Deep Sorrow by zil2008
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This is a memorial to the love of my life, Mikey
Mikey passed away at 2 am this morning. I am devastated at this loss. He was my whole world. The house feels so empty without him as he had a very big personality. He died before his time.
I took him to the vet on Saturday because he had trouble eating because the veterianarian had put him on a cat food that constipated him very badly. He could not go to the litterr box and so stopped eating.
I took him to get the vet to help him. The vet took x-rays and blood tests.
When we looke at the x-ray we could see how he was plugged up so the vet said he would give him an enema to unplug him. I watched how this was done and it seemed easy enough when I was thee. The vet said he would have to do it again later and told me he would keep Mikey for a day.
I asked about the eating and said that I was worried that Mikey had Hepatic Lipidoses.
Feline Hepatic Lipidosis (Fatty Liver Disease) is fairly common in cats, particularly older cats that have lost a lot of weight in a short time. Fatty liver disease has a good chance of reversal if caught early enough by feeding the cat.
The vet said he doubted it and I kept saying yes he had it. The vet just focued in on the constipation.
I had gone home and the vet put the cat under so much stress with this process because the cat was not so cooperative when I was not there.
In any event I went to the vet on Monday to pick him up and he was totally lethargic. The vet said he had diabetis and we should euthanise him. I said no that diabetis could be treated.
I asked about the feeding. They squeezed the side of his face and put food on the roof of his mouth. I said is that all.I knew about syring feeding and asked the vet for one and he just said to do it the way he had.
He acted like he was druged and I asked the vet if he had drugged him and he said, No.
I for the life of me don't know why I agreed to take him home as he was so sick and I don;t know what the vet was thinking.
I got him home and he was still right out of it. He could not walk or eat o anything. I just had him lay on my bed.
Well at 230 he started to cry . I have never seen this he cryed like a human as he was in so much pain and he cried and cried and then died. I could not stop it.
Today at the vet I asked what happened and did the test results come back. The radiology report said Hepatic Lipidoses. No blood work was back so we autopsied Mikey and the vet took out his liver and sure enough he had HL. It is treated by inserting a feeding tune and syringe feeding the cat. It is totally reversible in 6 weeks.
I asked the vet why he had not done this. I had paid him $500.00 for all this. Why did he not insert the tube as I would have then taken him home and fed him. The vets answer was that the cat was not very cooperative. You need to use anethesia to do this as it is a surgical procedure.
Anyway we checked the kidneys etc and everything was fine and we knew his asthma was being well controled. The vet said he would have had another 4 or 5 years of life. He was only 10 years old.
The Vet screwed up big time and I feel so guilty for ever having fed him that crap cat food the vet told me to feed him. I should have known better.
I also should have been more insistant to feed him with the tube. I just feel so bad that I let my baby down when he needed me most. I loved that little guy so much and will miss him alot. He had such a big personality. He was my little Lion.
Comments (65)
mistressotdark
awww i'm so sorry my friend..my heart breaks for you.. i know the feeling you are going through ...as I have lost animals in the past..not like that though..but still painful.... I am so happy that my 2 cats and smokey are fine...
arbee999
Your image is a lovely tribute to your friend Mikey. I am so sorry to hear Mikey's story and want you to know you will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Faemike55
Very lovely Tribute to Mikey. I am so sorry for your loss
eekdog
so very sorry liz to hearabout this, i know how you feel. you already know i lost my friend of 20yrs in jan. and my current cat looks like this one, long hair orange. my thoughts are with you hon.. very moving and emotional image. 10*s lol steve
magnus073
Liz, I'm fighting back the tears as I read all you went through trying to save little Mikey. It's so hard to know what to say as so many of us who love them like our kids know what your going through. PLEASE above all don't blame yourself as there is nothing about this that is your fault. You simply put your faith and trust in a vet who as much as I hate to say it sounds like a idiot. Years ago we lost our beloved Alfred during a simple operation and only later found out through his assistant that it was due to the vet trying to perfrom the surgery while battling the flu. Just like you I beat myself up over it for a long time and I pray you don't do the same. Your in my prayers my dear friend. Hugs
MineFujiko
I am sorry to hear your family's story.
novelist
I'm so sorry. What a beautiful cat and such a sad story. Mikey was lucky to have met and lived with such a caring and compassionate human like you. This is a deeply moving tribute. Beautiful and touching art work. My sympathies to you. I, too, have lost many beloved pets in my life, and I know how hard it is. You've captured grief so well in this image. Take good care.
Adrella
Oh, how sad. :( I'm so sorry to hear your story of your beloved puss. I've lost a dear pet and I know how much it hurts. I also know the first few days are the hardest to cope with, but I hope you can put this behind you before too long and are out there looking for a new furkid to adopt.
JaneEden
OMG My heart cries out to you my dear friend I have tears for you and Mikey rolling down my face. I was about to go to bed 4:10 in the morning here, but was told of your terrible tragedy so could not sleep until I came to your gallery. Oh my dear Liz I really am so sad for you, and for poor Mikey, rest assured he is safe now and in no pain. I cannot imagine the pain you are going through although some did come through in your writing. Please if I can help you in any way don't hesitate to contact me. I will write more later on after I have slept and able to make more sense. All my warmest love and comforting hugs Jane xx God bless Mikey.
Carlazzo
I am sorry for you. My condolences. =(
bakapo
Oh, I'm so sorry. :( my heart aches for you. please don't blame yourself, give yourself time to grieve and then heal. I wish you peace.
swjkie100
OMG I'm so sorry :( Thoughts are with you, white light your way also.....
RodS
I'm so very sorry to read about your loss. You're in my thoughts and prayers in this difficult time.
pennykay
Liz, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and pain! My prayers are with you!
wulf9474
i am so sorry for you r loss. and yes i agree your vet IS an idiot. One good thing though. He might have been in awful pain but at least you were there to spend his final moments with him and try to comfort him rather then him passing alone in the vet's office and receiving the call when the office opened. Just remember he is in a better place now and will be waiting for you. My heart goes out to you. "Hugs"
brycek
So sorry to hear this..my thoughts and prayers are with you. "Hugs"
romanceworks
I'm so sorry you lost your precious Mikey. CC
HungryDead
Oh Liz after all the things you've told me about Mikey this is very heartbreaking news. I think you know how deeply saddened I am about this. Please do not blame yourself, I'm sure he sensed how much you cared for him and you were by his side. Just remember the joy he brought to your life. I'll be thinking about you.
anitalee
I am so sorry
P3Design
I am so sorry to hear about your lost. He sure was a pretty handsome man. That Vet doesn't seem very capable. Hugs.
renecyberdoc
i am devastated reading this dear liz,i was already out of my mind because our biggi had a small thing i dont want to imagine the moment when she has to go and leave us. someone should euthanase this dickhead vet sorry but that was an asshole,he killed the cat he did not gave a shit. thats the profession a doctor even a fuckface doctor will never allow your meaning and diagnose he is the god is he??. i am crying here .sorry .................strangely i did not cried for the human loss in the earthquake in china tonight. sorry for my rough words but i would tell him that in the face.
UteBigSmile
OMG how sad Liz, I agree with René, even with his rough words, when it's about animals I forgot my ladylike behavier, this one must really bee an big a.....!!! What a beautiful one he was, I am very sad for this loss (was he an Maine Coon?). Try to think about the good moments you had with him and I know you never will ferget him dear! Hug's Ute
ladiesmen
So sad to hear Liz. My hearts cries for Mikey and you. Rest is in mail
capelito
I am so sorry for your loss.
bazza
Oh Liz this is so sad, my condolences to you.. I know how hard it is to lose a cat or dog especially if they have been a member of the family for a long time.. I pray you don't blame yourself for something that this quack vet did (or didn't do ) that he should have done for you and Mikey.. I don't think I would pay him if he did that to my pet.. Grr makes me mad that people like this think they are better than you so they won't listen and then charge a fortune for nothing.. You are in my thoughts at this time Liz.. take care now.. Lovely memorial for Micky, beautiful work!!
Valery3D
This is Heartbreaking news..i feel so sad for you cause i know Mikey was your whole live and love...i Wish you a lot of strenght, warmth and love Hon. I am here for you.
BIGBEAR1965
I'm so sorry for your loss, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Very beautiful and touching tribute for Mikey
Shirahime
fantastic!
remo
So very sorry for your loss.
1010
Our pets are more than that to us. They are family. I feel your pain and will cry with you!