this true...I will truly miss your words hun.
NothingNess
How can this be? Tell me it ain't so. You're so young. Perhaps reading this will open people's eyes to the negative aspects of too much drinking. You will have saved lives. That's quite an impact.
Wolfspirit
This is a sad dayand I am sorry that this has had to come to pass, although forgive me yet I have this faithsome people/friends and family say this about meAs I believe anything can be overcomeI truly believe in the powers of the mindMany and much power it hasTherefore I wish you well with all my heart and all my mind. I wish for you to think positive to fight back with what you have at your disposal a mindand a brilliant one at thatIt is not over till the fat lady sings and believe me when I tell you I am not singing today! Doctors may be right and we all are as TP saysnuts! Therefore youre not alone, you never alone But the doctors may also be wrong. They have been before you know Their words are theirs, yours are yours and mine are my own as what will you take of all and hold close to your heart will be your decisionWords can have great impact and change the world because they change the mindThus it only stems to reason and logicwhy then, can they not provoke the mind and promote healing too? To me, they can, and this is surely to be the outcome of each of our futures. I have understood much of what you have wrote over time or would like to think I haveSometimes true, I have looked deeper into it then I should haveYet, for me have caught most all and it, as with each word I have found peace and part of the me in mea new and life changing discovery if you willas also it has been a wonderful journey Thank you. I dont want it to end on this plain of existence trueSelfishmaybebut hey, why not be selfish with me? All my love as a friend and my deepest respect to you for your braveryNo matter whatI believe we shall surely meet againand always you are to be my friend.
airlynx
Alas, poor Yorick! I knew him, Horatio: a fellow of infinite jest, of most excellent fancy: he hath borne me on his back a thousand times; and now, how abhorred in my imagination it is! my gorge rims at it. Here hung those lips that I have kissed I know not how oft. Where be your gibes now? your gambols? your songs? your flashes of merriment, that were wont to set the table on a roar? Not one now, to mock your own grinning? quite chap-fallen? Now get you to my lady's chamber, and tell her, let her paint an inch thick, to this favour she must come; make her laugh at that.
6T6
My heart breaks for you, for 14 years ago I nearly shared that fate. I know what it is like to see death in your own eyes. I walked from the darkness into the light. I am probably not the world's most healthy person, but I am still kicking. And I am grateful everyday to be sober, and it has not hindered my creativity. Do you like coffee? This question may sound insane, but studies have just revealed coffee has a regenerative effect on the liver, except damage due to viral causes unfortunately. I am a heavy coffee drinker and have been for most of my life. As long as there is breath in your body, there is hope! I am praying that you will overcome this.