Never Give Up by leanndra
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A lot of you know I struggle with depression. There are days when I can rise above the negative attitudes I have learned though out my life. Days when I can focus on the good things that I have experienced. It is one of the reasons I have been using quotes by famous people with my fractal images.
I have been reading Gayle's writings (amota99517), and they are so uplifting, so beautiful and help me to view life from a different aspect, and to see life as it can be. This gives me immense hope. Hope is something , that for many years, I felt I didn't have. As terrible as this sounds I believed that life had to be 'endured', that it was a trap and that happiness was an illusion. That is a terrible way to exist, because I can't call that 'living'.
More sad than that is the fact that I know others who have the same kinds of problems that I do.
There are days when my depression is so deep that the positive words and writings don't seem to help. Now instead of focusing on negative solutions to stop the pain, or at least to lessen it, I get angry. I don't want to cheat myself out of living the rest of my life. Most of my life I have existed, by trying not to feel. It doesn't work and in the end creates more problems.
I'm not telling you all this for sympathy, It isn't easy to reveal these things about myself. It leaves one extremely vulnerable.
I am telling this, because I want those of you who share this kind of pain to know that there are other alternatives. For many years my ego was a big problem, and to some degree it still is. I was unable to accept what had happened in my life, things that were beyond my control. Things I couldn't prevent that I believe changed the person I 'should' and 'could' have been.
I can handle being responsible for my actions. But I can't, and won't be responsible for what others did to me that I couldn't stop. As long as I hold onto those things, I am letting it be my responsibility. It took me years to realize this. Those people are dead, and I have kept the events alive.
Reading Gayle's writings has made me realize something very important. There isn't any past, there isn't any future, there is only now, this moment, that we are alive. We need to learn to live in the moment from moment to moment.
So the next time you feel hopeless, helpless and that you are unnecessary; get angry, get angry at life and tell yourself that life is not going to get you down, and that you can take anything that comes your way, (and you can)!
So in that vein I want to leave you with this quote from Sir Winston Churchill.
"Never, never, never, never give up."
Comments (21)
e-brink
Gorgeous colour choice, Lea... I agree with you about Gayle's writings - very uplifting - and as for giving up... what is that?
RobyHermida
Excellent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seaview123
Your heartfelt words are very emotional, and remind us that depression is a very real affliction that millions deal with daily. It can seem almost impossible to live with and deal with the feelings that depression can bring about. But, the fact that you are able to create such fantastic artwork, no matter how you do it, lets us all know that you've got a bright spirit that is struggling to get out, and you enrich us all by its light. Please don't ever give up, and continue to show us your bright side.
kepp
superb design leann love the yellow and a nice frame
kleinhoon
Beautiful..!!
farmerC
FANTASTICE CREATION.
nazul
Excellent render - 5+++
amota99517
Your words and image are wonderful and filled with an unending energy that is remarkable. How unique and wonderful you are! Keep up the good work. Gayle
Tanglimara
This is a wonderful fractal Lea with lovely subtle colouring and the framing is superb. I feel for you Lea and I'm glad you take comfort from Gayles words. I have to agree with e-brink when he says "what's giving up", I think those words should come back to you when you are feeling down, but I know it can be hard sometimes. Take care my friend. Tone.
clydedough
I hear ya..i have but one friend left. (that i can SEE) TV gets so old. Anyway this s Very exciteing and full of possibilities-abound. Very cool!
MagikUnicorn
Wonderful green & blue
VDH
Wonderful composition!
bpclarke
You go girl! That's the attitude! It's the "Pull up your bootstraps" kind of attitude that carries us through. Splendid work today and courageous words. You are a heroine! Bunny
missouri
You're so right, we only have today. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow still a dream, we must learn to live in the moment for a meaningful life. You can do it!!! I applaud your efforts...Rock on, Lea.
afugatt
Thanks for sharing a glimpse into your life Lea. I have a friend who battles depression and it is so hard to see what she goes through. I want to do something for her, but what? I feel so helpless. All I know to do is be there for her when she needs support and someone to talk to. My heartfelt sympathy is with you, my friend, and all others who battle this thing. Oh yeah, wonderful image too!
embou
Beautiful Lea! Really like how everything fits together! Great depth!
bakapo
beautiful work! hugs hang in there and always believe in yourself, look at the wonderful art you make! thank you for sharing your talent with us.
tetsu-pino
Fantastic color and design work!!!
LBJ2
Wonderful work, Lea. Beautiful fractal and colouring. The human mind is fragile. We all need to work a lot with it, all our life. Full time job for 50-80 years.+5
clam73
you did really good here and I admire your courage to go out with these words, excellent fractal work, congrats!
junge1
Fantastic creation Lea!