Deep Sorrow by zil2008
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This is a memorial to the love of my life, Mikey
Mikey passed away at 2 am this morning. I am devastated at this loss. He was my whole world. The house feels so empty without him as he had a very big personality. He died before his time.
I took him to the vet on Saturday because he had trouble eating because the veterianarian had put him on a cat food that constipated him very badly. He could not go to the litterr box and so stopped eating.
I took him to get the vet to help him. The vet took x-rays and blood tests.
When we looke at the x-ray we could see how he was plugged up so the vet said he would give him an enema to unplug him. I watched how this was done and it seemed easy enough when I was thee. The vet said he would have to do it again later and told me he would keep Mikey for a day.
I asked about the eating and said that I was worried that Mikey had Hepatic Lipidoses.
Feline Hepatic Lipidosis (Fatty Liver Disease) is fairly common in cats, particularly older cats that have lost a lot of weight in a short time. Fatty liver disease has a good chance of reversal if caught early enough by feeding the cat.
The vet said he doubted it and I kept saying yes he had it. The vet just focued in on the constipation.
I had gone home and the vet put the cat under so much stress with this process because the cat was not so cooperative when I was not there.
In any event I went to the vet on Monday to pick him up and he was totally lethargic. The vet said he had diabetis and we should euthanise him. I said no that diabetis could be treated.
I asked about the feeding. They squeezed the side of his face and put food on the roof of his mouth. I said is that all.I knew about syring feeding and asked the vet for one and he just said to do it the way he had.
He acted like he was druged and I asked the vet if he had drugged him and he said, No.
I for the life of me don't know why I agreed to take him home as he was so sick and I don;t know what the vet was thinking.
I got him home and he was still right out of it. He could not walk or eat o anything. I just had him lay on my bed.
Well at 230 he started to cry . I have never seen this he cryed like a human as he was in so much pain and he cried and cried and then died. I could not stop it.
Today at the vet I asked what happened and did the test results come back. The radiology report said Hepatic Lipidoses. No blood work was back so we autopsied Mikey and the vet took out his liver and sure enough he had HL. It is treated by inserting a feeding tune and syringe feeding the cat. It is totally reversible in 6 weeks.
I asked the vet why he had not done this. I had paid him $500.00 for all this. Why did he not insert the tube as I would have then taken him home and fed him. The vets answer was that the cat was not very cooperative. You need to use anethesia to do this as it is a surgical procedure.
Anyway we checked the kidneys etc and everything was fine and we knew his asthma was being well controled. The vet said he would have had another 4 or 5 years of life. He was only 10 years old.
The Vet screwed up big time and I feel so guilty for ever having fed him that crap cat food the vet told me to feed him. I should have known better.
I also should have been more insistant to feed him with the tube. I just feel so bad that I let my baby down when he needed me most. I loved that little guy so much and will miss him alot. He had such a big personality. He was my little Lion.
Comments (65)
Casina
so sorry for your loss... the cat is very beautiful
adrie
Oh Liz, this is such heartbraking news my dear friend, i was crying when I read your story, please dont blame it all on your self, i know it is hart no to, but the vet he his wrong not you.....you made a wonderful tribute to him Liz......hugs Adrie.
LivingPixels
gorgeous creature sorry liz for your loss my friend!!!
2121
Liz, i am so sorry about your loss hun, but don't berate yourself, i am sure Mikey would rather have been near you at the end than in the vets. At least he was with you and your love. Wish i could send you a hug.
boggers
I'm so sorry about your loss - I have lost three cats over the years and they were all such characters and so special - Every time I thought my heart would never mend, but it did. At least you were with him at the end and i'm sure that would have comforted him. Mikey was a beautiful boy and this is a lovely and touching tribute to him. Take care - Lily
Miska7
I'm very sorry to hear about your cat.
mgtcs
OMG.....What a sad news my dear friend, I'm really sorry for your loss. Try to remember only about the good moments with him. Adorable tribute.
Roboman28
Sad story. People tend naturally to think vets know best. Well maybe they don't. A cautionary story.
Mousson
great image!!!!!!!!!!!!!
doarte
I am so sorry for your loss. It is extremely difficult when a friend so close as Mikey is taken. Prayers and thought for you at this difficult time. What a beautiful image in tribute.
drifterlee
I am so sorry for your loss. My 17 year old cat Oreo died Dec. 16 and I know how you feel. Oreo was a sweet and snuggly cat that we had since he was a kitten. He slept with us every night. He had a constipation problem, too, and we had to give him laxatives. Then he had diahreah. When he died, I felt like I have a hole in my heart.
Seven
OH Liz, I'm so very sorry to hear about your loss. You can't take on the blame yourself though, feelings of guilt will only make you suffer even more. You put your trust and faith in someone who is suppose to know what he's doing and that's where the blame should be! Hang in there my friend and hold on to all your wonderful memories!! Big hugs, Trish
shamstar
SWo sorry. Lovely tribute.
scifibabe
I am so very sorry to hear about Mikey. My heart goes out to you. I can relate to your loss. I've had a pet who was precious to me. And it's so hard to loss that pet. Big big hugs to you. I hope you'll be okay and get through this pain. Your tribute to him is very touching.
alessimarco
I am so sad for you Liz. I have had cats all my life. My current two are numbers 9 and 10. Losing each of the first 8 was so hard each and every time! Each was a dear friend to me, like Micky to you. I really feel your loss! Your image is a wonderful memorial for Micky.
danapommet
Liz, I'm so sorry for your loss of Mikey. This is a wonderful dedication and render. Remember the good times and try not to dwell on the end. Dana
Kaartijer
I'm so sorry for your loss, Liz... just get another cat to fill the empty space, it will ease your pain... Lovely tribute!
Arumbus
Oh, i am so sorry.
crender
Excellent work!!! well done!!!
myrrhluz
This is a lovely memorial to Mickey. He was a beautiful cat. I am very sorry for your loss and heartache. It is so hard when animals hurt and you can't take the pain away. It is the vet's fault and not yours! I echo what Dana said, remember the good times. My avatar is Tasha. She was my first cat after leaving home. She been gone for 15 years. I still think often about her, but it is easier now. She lives in my heart just as Mickey lives in yours. My best wishes to you.
brewgirlca
Oh Liz, I just got home from my trip and I am totally mortified to read this. I am going to write you a site mail right away. But here I want to say this for Mickey. Mickey was truely blessed and a very lucky cat. He had the best Mom in the world, a Mom who loved him unconditionally and went to extraordinary lengths to care for her baby. A Mom who made the best descisions she could given the circumstances of the moment. Mickey left this world too soon, there is no denying that, and he left because of the arrogant stupidity of a professional who you had put your trust in. But given the circumstances, and they were terrible, Mickey was lucky to pass on in the arms of his beloved Mom. Few of us will be so blessed. Circumstances brought this little guy's life to an untimely end, but if it was going to happen when it did then it was better to happen at home, in bed with his beloved than in a cold lonely cage at the vet. My beloved Pingo died in my arms some 4 years ago and it was always a blessing that I was there for her at the moment of her passing. That I got to hug her and hold her and tell her how much I loved her. Never doubt that Mickey knew his Mom was there for him. They know. We are human, we make the best calls we can and those of us who love their fur babies like they are their children... well,.. we all know you did the very best you could for the little guy. You fought for his life and you did your best, Mickey knew that he was loved. I am crying for you sweetie. I understand your loss Blessed be Roxy
Chaosphoto
I so know just how you feel. I lost my cat to a car. I heard the cars slow down but I was busy welding and couldn't easily stop so I didn't think more about it. Later that night I went looking for my little girl and found her cold and dead on the bank next to the road. She had tried to come home with 2 broken legs and internal injuries but couldn't make it all while I worked away. I loved her more than anyone or anything at the time and my not being there for her still hurts 12 years later. She loved me more deeply than any other pet ever has and I had her for about 10 years also You have my deepest sympathies Liz
Nickieboy2004
As someone who is so very fond of his dogs, I fully understand your feelings. I'm sorry for your loss. This is a very nice memorial tribute.
HADCANCER
So sorry to here of your loss. You get a bigg cyber hug from me. I know I have out lived several pets and each ones death too a toll on me. I have gotten new pets which did not fill the void completely, but it helped.
Steff_7
So sorry to hear about your loss. Beautiful memorial and hope you find some peace soon and your house is once more a home...
ragouc
Sorry for your loss.
Radar_rad-dude
The loss of my own brother the night before Easter weighs to heavily on me to make any coherent or comforting remark except that I definately feel your loss! Know that there is a better place both for humans and animals that go through such pain and suffering! I have to believe that! It helps me deal with the loss!
Leilana
I'm so sorry my friend! My heart breaks for you - Your image is a lovely tribute to your wonderful Mikey
J5ive
Oh so Sad to Hear! Beautiful tribute!!
Iceshark39
A beautiful and touching tribute to your beloved companion. My deepest condolences to you for your loss. It's so hard when our companions suffer so...but remember, he'll be waiting for you on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge...and I'm sure he'll be happy to see you but he will always be with you.