I am sorry to have to say this, but for anyone unaware Mike sadly passed away in Decmber of 2009. He will be sorely missed by us all, Martin (Stepson)
It is, I suppose, inevitable that my upbringing has had a profound effect upon what I am, and in turn how my approach to art has developed.
My early years were spent in the Valleys of South Wales - a schizophrenic environment when the landscape of miners' terraced houses clinging to the hillside segues seamlessly into crags and fern-garnished mountainsides, vigorous brooks and secluded woodland. Musicality, lyricism and a love of spoken language are all part of my Welsh heritage and I think they are all discernable in my written works. My father was killed in WW2 and my widowed mother married a man from Manchester in the north-west of England. To say this development was a culture-shock to me is an understatement - I hated my new home, and my new family. Wales was - and remains - the place I call home, though we only visited there each summer holiday every year until my mid-teens.
Apart from those early years and visits, a further two years living semi-rough on the resort coast of North Wales, three years at College in Chester, and a single year working in the Fenlands of East Anglia, I have lived and worked in Manchester. The earthy and grounded tones in my work are directly attributable to my childhood and adolescence in the back streets of this soot-stained, grimy industrial city. My passion - and my life's work - for the education of children with special educational needs arose purely by accident: during the summer of one of those years on the North Wales Coast I worked at a Holiday Camp., and was asked, as a favour, to be 'Uncle' and look after the guests' children, arranging activities etc. The problems of one or two children who simply didn't fit in affected me deeply, and pointed me in the direction of my future career.
If asked what my influences are I could be ridiculously trite and say 'life' and given that I've lived more than sixty reasonably eventful years, there'd be more than a modicum of truth in that. However, in terms of literary influences, here goes: I've always been a voracious and woefully indiscriminate reader, although until I was in my late teens my reading was almost exclusively non-fiction. I was a typical back-street philistine late-fifties teenager interested in birds, booze and Buddy Holly - in that order. It wasn't until I reached my late teens that I began to read anything of interest, but when I did I devoured everything - Satre, Camus, Kerouac, Dostoyevsky, and Nietzsche. Poets included the beat poets Ferlinghetti et al, Blake, Gerard Manley Hopkins, Baudelaire, Rilke, Lorca, Cummings and a selection of contemporary British poets, Dylan Thomas, T S Elliott, Christopher Logue, Ted Hughes and [ironically] Sylvia Plath. Of these, I think only G M Hopkins and Dylan Thomas had any stylistic impact on my work, and then not deliberately.
Until the age of 18 art was of minor importance only - I wrote the odd poem purely as an elaborate 'chat-up line' - but my main academic interest lay in science. It was assumed that I'd go to University and end up in medical research. However, a chance friendship with an art specialist changed all that. After a few visits to pubs I discovered that I was moderately skilled in sketching likenesses: this led to portraits with pastels and then oil-painting. I was hooked. My friend sent a folio of my work to an art college and I was offered a place, much to my mother's dismay and disgust, because I'd also been offered places at Oxford and at Aberystwyth Universities to read sciences.
The upshot was that, after a catastrophic row, I turned down all the offers, left home and for two years drifted aimlessly in North Wales hardly earning enough to feed and house myself let alone afford to buy art materials. The experience with children in the holiday camp seemed like the answer to my problem - I could have a 'proper job' and still have time to make pictures and write. I made my peace with my mother, did a year's unqualified teaching to be sure I'd made the right choice, and as a compromise accepted a Teacher Training Course specialising in Art and in Human & Social Biology. At college, I exhibited and sold my first pictures and also had some poems published in college magazines.
For ten years I combined committed teaching with a moderately successful period of art production. Headship, however, requires a great deal more involvement, and the amount of spare time for painting and writing diminished year by year, until by my mid-forties I was totally wrapped up in my work to the exclusion of every other interest. My son's suicide changed all that. Art provided an essential outlet for the mental devastation of this tragedy, and for the trauma of a distinctly nightmarish final year of teaching leading to premature retirement. I don't exaggerate when I say that Art - pictures and writing - and the opportunity to 'publish' online saved my sanity.
There has been more than one defining moment in my life:
a. my sudden switch to art, leaving home, and the final choice of teaching as a career
b. my marriage and horrific divorce after 15 years
c. my son's tragic suicide [aged 29] - my promise to him led to online publishing
d. my premature early retirement after gross mismanagement by my employers
I'm married for the second time and have a stepson and stepdaughter, in addition to my own two daughters - and 8 grandchildren [to date!]
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Comments (23)
eternalwytch1
Very powerful Mike.
STEVIEUKWONDER
Magnificent words Mike. Absolutely top class Sir! Steve :o)
NekhbetSun
I think you and I both know a thing or two about scrying, don't we... Irregardless, I really like this poem and for the first time since reading your work, you sent me scurrying for the dictionary...had to look up annulus ... I defer to the word master :o) Brilliant work dear Mike ! ~ Hugs ~
Mondwin
Superb poem and fantastic creative image..bravo!!V:DDD.Hugsxx
auntietk
Yes - all one can do is take a deep breath, choose, and move forward. Saying you can't decide, haven't chosen, is just a choice that leaves you standing in the mist, hoping for salvation.
helanker
Very beautiful.
romanceworks
Scrying ... what an intriguing word ... and poem. 'the fog's breath has frosted the sheen'. Oh, so many incredible images painted with your poetry. This really takes me on a mystical journey -. CC
Skydancer917
Wonderful words, Michael!!
A_Sunbeam
Nice graphics and colours. I especially like the way you vary the style of the typography and choice of types.
kaliwright
absolutely beautiful :0)
Valerie-Ducom
As always it's a pleasure to reading this lovely words from you my friend !!! Bisous et bonne journ :)
miashadows
Such wonderful work,very touching and powerful.as I can relate to this confusion and tiredness,the road ahead is never clear,finding your way in darkness.Your words very wise-exellent art
RodolfoCiminelli
Absolutely wonderful realization Mike....!!!
mamabobbijo
This has truly painted a picture. Enchanting as it hits a chord and resonates within each of us. A place we all have been, and will be again. BJ
TallPockets
Brilliantly written and artworked! (I have been known to be seen 'crying' in the mist). WINK. My best to you and yours, T.P.
hipps13
Moving forward is hard but is the best path to take Falling backwards just causes more pain Nice work
kansas
Very moving words. We are pushed forward even though we do not wish to take a step.
jo_dis
This is so well done, there's nothing more to add!
tofi
This is an interesting piece, that matches themes and style very effectively. The title suggests a seeking soul lost in the fog. Not a simple setting, is it? I can imagine novels that communicate less on the subject. The opening stanza sets the tone. The fog is more tangible than the very instruments with which we seek to pierce it. This is so true when we are caught in life. When we no longer know the way, the fact that we are lost is more overpowering than the desire to keep moving forward. At least for awhile. It drives more deeply into the human psyche than we are often willing to admit. Behind the senses, behind our own capacity to understand, is the desire to know the way and to follow it. More solid than an invert image is the fog that hides the way. Interestingly, we can start to get a grasp on our surroundings, only to lose the way again. In the same way, the poem begins with such cold, almost clinical language and imagery, and as you start to feel as though you have a grasp of what is happening, the second stanza flips the script. Here, all is natural, though no less revealing. Still present is the sense of needing to know the way, but being kept from it. The fog is writing to us a map of misty calligraphy that we are incapable of reading. Possibly the most difficult fact to face is also addressed here, that we once saw the way so clearly, or thought we did. We saw a way, and believed it to be the way. Perhaps we lose sight of it, or perhaps we realize it is an inferior path. Either way, whether led slowly and manipulative out into the desert, into the fog, or unceremoniously dumped there by our own stupidity, we end up there, misguided and unsure. Even scrying into the depths of the spirit-realm brings no insight, as the fog reaches there too. The clinical, the natural, the supernatural, all outer sources offer no aide. All that remains is our own resolve. The fog, blinding as it can be, is only a psychological barrier, after all. It has no mass, no physical substance by which to withhold us. But just as Scrying in the Mist informs us, the way ahead is wearisome and we need to summon the will to act. Present in all human life, but so often dormant is this power to get up from where we are, and move forward to the place we desire to be. One last time, as the poem comes to a close there is one last poke at the senses, as the last line provides the only true rhyme, reminding the reader that this is in fact poetry, and not a position piece, or Sydney-esque essay on prose. And true enough, onward we must go. The poem does not fail to surprise, move, and motivate thought and introspection. It drives you inward first, then outward. As the effect of the poem takes full force, it releases you into the fog, into the freedom that comes only after making the choice to step, as nerve-coils untwist the reader is set loose into the great unknown.
JillianElf
One of my favorite words, and a wonderful piece of writing work! You really captured something we all go through in such an insightful way! Thank you!
amirapsp
Beautifull work...
Wolfspirit
Thanks Mike.
leanndra
Once again, your words paint amazing pictures upon my mind!