Just Because.... by shahlaa
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I have learned that sometimes life seems to hand us more than we think we can bare...sometimes we just sit back and we ask ourselves "Why?" I don't know about you but I always try to reason with myself in these times...I try to treat others as I would like to be treated....a lot of times I find myself biting my tongue and turning the other cheek, just to keep peace. And then other times I wonder if my opinion would even fall upon ears that would be willing to listen. Maybe that's why I choose to remain quiet. Sometimes I become angry with God because I just don't feel like He's listening or even that He cares and then soon after the guilt sets in and I wonder if I've made Him angry with me for cursing at Him. I don't know how you may feel but I'm so afraid of dying but even more so, I'm afraid of dying alone. Death has been on my mind, weighing heavily here recently...I've lost so many family members and friends since December of 2007 ....I find myself asking God why the good ones always seem to be the ones taken and the bad ones get to stay...it just doesn't seem fair or right to me. My Mother always told me that life isn't always fair, that it can be really tough at times...she also told me that our bodies are shells we live in for awhile and that it isn't what a person looks like on the outside that makes he or she good or bad...it's what's on the inside...she raised my brother and my sisters and myself to always look to a person's heart and soul and I've always tried to live that way. I raised my own children that way...people are people, it doesn't matter the color of their skin, where they come from, what religion they are, or even what they look like....we all bleed red blood, we all have goals and morals that we live by...I am a firm believer that there is good and bad in every race and creed.
I am hurting so bad right now, I know it is stemming from the illness of my friend Kelvin Hughes...I'm so worried about him and his family...we all handle death differently...I don't handle it well, I never have. It doesn't help me feel any better when someone tells me the ones who have died have went to a better place and aren't suffering anymore...maybe I'm selfish, but I don't want my family and friends to die, I want them always here with me. The day will come that I will die and I will leave behind my loved ones and dear friends...then they will have to live with the same emptiness I am feeling right now. I don't want that for them.
Maybe someday I will understand why we must die....but I'm 57 years old and I don't understand it yet. Maybe I never will....
Life is short....that's a reality we learn too soon....I'm just thankful there are friends who help me through emotional times like this...friends like each and every one of you....friends I cherish and love......."Just Because!"
God Bless and Blessed Be!
Parts of the background such as trees and terrains were freebies here at Renderosity.
Some props here used by permission by our very own Propschick...you can see her tubes at http://www.pcgraphicsolutions.com/freetubes.html
Comments (55)
Lakotariver
Wow, This is wonderful, so full of color. Love the flowers, Butterflys, Mushrooms and your lady in your scene is perfect for this. You did an outstanding job, Beautiful
LudyMelltSekher
Mi querida Marlene, tuve que traducir tu texto para entenderlo y veo que te sientes muy angustiada. Amiga querida, trata de vivir el día de hoy, el pasado es historia y el futuro no lo sabemos, sé que te sientes mal, pero sé también que la muerte no existe, pues yo estuve un año entero en coma y acá estoy,. lo que vi en el otro mundo no existen palabras para contarlo, es maravilloso. Esto te lo digo no como consuelo,sino como una gran verdad. Oramos por Kevin, lloramos a los que hemos perdido, rogamos no morirnos, pero lo único seguro de la vida es la muerte Es otro nacimiento y siempre, reencarnación tras reencarnación volvemos a encontrarnos, espero que entiendas esto traducido, beso gigantísimo. Ludy **** My darling Marlene, I had to translate your text to understand it and I see that you feel very distressed. Beloved friend, tries to live the day of today, the past is history and the future do not we know it, I know that you feel badly, but I know also that the death does not exist, therefore I was an entire year in a coma and here I am,. what I saw in the other world not words exist to count it, I is marvelous. This I tell it you not as consolation, but like a great truth. We pray for Kevin, we cry to the ones that we have lost, we beg not to die us, but the unique thing insurance of the life is the death Is another birth and always, reincarnation after reincarnation we find us again, I expect that understand this translated, very gigantic kiss. Ludy
lorddarkwolf
One of your absolute best out of all your artworks I've seen so far. Really shows emotion. Excellent.
stuart83
Beautiful artwork and scene Marlene, beautiful
Minda
this is wonderful and full of color..excellent artwork
MariaAJMD
Gorgeous and magical, love the colors and compostion. She looks a bit sad though. Is she lost? Gorgeous. Hugs Maria
mikeerson
Marlene, so sorry you are feeling saddened. I have had a hard time with death in my face but it's a part of life that we need to have. I use to wish to make it to 100...at 44, I've had things happen to my body that could of cripple or even killed me. In August, I had a 20ft by 60 cieling fall flat on top of me. It took 8 guys just to move a section so I could get out from under it. I don't want to live forever. I want to see the people who have passed on again. I guess that frame of mind helps me not fear death - I don't want to die, but in an odd way I do welcome it and I am happy for those who do go to the other side. I hope this helps in some strange way. BY THE WAY, YOUR ART HAS CHANGED TO A DIFFERENT STYLE THAT I FIND VERY REFRESHING - I LOVE IT. YOU HAVE BEEN FAVORITIZED!!!
pops
A beautiful image and thoughts
angelbearzs
she is beatiful:)
Blush
Beautiful sis... I too have lost lots of friends this past year and the year before that.. I am 52 and really not ready for death..I have been thinking a lot about it too lately..I am going to live life while I can..then hopefully I can go to a better place after I am gone..and I am hoping I left a lil part of me behind in everyone for them to remember me by... No one is ever really ready to die I don't think but when I worked in Nursing passing meds I had lots of older patients tell me they welcomed death..may be they know something about the here after that we don't or merely going with the knowledge of what we learned and what we still have heard about heaven...where there is no more pain and no more sorrow... But until then Oh Lord let me breath another breath..see another sunrise..see old friends & just be alive... This is beautiful sis... Love it..so full of color and details.. Even better zoomed in:) I posted a new one too a day or two ago..my hubbys and mine 25th wedding anniversary...now thats a milestone you don't see these days... Drop by and leave a comment when ya can This is going to my favs Hugs Your sis Susan~
eekdog Online Now!
love your thoughts and a beautiful image Marlene, lol god bless u / kelvin and his family
TCopsey
We hurt with ya. I am a single dad and had the fear of dying alone too. "Know what I realized?" I could be married and "still" die alone. Avoid focusing too much about the end but focus on living. I focused on death to much in the past as well. How did I change it around? I got so tired of worrying and so peeved I realized I was cheating myself out of living (enjoying my kids, parents, friends – shoot, even my X-wife). Get lots of rest, talk this out w/someone close but avoid harboring the thoughts and fear. Counseling or pastors are helpful too! You're gonna make it. I for one have confidence in you so you're accountable (smiles). IM anytime. Trac'
Sivana
Once someone asked a Zen adept, what´s the biggest happiness of life. The adept answered:"Grandfather dies, Father dies, Son dies, grandson dies". The man who has asked thsi quwation was very astonished. "Master, I really can´t understand what´s the big luck if all persons have to die?" And the adept said: "The correct order!". We always can´t really understand if friends or family members have to go out of the order of life, if they can´t live the full circle. We see them arround us and they are a part of our life. Sometimes, I really wonder what´s the real probleme of us - to lose someone or to stay back alone without him or her? To be dead means - not to be alive. Most of time since the existence of this planet, we are death. Only for a very short time we are alive on earth. Anyway, nothing desappears in the universe but somethings changes or transform. I´m sure, when the time has come that our body can´t exist anymore our awareness (Soul) will be for ever! I know this philosophy can´t console you in the moment, but maybe it can help you to understand when time goes on. Wonderful made image!!
3Dillusions
Beautiful work, Live life to the fullest its the only thing we control in our lives.
magnus073
Hi Marlene this image is so beautiful but now I think you'd rather hear comforting words from a friend. All I can say is in many ways I am like you and hate to lose friends and family due to death. Still the thing that keeps me going is knowing that I will get to see them again one day if I try to do what is right while I'm here. Maybe it sounds silly but it's my story and I'm sticking with it ;)
myquad
An absolutely beautiful image. I offer this to you. A huge, warm hug and know you are not alone.
Mad-Mike
Hello Darling, First and foremost would like to say, you must always keep faith in God, even through bad times as this with you. I know it is so difficult to get get through at times. but God says their is a reason for why things happen. it's all in his master plan how things evolve in this world. it truly is sad when you have family members die, and friends as well...and you ask yourself perhaps..."why god?... did they deserve it?" etc... life is full of mysteries, and sometimes we just need to roll with the punches this life has to offer us. Some times in my past, I told myself I wish I was dead,.. felt hopeless, unloved etc.. but with some prayers I persevered through the rough edges of life. and with this excellent loving community here, it helps us a lot! I really do love the people here. and I confess, I have cried for some even here. I wish the best for you dear, and God Bless you Marlene :)
This Bryce creation of yours is very beautiful! you put a lot of work and love int o it I see :-) favorite indeed darling. Fair thee well fair one ;-)
Hendesse
What an excellent and beautiful composition. Wonderful vegetation and colors. A pleasure to look at!!
tatalinn
I want try to use comforting words ... You'll get this from me instead ... HUG
/Ankie
Thelby
Just keep the Faith, For without Faith it is Impossible to please God. And when and if we keep God pleased then the other things just seem to be easier to bare. Not Just Blessed and be Blessed, but rather Be Blessed to be a Blessing!!!
carlx
Very beautiful fantasy scene with splendid vegetation!!!
erlandpil
Nice work erland
Kuiski
The scene it´s fantastic and pretty, my best things for you! Take care
brycek
Wonderful image..Hugs to you!!
TheAnimaGemini
Hn i asked my self so many times "Why"? But i guess there is no answer. Wonderful image. Take care of you and hold your head up. :)
pjlawson
Beautifully done scene Marlene! I'm 52 and I don't get it either - why the good ones die young and the bad ones seem to linger on forever here. I don't ask why anymore. I just keep on praying that someday I will again see my family and friends who have passed on and I pray for those who are still here with us. My prayers go out to you and your friend Kelvin to help you both through this difficult time. May God bless you and He will help you though this!
photostar
Beautiful image, Marlene...so quiet and peaceful. Hope you begin to feel a bit better inside. Remember, always, that the ones we have lost and who have passed on are waiting there for us to join them. They have already seen the other side and are surely anxious for us to join them again, someday. We don't ever lose them, as they remain with us in our hearts. It's just that we can't see or touch them anymore. If we keep them in our hearts and memories, they are never truly gone.
Propschick
Nice work hun!
Petra-S
sehr schön..da bekommt man gleich Lust auf die wärmere Jahreszeit!
Tanglimara
A wonderfully colourful image Marlene. My thoughts are with you at this sad time of your life. I know you'll recover. I have had the same feelings on a number of occasions during my life and all I can say is that time is always a healer despite us never knowing why our loved ones are so cruelly taken from us. Tony :-)